chp no. 4

WTH...first I had to face a soo called step\-mom then she has a son...and now a big hapy family, great...just great. While in America mom and i, we had to face so many difficult times...we didnt had anyone....our condition weren't as good as they were supposed to be, I'm not saying that dad shouldve looked after us I know he can't cuz they're divorced now......I don't know what to do oor what to think now...It's a mess

Sarah: where are you taking me?

Hoseok: just follow me.

Sarah: (he guides me to the backside of the house, then he faces towards me, he

titled his head).

Hoseok: sarah let me ask you something.

Sarah: umm ok.

Hoseok: what did you see in there?

Sarah: a complete and a cute family...(and I hate it).

Hoseok: yes...but what did you see In them?

Sarah: hun?(I dont get wht he's saying).

Hoseok: sarah....(he sighs) I know you might be having negative thaughts about us.... and its natural, but you can't really just judge tht fast, I know you hate it..you can't see another woman with your dad...i know i wouldn't...but I think you should just give us chance.

Sarah: (I keep looking on the ground) I don't know if I should...cuz your mom is

the reason why our family was apart!

Hoseok: yah!....she is not the reason why ok!...(he sighs) your mom was not a good woman.

Sarah: don't you ever say something like that...EVER!(Who the hell does he thinks he is?) you have no right to say something about my mom.

Hoseok: ok I know I don't, what about him...what do you think about Jungkook?

Sarah: what about him?(I'll never forget how reacted yesterday)

Hoseok: oooh you have no idea how he survived, he was being tourchered, bullied,

and he almost even died.

Sarah: (my eyes widen, wht did he just say?)what?!

Hoseok: yes...if it wasn't for BTS and mom he would've been dead a long time

ago(he looks concerned) look.... All I'm saying-

Sarah: what did he do? (did he relly tried suicide? Nono this can't be true, how

can he, my little kookie...I was being soo selfish...why didn't I think of him.... my eyes getting teary).

Hoseok: he jumped of the cliff, into the sea. (Looks away).

Sarah: (tear fell down) why? (I Ask him, almost wispering).

Hoseok: a long time ago...he was suffering alot, and missed you soo much, I remember him crying all night, nightmares, no friends, he was getting weaker and weaker everyday especially when he finded that your mom was the one who cheated not your dad...your dad is innocent sarah...he never did anything with any other woman, your mom was the only one he ever loved...but that all changed when he-

Sarah: (tears falling down my eyes, hard) no....no!!!!...It's all a lie.

Hoseok: no sarah it's not, plz u have to believe me

Sarah: and why should I?...hun?!...your a complete stranger to me...All I know

about you is tht your the son of Jungkooks new "step-mom"

Hoseok: what if I show you the proof?(He looks deadly)

Sarah: (....sarah wht if its true?...wht if mom's really lyi- no no no its not true.... get these things out of your mind sarah!...but I have no choice, ill tell him tht its fake...yeah...thts a great idea) oh yea?...(I eyebrow) then show me...(hope it's not true, fear building inside me)

He pulls out his phone, and shows me pictures.... my eyes wide. I see mom with another man...then next is a vedio...im dying inside...It's impossible...no no no...It can't be....It's fake right?, I tried to blink my eyes few times...but its GOD DAMN TURE,  they're having sex....WHAT THE HELL!!!!! and its clearly mom

Hoseok: your dad didn't know anything until he saw it with his own eyes....I...i got this vedio from a friend of mine, this is the reason why your dad fought, he fought because he loved both of you soo much....he said tht it's not fair for you and jeongkook, your mom didn't wanted YOU to know oor him, even though she cheated...they boht didn't wanted to loose u both....(he looks at me with concerned eyes) you guys were soo little...I think all you remember is ur dad fighting

Sarah: no it can't be (I wisper).

Hoseok: its really sad tht dad never told anything to u oor him, he took all the

blame on him...(my minds gonna will blow up)I know this must be hard for you to understand but you have to believe me...your dad is a really good guy, he

always got your back, I know I shouldn't say this but...he even kept a man behind you. To keep an eye on you so you won't be in trouble or something. I know this must sound crazy to you...but It's true your dad loves you sooo much...he missed you like hell. My mom and your dad where old college friends,my dad died...your mom left...then one day, they boht of them meet and then got married... jeongkook needed someone and so did I...we were complete but they still missed you soo much.... jeongkook used cry into moms arms, he missed you so much, but he didn't had the courage to talk to you...he didn't wanted to show you that he wasn't doing good without you oor your mom...he was worried about dad too...sooo he kept quiet...and now he's all grown up, he knows how to face things on his own.

Sarah: (I don't know what to say...im felling soo guilty, I can't...I won't.... I don't think I can face anyone here...)

Hoseok: look sarah ya...don't feel so guilty...it's not your fault and besides

everything is alright now (he smiles)

Sarah: (I can't face anyone of them, my eyes burning)

Hoseok: yaa sarah...don't worry, its alright, you don't have to be sorry for

anything....look all you-

Sarah: I need some time alone (it's all I could say)

Hoseok: (he sighs)ok....but come inside for now,everyone's waiting for you inside.

Sarah: (I don't respond to him at all)

Hoseok: ill wait for you to come inside annnd sarah?

Sarah: (I face him)

Hoseok: you can share anything. You don't have to to be  afraid of me, because we're siblings now...I'm like your elderbrother...oh and don't think too much...your small brain won't handle(he winks).

Sarah: (I force a smile)hmm

I see him go back and then I fell into the ground crying. These felling are soo horrible, I hate it! How could she do such a thing, why did she did this to our family... I stand up and walk out the house... I don't know where I'll be going, but I can't stay here especially after all I said...I need to go back to America...I want her to tell me the truth....how she played with us, how she kept saying dad was wrong, blamed everything on him...when he was innocent. why mom why?...cold wind blows through my hair and it starts raining slowly....looking around I find a small bar...i buy a drink and start walking god knows where. It gets darker and darker...I drink the whole bottle...and now I'm all drunk...I don't usually drink this much, but it feels like I needed it, and now it's all dark. People walking and talking..can't see anything but then I see cold eyes...those eyes.....I've seen them somewhere, but where? I start to run, suddenly I hit a bench and fell down. I get up. Blur...I look around its dark and the rain Is falling hard I'm all wet. I see a park and run towards it, there's a small house for children to play,I run in there and hide. I'm freezing... It's soo cold.i look outside the small house hoping not to see those eyes again... theyer really scary and I get goosebumps...Nothing, I see nothing...oor is it because of the rain? I tug my legs and close my eyes.

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