Episode 5
Katie Cat (Author)
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Jungkook stops walking with a questioning look on his face.
Namjoon looks uncomfortable and confused.
Kim Namjoon
"No I just thought you were bi or pan... Wait wait, it was completely wrong of me to assume anything... I should have... I'm so sorry. I'm an idiot... I'm sorry I'm sorry..."
He likes this Namjoon the best, the one that gets flustered easily the one who is overly but sincerely apologetic when he realises horrifically he has made a mistake.He reaches out to hold Namjoon by his shoulder.
Jeon Jungkook
"Hey, hyung. It's fine. I never explicitly said anything... but yeah... I'm gay..."
This is the first time he's actually said it to another person. Even with Jimin and Tae, he didn't say the words "I'm gay." And they were fine with not putting labels on him or themselves, Taehyung had once jokingly said he didn't know what he was until he met Jimin.
Kim Taehyung
"I'm a Jiminaholic!"
Jimin turned a bright blushing red had slapped him, begging him to stop embarrassing him.
He repeats again and Jungkook wants to so badly shut him up with a kiss, but of course he doesn't, - kissing Namjoon is only part and parcel of his dreams, not his reality.
Jeon Jungkook
"So tell me about the Goodwill Ambassador programme?"
That distracts Namjoon easily and he slips back into his confident self, openly talking about the programme. How Namjoon has a couple of panels and discussions to attend, followed by a series of workshops in schools and a photo shoot to raise awareness. It's spread out over the course of two and a half weeks, taking place in different parts of South Africa.
He remembers the last time they toured in South Africa, full of wildlife and mountains, none of which he got to truly experience, but he hopes to someday.
Namjoon gets him to take a few pictures of him. Namjoon still poses in his unique style looking effortlessly cool. It will probably appear on his Instagram later today and Namjoon pulls his mask back up. They walk in silence, lost in their own thoughts until Namjoon wants to head back.
Kim Namjoon
"Do you want to stay for breakfast? Hyung made food..."
Jungkook can't resist food and Yoongi's meals are always heavenly, he has some magical power to turn something ordinary to a perfectly delectable meal. Yoongi's apartment is far more homely than Jungkook's. It's obviousYoongi has taken some care into selecting furniture, he even spots the little chair Yoongi built sometime ago just for fun. The walls are covered with pictures, he sees himself and the rest of them scattered in more than a couple. It's obvious who takes centre stage - Yoongi's dog, Holly. He's not doing well health wise and Yoongi had been more than upset over it. Namjoon grabs a note that's stuck on the refrigerator.
Min Yoongi
"Namjoon-ah breakfast is on the table, set it to heat for a few minutes because it might be cold by the time you see this. Please don't break the microwave.Love Hyung."
Kim Namjoon
"You break a microwave ONE time!" 😫
Jeon Jungkook
"Hyung most of us have never broken a microwave and never will."
He remembers that day vividly. He'd been fast asleep finally getting some rest when the dorm started smelling of smoke and Namjoon had been yelling his head off. Everyone had rushed to the kitchen, including the staff who worked and lived in their dorm, in various states of undress.
Jungkook remembers one of their staff managers had already begun using their floor's fire extinguisher and some others evacuating the area. Namjoon had been simply attempting to heat his coffee at the wee hours of 3am. Ever since then it had been a running joke they teased Namjoon with.
Jungkook decides to microwave the food for him; rice, soup and a pork dish. It's simple but Jungkook digs in happily, enjoying the spices and flavours that burst from the meat
He lets Namjoon dry the dishes after washing each one carefully. He hugs him briefly before he leaves.
Kim Namjoon
"I'll talk to the team about you joining in."
Jungkook nods smiling and waving his hand. He heads home walking slower than usual. The streets are more crowded than before and he tries to hide himself as much as possible. Over the years he's gotten so used to being recognized and run after, he enjoys the comfort of being able to blend in today.
He's sure some girl spots him but he walks faster, quickly weaving in between the throng of people.
He breathes calmly only when he has entered the safety of his apartment. He meant to spend the day arranging and organizing his stuff but he wants a quick shower before. He strips off his clothes, dumping his shoes at the entrance and slipping into his slippers. He puts a load of clothes in the washing machine before stepping into the shower.
