Episode 7

Jane's POV

PRESENT

The tragic beauty of this sleeping place became my new valid territory. This place echoed with unbearable grief, birds swinging on the strands of melancholy, the sun couldn't outshine the emptiness of the heartfelt loss.

In every direction, I was surrounded by lined monuments, left to right, back, and front. There was a new hut waiting for its new owner and yet my mind couldn't find a more perfect habitat to keep our everlasting bond alive.

" You wanna listen to the good news? " I asked excited to report to him.

"I'm officially a fifth-year electronic engineering student. Still can't believe it myself"

" Granny says that I'm becoming a grown beautiful woman " I giggled.

"I think some might agree that I'm more beautiful then you right now, and that is why she still insists I need a boyfriend. " I scoffed.

I tossed a large portion of chips in my mouth and ate it up, which earned me a " who eats in a cemetery" look from Cesar the gravedigger. He is used to me by now. We're pretty close as I'm always here, we kind off keep each other company, you know? Even though he pretty much ignores me. He thinks I'm weird, but he is the gravedigger, not me.

" Actually it's all your fault that I don't have a boyfriend" I continued with my mouth full. " Whenever I go to Granny's she cooks for two, then I've to eat for the both of us"

"So the extra pound I've been putting on is also your fault, I miss my skinny self "

I brought my knees close to my chest and wrapped my arms around my legs burying my head on them.

" Happy 21st birthday to us twin " I whispered.

After his death, I drowned deep in depression. I went to several therapists but didn't help. Most of the time I would just sit in front of them, staring at the wall never saying a word.

Our house became dreadful, we didn't know what to say to each other for a long time, I guess he was the glue that kept us together.

First year mom didn't want me to go to college, she said I was not ready yet, but I went anyway. I needed to keep myself busy to prevent me from going insane. I changed from medicine to Electronic engineering, I felt like I would be closer to him that way.

Everyone else has moved on, I guess I'm the only one who couldn't. Luke is dating Annabelle, who would think they would actually look cute together. Ailee is in a long-distance relationship with Kim Yong and I was just trying to bury myself in the books.

Ailee chose Journalism, Luke is doing mechanical engineering and Annabelle is doing business management, we are just praying that she will make it out alive.

It became a habit to visit his grave and talk about everything that was going on. I would always sit back to back with his grave and talk non stop. I think it made me feel like he was still involved in my life and he was listening.

I either spent our birthdays here or at Granny's. I couldn't be at home because the atmosphere was melancholic. I wouldn't know if we should celebrate or morn. I know that as a family we were trying to make things go back to normal but this date wasn't really the best.

After a few months, we found out from the police that he was shot by a group of guys that stopped him in the middle of the road pretending to have a problem with their motorcycle. The CCTV captured Jaden stopping the car to try and help them, but when he walked out of the car one of the guys grabbed him by the collar and he tried to fight him off, when he finally managed the other guy shot him.

Even though I couldn't understand why would they shot him. It was strange because it seemed like they wanted to kill him, but why? They could've just taken the car and leave him.

" You know Jaden, sometimes I feel like when Dad and Mom look at me they see you. I'm a constant reminder that you are gone" I frowned at the thought.

" I better go, Granny is waiting for me. Now that holidays started if I don't visit her she will be on my case " I grabbed my bag moved in front of the gravestone.

" Love you, big guy" I told him but it was more like reminding myself.

" Goodbye Cesar" I told Cesar, that looked happy because I was leaving and decided to walked to Granny's as it was just a few blocks from here so I would be there in no time.

" Look who decided to show up " Granny mumbled.

"Grumpy as ever " I chirped throwing my bag on the couch and hugged her.

" Happy birthday pumpkins" she said bringing a cake with candles. I blew them and we started eating.

For some reason she always says "pumpkins" on our birthday as if saying it to Jaden as well, I guess I'm not the only one who didn't move on.

"You are coming from his grave isn't it?" She asked in a serious tone.

" Yes" I replied without looking at her because I knew what she was about to say.

" You need to start living my child, you can't be stuck in the past forever "

" I'm living, I just went there because is our birthday "

" You go there almost everyday Jane. Since that day you shut down your emotions, you didn't cry, not even once, it's not good for you"

"I didn't plan for it to happen. Sometimes I wake up and I swear I can hear his voice " my voice squeaked. "I feel like if I start crying I'll never be able to stop "

" Oh my child come here " she embraced me." You have suffered enough, allow yourself to breathe "

" After all these years I still have no idea of what to do, every plan I'd in my life involved him, every inch of it, and now, I've nothing.

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The holidays went by pretty quick, and in a blink of an eye, we were entering a new freshly baked year.

My last year as a student and I couldn't wait to finish.

The first week of classes was enjoyable, I had only three modules this semester and all of them part-time so I had a lot of time to spare and spend with my Aliens.

Being around Annabelle and Luke was mesmerizing, she was always arguing about something and he always replied with 'okays'. Ailee always on her phone chatting with her boyfriend, we still didn't know him personally though, only talked through video calls but he was already part of the crew, personally, he was like a brother.

After classes, I took new flowers to Jaden's grave. I wanted to stay but the weather was gray and cloudy threatening to rain. I decided to walk to Granny's house before it starts raining.

I was halfway to Granny's when I felt water droplets.

" Good!! Just what I needed... I knew water was the enemy of progress since Titanic " I sarcastically whined

I arrived soaked. I stormed into the house, there was no one in the living room, I didn't bother to look behind me.

" Granny, can you help me with a towel I'm literally soaked over here " I shouted my lungs out.

I need to get out of these clothes, like yesterday. I immediately threw my bag on the floor, took off my shirt then I heard a noise coming from upstairs.

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