Episode 1

Jane's POV

I would imagine it so many times in my head. If I'd the chance to be in front of you for one last time, what would I say? Or what could you probably say to me? would it make a difference? And every time I come up with the same answer "I don't know"

Never in my life, I'd thought about how one's life affects others. The idea of love clearly scared me. To lose it in order to re-gain was never in the plans. I died in order to love again.

Since that day I feel like I've been holding my breath. I would look you in the eye if I could, and tell you I'm okay so you could be happy wherever you are but you more than anyone know that I'm a bad liar.

I currently ask myself Who am I? It always seemed to be a pretty easy question to answer. Now, I'm not so sure. Maybe my regrets changed me into a stranger that is always so apologetic like my whole existence is embarrassing.

A FEW YEARS BACK

" I'm not done yet, you jerk!! " I slapped my twin's hand stopping him from snatching my drawing.

" You've been saying the same thing for the past two hours" Jaden said after a long sigh.

We are currently at granny Lauren's back yard, she is my mother's oldest friend. She lives alone but she told us she has a grandson that moved to England a few years ago. She has been around since we were born. Although she is much older than my mom she acts younger than most people her age, that's why she hates when we call her Granny, but we still do it anyway for almost 14 years.

This is our favorite spot. Is a mini Garden out here, and the display on how the sun washes the garden with a golden glow injecting life as it strikes the green grass and enjoyment of the plants, the beauty of the flower's pollen that looks like floating grains of pixie dust is swinging in the strands of the wind is mesmerizing.

Some may say what she has here is a residential garden, but I like to use the term traditional garden the more general type of anyway, as she uses plants sparsely. At the end of the garden, there is a small grove of trees that always provides birds in my opinion Boorishness birds as they always sound like a church full of people whispering at the same time, in one of these same trees is a swing we put there when we were seven years old.

But there is a loner tree located on the right side of the door that leads to the kitchen where she always puts a cloth underneath. Lucky us that it's near the kitchen so we get to enjoy the tree's shadow and we always welcome the sweet fresh scent of newly baked bread coming from the kitchen's window.

As always we are sitting back to back something we do since I know myself as a person, although it gets more comfortable for me as time passes for the fact that at the age of 16 almost 17 Jaden was already enjoying his herculean type of body, providing me with his broad shoulders so that I could sleep with no problems, while for his disadvantage I was... Well, I was just your average short not much to talk about 16 soon to be 17 years old girl.

I was currently drawing a woman I saw earlier. I wanted Jaden to see but he wouldn't stop annoying and mocking me on how long I was taking to finish it and blah blah.

How could I finish if he keeps distracting me?

" Ladies and gentlemen, the moment you were all waiting for is finally here" I said proudly as I lifted the paper taking in the drawing I'd in front of me.

" Finally, I was afraid it would take you a whole year to finish it " Jaden said dramatically as he grabbed the paper to analyze my work.

" Hmmm " Was the only thing I heard next.

I was scared he wouldn't like it. As we're still sitting back to back I couldn't really see his facial expression.

" Sexy" he said " You manage to empathize her sensuality as well as her innocence" he added.

Without realizing my lips were holding the brightest smile they could manage. My twin knows how to get the right reactions out of me.

Jaden suddenly moved from his spot, resulting in me falling. My back found its way on the red cloth we were sitting.

" Ouch " I screamed before staring at a laughing Jaden.

" I just hope you are not into girls like me, if so we'll be unconditionally the same. You know the ultimate twins" he said laughing harder.

" I told you I saw it when I went to Wernhil, the girl that was sitting in front of me at the ice cream shop was wearing a shirt with this drawing, not exactly the same just... " I suddenly stopped and thought ' why am I explaining myself to this idiot?'

" Whatever Jaden, and so you know there is no such thing as ultimate twins" I said staring at the sky that was threatening to rain with a confused look on my face.

" Plus we'll never truly be the same. I'll always have a V and you a P" I said laughing at my choice of words.

" Ew, that was gross Lil sis" he said and I stuck my tang out like a five-year-old.

We were so comfortable around each other and there were no secrets between us, literally!!. Like when I got my periods, Jaden was the first to know about it he even tried to steal pads as he calls them plugs from my aunt because I was too embarrassed to tell her and is so strange that till this age he still comes to sleep with me sometimes, especially when he has a bad day.

" Don't you think that nature is too complex to be completely understood, see? " I said pointing at the forming clouds " it was sunny just now, and suddenly is about to rain? " I said thinking deeply about it.

" The weather is just moody today, just like you" he said slightly smiling. " This is why we've to go and say bye to Granny so we can head home" he said as he reached out to help me stand.

I packed my books, glad that I managed to finish all my last assignments for this year. I just have to submit and it's done. when we finished packing, I grabbed the red cloth we were sitting on and took it with me as I walked behind Jaden into the kitchen.

" Granny " Jaden called as we passed through the kitchen where I placed the red cloth on one of the chairs and moved into the living room.

" Upstairs " she replied.

She came down dressed elderly but spry in the yellow cotton dress that hid her slightly slim and short body and a white apron on top of it that was covered with pink and blue flowers.

Granny is a woman with a thin face and a soft creamy complexion. Jaden always said she resembles a cappuccino, with her somehow extended wrinkles that give her age away and yet miraculously spotless that allowed her small brown gentle, and sympathetic eyes to shine. She has a black wavy hair bothered by some grey hair hold in her usual ponytail.

" My pumpkins are you leaving already? " she asked sounding a bit sad. She always sounds sad no matter how long we stayed. Last time we come over for the whole weekend but she didn't want us to go as she always says " you could always stay a little longer "

" Yes Granny " I said hugging her " And I'm too old to be called that "

Granny and Jaden started laughing after I let go of Granny and Jaden gave her a hug.

" Tomorrow we'll be here as usual, plus I promised I would go buy new seeds to plant " He said placing a kiss on her cheek.

" Alright, first let me give you some cookies I baked" she said smiling while walking into the kitchen. We watched her from the living room as she took them from the oven and placed some of them in a small bowl.

" Granny can you please stop trying to make me fat, if this continues I'll have to start a very rigid diet" I whined as she walked toward us giving the bowl to Jaden.

" I'll try" she said throwing her hands in the air.

" Off you go, and get home safe pumpkins " I rolled my eyes as I heard the nickname once again and walked out of the house with Jaden behind me.

Jaden stopped the first taxi he saw and we jumped in." Klein Windhoek, Anna's street please" he informed the driver.

Resting my head on Jaden's shoulder I allowed myself to relax closing my eyes.

This is our everyday routine, we currently attend high school at Academia secondary schools that is close to Granny's house. So after school, we normally go to Granny's and stay there until one of us wishes to go home. We mostly do our homework, help Granny whenever she needs even if it means sitting there listening to her stories that by the way, we know them by heart. It's just sad that this is our last year in high school.

Without realizing I fell asleep.

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