Imperctions Inside Perfection
my present feelings
coss💖
today I am here to ask your pardon
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actually i am from quite some times suffering from depression and having suicidal thoughts
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please don't think as some act of sympathy cause it's not one for it
coss💖
I don't see happiness in my life all those mighty lines sounds so hollow to me,it feels lonely alone
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I feel like I am no longer needed for the people I cared most until there work is done
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they have high expectations from me but never once ask if I am happy?
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just open their mouth to express their aggression or expectations from me,when your views or desires are constantly being judged it feels so hateful
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even if the desire is to talk to someone for a hour
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I just faces those mean words and constant disgraced since childhood you know when I do something so trivial as drawing I fear if I show it my people they would just say "don't waste your time or I see your concentration is moving away from your purpose"
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when I see others members doing it and when myslef being sitting in corner by myself no one to ask if I am truly happy?
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the expectation that someone will ever come to me randomly and say you are important to me with a smile but now all these seems so impossible.
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they never said they are proud of me as me no matter how hard i tried
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I am treated on the basis what others say or see me as
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I just dont know when ever I have been truly happy selfishly
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I hope for best for everyone here,and thanks for being with me i tried my best to be nice with everyone and give my love,forgive me if I have done something wrong
coss💖
and don't worry,I won't leave you guys,I just need some time
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and yeah one more thing guys if your any friend says they have suicidal thoughts or showing any sign of it please don't ignore them,be with them once make them feel you are there with them and they ain't alone cause it will just take few lines from you to save them from being dead
Comments
Sydney
I can feel you 🤗
2021-03-14
1
✨✰𝑨𝑹𝑰𝑨✰✨
I never get attached to anyone so that person can't broke me 🙂🙂🙂🙂
2021-03-12
2
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I can totally relate with your feelings sweetheart..... I have seen my bestfriend turning into Stanger.... I have seen the person I give first priority they always give me last priority..... we don't show to them our feelings that doesn't mean we are not hurt at the end of the day we all are you human being with shitty so called "emotions*
2021-03-10
3