Episode 20

Sophia

I smile at Adrian's jokes.

I reach for my phone as it vibrates in my pocket.

"Again?" he asks.

I shake my head as I text the idiot to leave me alone. It's my first day off, and yes, I miss Mia, but I also miss talking to other people.

"Forget it, they'll manage without me."

"You must be the best nanny ever."

"I am."

"Are you saving money for school?" he asks Adrian while signaling to a friend to serve us another beer.

I don't answer right away because I'm not sure what I want to do with my life. In mafia families, women have always had a clear role; to be a wife and mother. But talking to Adrian made me realize I had more possibilities than I thought. I'm an adult, dad's not here, and I can make my own decisions. The problem is that I still haven't figured out what I want to do with my life.

"I don't know, for now, I'm enjoying taking care of Mia."

"Living in the moment and not stressing about the future is wise."

I nod with a smile, hoping it is.

"How are your classes going?"

He sighs and takes a big sip of his beer before answering: "Exam period. It's been... hard, but I think I've managed so far."

I watch Adrian talk and decide he's a handsome guy. Tall, not as much as him, but who is. He has dark eyes and brown hair. So far, he's been kind and attentive. The perfect man, and I'm not attracted to him.

I'm an idiot.

I thought making smart decisions would be easier, but here I am on a first date with a nice guy, and I can't stop thinking about him. That damn kiss. I have to get it out of my head. I have to overwrite it with new memories. I know I can do it.