The water cascades around him, warm and scalding, for a moment he's taken back to when he first joined as a trainee, shivering from the cold shared showers. Sometimes Taehyung would shampoo his hair or Hoseok would sing with him in the shower.
He thinks about how young and naive he was at the time not knowing one day he'd be living in an apartment that cost more than all his parent's wealth combined. It's scary to think about it all and he leans back against the cold tiles.
He thinks about Namjoon, how he looks underneath the clothes. It's not like Jungkook has to imagine, he's seen Namjoon ***** plenty of times and reminded himself not to stare or look. But he glances and that was enough. He hates himself for being so predatory, that he fuels his mastrubation sessions with images of Namjoon. He closes his eyes and pictures Namjoon in his bathroom, leaning back against the tiles much like he is right now. He pictures himself on his knees kissing and caressing Namjoon's thighs; worshiping them reverently. His own hands slide down, touching himself slowly and steadily as he does.
He imagines wrapping his lips around Namjoons ¢0ck, his hand holding the base. He pictures Namjoon moaning as he licks, his name slipping out of his lips, saying "Jungkook" with so much want. Jungkook groans shutting his eyes tightly, taking his time to let his fingers glide over his own ¢0ck. He doesn't have to try hard to imagine what Namjoon sounds like. Their dorm room walls were thin and at times Namjoon would rub himself down thinking he was alone or that everyone else was asleep. Everyone did that: they were a bunch of horny teenagers but Jungkook just remembers Namjoon, the sound of him pleasuring himself was etched in stone onto his memory's hard drive.
He can't help but picture himself choking over Namjoon's ¢0ck, Namjoon's fingers running through his hair. He imagines Namjoon watching him with hooded eyes, his words becoming incoherent because Jungkook is giving him head.
It doesn't take long for him to come all over his fingers, it's been a while since he's done anything and his imagination is wild and vivid enough. He stands in the shower, the water is still warm but his fingers are pruny, his skin has turned into that too soft texture from staying in the water for too long. A part of him feels awful, uncomfortable to imagine one of his closest friends and almost brother like that. But he's human - he's weak and has too many emotions.
He steps out of the shower, wiping himself clean before grabbing a t-shirt and boxers. He's good at compartmentalizing his feelings. He focuses on his goal for today, making his space more homely and arranging all his stuff from their boxes. He puts his washed laundry into the dryer and begins unpacking his clothes. He hangs them up, sorting it out by colour.
Saying colour would be a bit of a reach, considering almost 90% of his clothes are black, white or grey. He clears out most of his boxes, unpacking his music equipment and setting it up in his study. He's tired when he's done, and he decides to head to the gym before he has dinner. The gym is quiet and empty despite having some very good equipment but no one seems to be using it. Jungkook doesn't care, he prefers not having people around him. He does a fairly light routine, but he works up a light sheen of sweat. He's almost done when Namjoon calls him on the phone and his upbeat playlist track switches to his ringtone.
Kim Namjoon
"Guk, I spoke to the organisers and they are very happy to have you. They'll be mailing you all the details."
Namjoon goes on to explain that their manager would be sorting everything out and flight tickets would be organised. Jungkook just has to pack his bags and bring himself to the airport.
Kim Namjoon
."We might have to share a room."
Jungkook almost chokes on the bottle of water he sips on.
Kim Namjoon
That's not a problem right? We used to share rooms
Jeon Jungkook
"No not at all."
It's not like his crush had died down. It wasn't like his heart would beat out of his chest at the thought of being so close to Namjoon, just the two of them in a foreign country with none of the others. It's not like he would freak out at the thought of sleeping next to Namjoon, a possibly ***** Namjoon for two and a half weeks.
Kim Namjoon
"Good. I'm so happy you're coming, Kook." 😊
Jeon Jungkook
"Me too, hyung."
Jungkook can tell even though he can't see him. His voice sounds happy and pleased. Their call ends and Jungkook can't help but call Taehyung. The only one who would understand.
Jeon Jungkook
Hyung... I think I fcked up...
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