confrontation

Jungkook woke up at 11:00 am the next day with a huge headache as if he had drank all night; after Jimin left, Jungkook had to ask Namjoon for a ride back to his dorms since he knew that Tae was sleeping with Hoseok figuratively and literally. He didn’t want to ruin their night as he ruined his and Jimin’s so he left his soul mate be

The room was empty and Jungkook’s heart was heavy; he stil couldn’t grasp what happened between him and Jimin last night; he was an ***, he treated him like he would do to any clingy girl or boy that he fucked and threw, Jimin was his first love and he would never imagine doing anything that would hurt him, but he still managed to do so.

Looking at his phone, he felt much worse; Jimin sent him the good morning text that he had been sending him since they started dating. Jimin never failed to send it to him even if he was mad at him; before they used to get into arguments about Jungkook ignoring his texts or his intensive training but it was nothing as serious as last night. Yet Jimin still did the same thing he did when he had small arguments with his boyfriend; usually he would send him ‘good morning gorgeous, beautiful, stunning and MINE, I love you’, but when they were in the middle of an argument, he would only send him ‘good morning.’ still those as Jungkook would call Jimin for them as being cliché, corny and cheesy, were something that he secretly loved and anticipated

Looking at the simple ‘good morning’ text, Jungkook felt bad, sad and clueless how he could fix that; he hurt Jimin and he knew that but he also knew that sometimes he couldn’t help it; thing just got out of hands. And as always whenever he was in distress he called the only one who got him

“Hi Kookie!!!! I thought you spent the night at the headquarter when you didn’t call me” said Tae cheerfully

“Hi, well I didn’t; I’m at our room” said Jungkook

“with Jiminie? Come and join me, I’m at the café; Hobi just left” said Tae

“I’m alone, Jimin is in his dorm” said Jungkook faintly

“Kookie? Is something wrong?” asked Tae worried

“Yeah; like always, I fucked up” said Jungkook laughing bitterly

“Come, I’m at the café” ordered Tae

“Ok” said Jungkook obediently

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“Care to share how things managed to be screwed when I left for just an hour?” asked Tae when Jungkook walked in the café; Tae had ordered Jungkook’s favorite drink and was patiently waiting for him

“PDA” said Jungkook shortly thinking that that was the root of all their problems

“What about it? Jimin knows that you are not a fan, what’s new there” asked Tae unfazed

“Well, I might have told him that I’m not comfortable in showing my love and our exclusivity to people” said Jungkook

“So I wasn’t that wrong about you fearing what people thought of you two” said Tae

“It is not that, I just don’t see the need to feed people stupid curiosity about us” defended Jungkook

“Oh shut up!!! I know you; you don’t like to feel like you’re tied down to him” jeered Tae

“I don’t know what’s wrong with me, but he is exaggerating too” said Jungkook still refusing to see the big picture there

“Wait a sec, I’m calling Jin hyung” said Tae fetching his phone texting his shrink

“Why? This is ridiculous hyung” said Jungkook

“No it is not, it is serious. And you won’t see how serious it is until you hear it from a professional” said Tae shaking his head

“Whatever” said Jungkook sipping his drink

“Do you really love him?” asked Tae

“Tae hyung!!!” yelled Jungkook and as always he couldn’t help the blush that crept in his cheeks

“I mean do you love him enough to not care what others think about you two together and your past reputation” asked Tae

“I don’t care, but it is hard to just shake it off sometimes” said Jungkook lowly

“Oh Jin hyung!” cried Tae waving to his slacks and polo shirt dressing shrink who walked in dashingly like he was filming an ad

“Hi boys!” said Jin sitting with them

“So what’s the emergency Tae-shi” said Jin trying to act formally

“This clueless boy here just asks his boyfriend to not show their relationship’s status to the world” ranted Tae

“So already troubles??? I thought you loved Jimin” said Jin meaningfully

“Love, love not loved” corrected Jungkook furiously

“Glad to know that; but why are you upset that I used the past tense, are not you supposed to not care what people need to know about you?” asked Jin simply

“Yeah Kookie, why?” asked Tae smiling

“You two are unbelievable, I just don’t see why…” started Jungkook but he head shoot up straight to the entrance when he saw Jimin entering the café looking tired but he still managed to make Jungkook’s heart skipped a beat

