New Vengeful Life - Taekook - Glimpses of Past

Glimpses of Past

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Taehyung was restless. How could he not be? The unease was right in him, lurking like a poisonous notorious snake as be watched his only love being in such pathetic state. Jungkook was crying, writhing, wriggling as if he was suffering the pain of death and Taehyung was not able to help even after knowing all this. He didn't want anyone else to see such a state of his koo. He knew Jungkook himself would hate so too.. but he also couldn't see this state of his koo.. How could he? When u love someone so deeply and passionately as of they have resided in your bones and merged with your soul, you will feel like death embracing as you see them in pain.. You have to feel it cause that's what love brings.. that's what you get for loving someone so crazily and eagerly. The building anxieties in Taehyung were no joke. Watching such a state of Jungkook, whom he had wanted and waited to see smiling and happy on his return all these days, was suffering. Taehyung felt like getting a taste of death. Unknown reason, unknown cause, unknown past and unknown facts.... everything he was oblivious around koo, questioned him, his love, his dedication and his passion for Jungkook. What type lover was he? Claiming all sort of dominance, possessiveness and dedication, he didn't even knew the reason behind Jungkook's such a panic attacks and relapses. Since the very beginning he knew nothing. Not that he didn't try or he didn't ask koo, but he never had or will force it out of Jungkook. But right at this moment, its his love that's questioning him. Seeing Jungkook in such a state.... definitely his heart would be troubled and pained and it was bound to have anxious thoughts and feelings. He couldn't help it. He couldn't stop his heart from questioning his love.. Anxiety is the dizziness of freedom. Anxiety is love's greatest killer. It makes others feel as you might when a drowning man holds on to you. You want to save him, but you know he will strangle you with his panic. After all, what is happiness? Love, they tell me. But love doesn't bring and never has brought happiness. On the contrary, it's a constant state of anxiety, a battlefield; it's sleepless nights, asking ourselves all the time if we're doing the right thing. Real love is composed of ecstasy and agony. To hear the phrase "our only hope" always makes one anxious, because it means that if the only hope doesn't work, there is nothing left. And Taehyung has accepted Jungkook as his only hope in this life... he didn't even know what he would do without Jungkook beside him. No! he didn't just want Jungkook beside him. He wanted the real Jungkook, the beautiful.. shy around him.. gasping with little intimacy.. and full of determination and strength Jungkook for himself. And somewhere in his heart he had accepted Jungkook as his source of life, source of living.. Well, this much of attraction, attachment and emotions was definitely dangerous.. and when a pure, hearted, determined person does so, it's even more dangerous. A warrior who needs to be head strong, courageous, ignoring overwhlemed emotions and ignore the strive of peace in his heart, was having anxiety in him. Never in his entire life had Taehyung felt and gone through all these, and now he does that... he is doing it so intensely that his own anxiousness is killing him within. His love for Jungkook at some point was so intense, ferocious and profound, that he was incognizant to the matters beside. But for now he needed to hold his horses back and take care of Jungkook.

He immediately carried Jungkook to their shared bedroom. Jungkook had wrapped himself around Taehyung so tightly that it felt like he would choke him any moment. But would Taehyung complain? Never. He banged the door close behind them as he rushed to the bed. He sits on the bed with Jungkook on his lap, his legs tight around his waist and his arms tight around his neck. Jungkook was in no position to let him go. Taehyung hugged Jungkook closer and buried his face in Jungkook's neck as he planted butterfly kisses over there and trailed it on his neck, shoulder, jaw and cheeks. Jungkook was too into his relapse that he was not even sensing these actions, forget about reacting. Taehyung tried to break the hug and free the wrapped up Jungkook to take a look at him, but Jungkook's simply hugged him tighter and sobbed harder. Taehyung's heart broke into pieces, he could hear the shattering sound. He could feel each piece of his broken heart stabbing his soul as Jungkook's wails simply made him bleed.

Taehyung caressed his back and tried to soothe him. He could here Jungkook's cries echoing in his ears, traveling down his head, each nerve, each cell and finally making feel the gut wrenching pain. What's happening? what's wrong? Why is Jungkook being so? Did something happen? Did he see something? Did he remember something? Did he get hurt or did he have an episode again? Taehyung vividly remembers those nights when he and Jungkook weren't a couple and he used to sneak into the Jeon house, into Jungkook's courtyard and room. He remembers it as clearly as yesterday, how Jungkook had those relapses and episodes at night, where his breath hitched, he used to hyperventilate and get panic attacks. He used to get so worried to see that state of Jungkook.. The way Jungkook used to shuffle and shiver like a tortured animal, beaten up little puppy and whine and whimper as if in extreme endless pain.. But just a warm hug from Taehyung, some assuring words and Jungkook used to calm down, loose consciousness to sleep or just git tired sometimes.. But since they both confessed each other, accepted their love and got into this relation, these things had never happened since then.. Jungkook never talked about his past, he never remembered actually. Being with Taehyung all this while, surrounded with pure, divine and warmth of love, he forgot that he had a dreadful, horrendous past which ate him like leech and sucked his blood. Taehyung thought he knew how to handle Jungkook under such circumstances, but now he thinks, he doesn't. He feels really ashamed, helpless and powerless seeing Jungkook in this state but still not able to do anything. Why did Jungkook have all those past reminisced after all this while? Did he something? someone? or something related? But how would Taehyung know? he was oblivious to Jungkook's past.. He thought pampering and love filled words with some delicate care would pull him out of those pitch of darkness, but nothing worked. All Jungkook did was wail and wail while mumbling something which was beyond understanding.

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❥𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲~

The situation was so emotional before.. the way koo acted seriously ached my heart and I shivered in real.. this was like the most emotional situation I have seen in this story after actually knowing his miseries.. the way I cried and wiped my tears again and again.. even now I am trying to get out of it.. and I wonder, if what taehyung thought was true.. then who is the one back stabbing them??

2024-08-08

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Considered?

2023-11-13

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Babes, it's mommy here 😏

I think he needs treatment more than your comfort.....idiot!! take him to a doctor if you suspect him being poisoned!!! these stupid mfs....aaahhhh!!! I'm frustrated! 😤

2023-09-14

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