chapter no.1

sarah: mom plz, I don't wanna go there(I tell her)

mom: sarah honey it's good for you, it's been years since you last saw them. I think you should go. (she's gonna force me now and I know it)

sarah: but... (I know why she's saying that... It's been weeks since I saw HIM with that....)

mom: there are no buts, your going and thats final. (and there you ago... she's been telling me to go for since then and it's soo frustrating)

sarah: fine (I roll my eyes in defeat)

mom: that's my baby, I'll book your ticket for tomorrow. (she says smiling) and now go to your room, you better start packing.

sarah: k... (I really don't wanna go there, to dad and my Lil kookie. I miss them both, alot. But its Been years they don't talk to us anymore. I still don't know why).

Mom and Dad got divorced when I was just a kid and kookie was really small. Our family was living happily but then dad finded another woman and just then.... things changed, kookie wanted to live with dad, so then I left with mom, I didn't liked the idea of her living alone. We use to visit each other but then mom shifted us to America, me and kookie we used to talk on the phone... but then he stoped and...... from then we didn't talked to each other.

sarah: (I start packing my cloths, even though I don't want to go but I feel exited. I miss kookie, alot. I smile rembering his face when he saw a cat walking like him.)

mom: sarah honey, jasmine is here. (she yells from down stairs)

sarah: what? really! (I rush towards the door,then to the kitchen becacuz I know that's where she'll be, my best-friend)

jasmine: hey babes ( she says while drinking something)

sarah: I'm so glad to see you here... but why are you here? (I ask her, she Usally dosent come at this time)

jasmine: duh..! I missed you (she says hugging me. Oh... I haven't seen her oor anyone for weeks so I guess that's why she's here).

sarah: soo...whats up? (I ask as i take the bowl of salad from the fridge)

jasmine: (she looks around making sure mom's not here) what's up? (she repeats my words in ad mocking way) seriously sarah?!

sarah: umm... yea? (im a bit confused, why is she mad).

jasmine: sarah mark cheated on you... you did nothing, and now your leaving.... acting like a coward!!! (She screams at the top of her voice)

sarah: (oh, so that's why she's mad at me, me... leaving her) it's not my decision to make, mom's been forcing me alot for soo many weeks. soo at last I gave up.

jasmine: and what about me, dance practice,school, that bitch and... mark. (she's worried about me and I can see that because her eyes sparkle form tears)

sarah: (my heart hurts hearing his name)I talked to him. (I tell her but this but I don't want to continue the full story)

jasmine: when?

sarah: after that day (it hurts, it hurts so much rembering all the things we did together) I went to his house, asked him why did he did that. (I feel my eyes tearing up) he said that I... I... I can't give him what he wants (now I can't even speak) he... He... (I'm sobbing) said that I'm not what he thinks i am... (she rushes to me, hugging me tightly)

jasmine: it's alright... forget about him... try to move on... I know things will get hard for you... and that ***** will regret for what he did to you... but things will get better. (she tires her best to make my tears stop)

sarah: w-why.... w-why me? (I'm crying like a baby, but I feel safe when she does that to me, hugging me, so that I can let it all out, so that I can feel better again)

Jaz been my best friend since we got here, she's always been by my side, she acts like my Lil sister and sometimes like my mom. Mark me and jaz we've been close to each other. I grew feelings for him, dont know when but then I told him, about my feelings that I liked him. We loved each other soo much but he loves me not in that way.

sarah: He knows I have athazagoraphobia, then why did he do that (I say leaving her, and wiping the tears away).

jasmine: sarah some people are not worth of our love. And I think. He will regret it afterwards... You'll see (she winks at me).

sarah: I don't want to see him anymore... (I hate him).

jasmine: yeah... now I think it's really better if you do leave. cuz seeing you like this makes me wanna feel like kicking his weak part 😉.

we boht start laughing like idiots,  I know it's not that funny but we still laugh like it's something really big.

sarah: wanna help me with my packing? (I offer)

jasmine: I'd love that.

sarah: (I'll never fall in love, all this pain makes me hate love)

jasmine: sarah stop acting like you were dating or something, I gotta say what he did was wrong, he should have told if he didn't feelt the same way. I mean you liked him alot but... what can we say... life isn't fair all the time. (she explains and I node as we go back upstairs)

sarah: I know. but still he shouldve told me that. I feel pethactic. (I feel really bad, I start paking things up).

jasmine: it's alright sarah. Just try to move on... but not with me OK! (she says narrowing her eyes).

sarah: what? ofcurse not, I'll never replace you... your my life. (i show her my best and sweetest smile)

jasmine: yeah you better NOT! or she will face the concequenses. (she holds her fist infront of my eyes gesturing to beat who ever it'll be)

sarah: ok now... will you plz help me or not? (I say pouting).

jasmine: yeah yeah...

 The time just goes by like that, jaz leaves after having dinner. In my bed, I take my dairy....

sarah: Dear diary;

                    I can't believe I'm gonna leave mum. I don't want to leave her, but you know when she makes a decision... it'll. Always done no matter what... even if it's impossible, she'll do it. I don't know how or when but when she says...There will be no buts or NO for an answer. I'm gonna miss this place so much, jaz, mark, my dance classes, school, everything, even my room, I love everything here, it's really going to be hard, living alone I don't even know anyone there, except for kookie and well... dad. I hate to say this but I miss him too. Why does this usually happens. The people whom u love the most...they leave you, like mark... urghhh, I don't know how to feel about love anymore. I just hate it. I hate the pain it gives us. I hate how we have to struggle, i hate it when people leave me...they leave us like we're never going to see each other ever again I don't know about the rest but there is one thing I know. For sure, I'm never EVER going to fall in love.... because falling is NOT a good thing and falling for someone who dosent loves you back is the worst (while writing it I fall asleep)

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