“Oh Jiminie” waved Tae smiling

“Oh hi guys!” said Jimin to them all and that it didn’t sit well with Jungkook; he always got his special greeting from Jimin even when PDA wasn’t included; he would give him a wink or those eyes smile that were the reason he felt in love with him

“Why don’t you join us, I will get you your drink” offered Tae when he saw how intense Jimin and Jungkook were staring at each other

“nah! Thanks; I’m taking mine to go” said Jimin walking to the counter

“Do or say something” hissed Tae lowly

“What?” asked Jungkook

“You have to talk to him about it; if you leave things unsaid for long time, things may not patch up easily” agreed Jin and that all what Jungkook needed; a professional unbiased opinion

“Hey” said Jungkook sitting on the stool next Jimin

“Hey” said Jimin indifferently “Give me ice lemon juice” added Jimin to the worker there who Jungkook didn’t know; the summer staffs were usually townies

“Did you have your breakfast?” asked Jungkook and Jimin just shook his head negatively

“Why are you drinking acidic sour drink on an empty stomach?” asked Jungkook worriedly and Jimin just smiled; it was always nice when Jungkook showed concerned about the older, Jimin loved that side of Jungkook but he also knew that he couldn’t just let last night go just because Jungkook said something thoughtful

“What?” asked Jungkook when he saw that Jimin was just smiling

“Nothing” said Jimin and the smile vanished along with the easiness that Jungkook felt

“I’m sorry” said Jungkook with a small voice

“About what?” asked Jimin seriously

“I don’t know, last night, what I said, everything” named Jungkook the things he could think of

“So you don’t know what you’re really sorry about and why I’m hurt, so you just throw the ‘I’m sorry’ here and you left it for me to place where I see fit” asked Jimin firmly; he wasn’t going to let this go easily just because Jungkook looked so cute while he was apologizing with his head down and cheeks rosy pink

“saying it like this, it makes me look like a monster” said Jungkook looking at his boyfriend

“it makes me look like a pathetic boyfriend” corrected Jimin

“I love you” said Jungkook and it was rare for him to initiate the confession

“I know, but do you love me enough?” said Jimin trying so hard not to look affected by the confession

“stop fucking dramatizing thing Jiminie; you know what I was before you and how it’s hard to adjust to all this” said Jungkook a little upset; he was planning to be tamed and peaceful but Jimin was testing his patient

“I wasn’t that far from where you were, and I’m sorry if I put you in hard position with being in your life so you had to adjust” said Jimin and then his order came, he wanted to take it and leave so things wouldn’t turn worse but he knew that Jungkook was kind right for calling that running away from the discussion so he wanted to set it once and for all

“God!!!! I didn’t mean it that way and you know it” said Jungkook

“What do I really know by now about you? Last night I’ve met a sunbae that you seemed that you don’t mind his flirting. Do you miss being the center of attention that much? Is being with me making you less than a man” said Jimin and he knew it was a low blow but he didn’t care by then

“Fuck you” snapped Jungkook

“I wish, but you wouldn’t; I kept asking you for a while now but I guess you’re not that into me and maybe even that night meant nothing to you” said Jimin chuckling hysterically

“this is going nowhere” said Jungkook leaving Jimin baffled; he was supposed to be mad not the other way around, but again he spoiled Jungkook enough so the boy just did as he pleased with him

“I don’t recall asking you to go fight him” said Tae when Jungkook sat back in his chair

“He is being impossible” complained Jungkook

“What happened?” asked Jin softly

“He kept saying I don’t love him enough and anything we’ve done meant nothing to me” said Jungkook feeling weird to be able to open up to Jin given the fact how reserved he was about his private life; Jin must have it in him to make people felt at ease

“Oppppaaa” a loud voices interrupted the conversation and it was not even meant for them; four girls walked in the café and headed to Jimin who was drinking his lemon and giving his back to Jungkook

“Oh hi girls!” said Jimin cheerfully turning to greet them and as a result he found himself facing Jungkook who was boring his stares at him

“where have you been last night? We looked everywhere for you?” asked the shortest of them all

“Yeah; you said that you’ll give a special dance to the one you’re in love with” added the tallest of them

“I mean we got to see Hoseok oppa dance and it was amazing; Tae oppa is a lucky guy” added the shortest girl

“Well Tae oppa is a nice guy, I like him, he deserves Hoseok oppa” said the tallest girl

“he is, isn’t he” said Jimin looking at the happy Tae who was blushing

“So what’s the deal with you?” asked the third girl; she looked intimidating

“nothing Nina, I wasn’t feeling well so I left” said Jimin

“I told Nina that you were lying, we all know that after how much you loved Yoongi oppa there is no way you would find someone that fast, but again I thought that event was meant for him” said tallest

“Why would you think that?” asked Jimin looking at Jungkook rather the girls but they were so engrossed in the conversation between them that Jimin presence was merely relevant

“We love you as a couple, we shipped you so hard” said Nina

“yes!!! Yoongi oppa and you complete each other; I don’t think you can find someone that loves you like Yoongi oppa did” agreed the shortest

“You girls watched too much drama” chuckled Jimin

“No!!! and if we were that wrong, tell us who is the mystery guy or girl that you said you have” challenged Nina

“Actually after last night, I don’t think I know what’s the status of our relationship” said Jimin and Jungkook fisted his knees

“Why? Is it a ‘some’ thing?” asked the tallest girl

“Do we know him? It is a him right?” asked Nina excitedly

“No comment” said Jimin teasingly and Jungkook was fuming

“Come on! Give us something” said the shortest

“Before that; tell me how was Hoseokie hyung dance” asked Jimin averting the conversation; he might hate the fact that no one knew about him and Jungkook but he wasn’t going to out his boyfriend and he knew those four girls cooing over couples were their forte

“It was epic; so sexy and emotional” said the tallest dreamingly

“yeah, Tae oppa better take good care of Hoseokie oppa” added Nina

“Why don’t you tell him that yourself” said Jimin pointing at Tae who winked at them and they all gasped

“You know he was here? Mean oppa” said Nina hitting Jimin lightly on his chest and Jungkook was tormented

“Well you didn’t give me a chance” defended Jimin laughing

“Hey oppa? Is his best friend Jungkook seeing anyone?” asked the shortest pretending to be discreet about it but anyone could hear her, the boys’ table included

“Why?” asked Jimin looking at her

“I think he is hot, you know him right? Can you help a dongsaeng out” said the short girl cutely

“Don’t!!! he is a player, the worst kind” said Nina firmly at her friend

“I don’t care; I heard he is so good in bed, I want to experience it once” said the short girl simply and Jimin choked on his drink

“Language ladies; I’m still here” said Jimin coughing

“Stop acting all innocent, beside tell me how good is he? What do you know about him?” asked Nina scoffing at his overreaction

“I wouldn’t know; I wasn’t that intimate with him” said Jimin looking at Jungkook who had a pained expression for some reason

“Don’t oppa; focus on Yoongi oppa” said the shortest girl

“You’re saying that just because you want him” teased Jimin

“touché” said the short girl high fiving him

“I’m out of here; it seems like you girls didn’t change at all” said Jimin walking out of the café

“hey Jimin-shi, can I talk to you?” asked Jin when Jimin passed their table and was about to leave

“Sure, and call me Jimin” said Jimin

Both men left the café with Jimin’s car

“Take me the acting department please” said Jin when he was inside the car

“So what do you think of all our mess???” asked Jimin knowingly

“Huh?” asked Jin

“Come on! You didn’t actually just want a ride to the dept?” added Jimin

“So why are you acting out like a jerk to him?” asked Jin

“What??? Did you just say that??? After all he had done” said Jimin baffled by the way Jin saw things

“Well you’re the eldest in the relationship; you’ve to be more considered to him. He is only soon to be 19 yrs old; he is still a clueless teen” said Jin

“So you’re saying everything he had done and said to me should be forgotten because he is a kid” said Jimin angrily

“No!!! Tae and I gave him our piece of mind; don’t worry Tae was close to beat him for you” said Jin

“I want to understand him but I can’t” admitted Jimin

“Look you want him to show you that he loves you enough to show it to the world, but the thing is, you also need to love him enough to be patient with him. It is both way route; you can’t just expect things from him without giving him something back; you’ve been in the game longer than him so you’re no longer fascinated by the glamorous and the countless cheers you got from others like he is. You’re mature enough to know what you want, he is still learning; he is still somehow intoxicated with the admirations he is getting, he loves you a lot but he also new to all this; love for him equal weak and helpless, it is what Tae blames himself for; he has been in unhealthy relationships over the years that Jungkook associated love with pain and heartbreak. this where your job comes ; you have to show him what love is really and you need to push him to do things he needs to do for the relationship, don’t just stand there and wait for him to act” lectured Jin and Jimin was attentively listening to him; it was refreshing to hear about Jungkook and learned about himself from someone who knew what he was talking about, Jimin felt more at ease

“Thanks hyung” said Jimin

“My pleasure; Tae is an adorable boy, I can’t believe that I got attached to him even after the end of our sessions, knowing you guys was a happy thing” assured Jin

“Thanks for everything you’ve done for us, Tae especially” said Jimin

“Well thanks to him I got to experience life at the university from a different angle; I attended parties and met new interesting people that I wouldn’t usually see myself talking to” said Jin

“Were you at the party last night?” asked Jimin

“No; I wasn’t invited” said Jin simply

“Are you sure? Because Namjoon hyung kept making sure that all Tae’s friends should be at the party” said Jimin perplexed

“The brat!!! He still thinks I don’t think he is good enough to be my friend, but then again that’s Tae” chuckled Jin but he looked thoughtful for a sec

“Well it was the Bangtan’s bad; we should have or Namjoon should have invited you himself; I don’t see why he didn’t, last time we met, you two looked chummy” said Jimin stopping the car next the department

“That was chummy to you??? He kept making fun of my profession and called me fake” sneered Jin

“That is how Namjoon hyung’s brain functions; you can’t take everything he said personally; he is the one with weird mentality; a rapper with deep thought” said Jimin laughing

“I didn’t take it personally; I’ve seen many people to know when I’m dealing with a pretentious person” said Jin proudly

“Are not you a little too invested and affected hyung” snickered Jimin and he was shocked to see Jin looked fazed by the statement

“I’m not…. Meeting his kind of people always got on my nerves… and I still don’t see where the deep thoughts could come from that man” stammered Jin reaching for the car’s door’s handle

“You’re the professional; you know you more than anyone” said Jimin playing along with his hyung defensive attitude

“thanks for the ride, think about what I said; Jungkook loves you” said Jin then he turned quickly to avoid any smartass comment from the short boy

Jimin had no idea where he should go next; tomorrow was the new academic year’s opening ceremony, he still didn’t know what he should with Jungkook and how things would be now that they were starting a new year in Seoul and not Busan; it felt like a lifetime since Busan, he was the happiest there, Jungkook was gentle and caring even if he tried to play hard to get and look cold to Jimin, he was still his Jungkook, now thing weren’t the same; Jungkook had still a lot to learn and deal with, when he had Jimin added to his life. Jimin loved Jungkook enough to be patient

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“So what are you going to do? The ceremony is tomorrow and if the word comes out that Jimin is single, you won’t have a second with him” said Tae; they were still at the café, the girls left half an hour after Jimin and Jin, after one of them dropped a napkin with her number but Jungkook just tore it in front of her emotionlessly

“Do what? We are fine; he is being his Jimin self and I’m being myself, we will work it out” said Jungkook lazily

“You really are confident that he loves you that much to just wait around for you to grow some balls and admit your relationship with him to the world” said Tae seriously

“hyung I love you but you’ve said enough already about this; I have a lot to think about, I will do the right thing; my soul mate is such a pain in the *** that I don’t think I will sway from the right path” said Jungkook giving Tae his big puppy eyes

“Whatever; I like Jiminie so don’t torture him for long” said Tae

“you like him and I love him” said Jungkook

“Why is it hard to utter those damn words to the world?” said Tae frustrated

“I don’t know; maybe I need or I’m waiting for some sign” teased Jungkook walking away from Tae who was calling him but he just ignored

He walked to his room; funny how when he thought that shedding the playboy image would screw his life, but now all he craved was one man attention; he missed Jimin and the upset and quite Jimin wasn’t his favorite Jimin but again; he was the reason and the cause of it

Kookie: hi

Jiminie: hi

Kookie: how r u?

Jiminie: Kookie, what’s wrong with the formality, I’ve just seen u

Kookie: u called me Kookie!!!!!!!

Jiminie: y? u don’t like it?

Kookie: no!!!! I love it, I just thought that…

Jiminie: we’re fighting that’s all, I still love u and I’m still with u

Kookie: I’m an idiot

Jiminie: we both r

Kookie: u r supposed to say ‘no u r not’

Jiminie: Well I’m stating facts