Just Existing yapping pt 2

Its raining

The rain is so peaceful ah

I wanna

Eat soft motichoor ka laddu

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my escape

Pfft

hehe

imagine

A deep brown house

the rain is pouring and there is greenery

You are inside your house in open space gettting wet in rain

There is a shed with a sofa on it. owh

The warmth of sofa

Must be heartwarming

She went and laid down

Wet

In that sofa

Under blanket

Oh how badly she was wishing for someone

To stay by her side

Someone sensible someone mature someone understanding someone that is not a kid so she can be one

someone who values...values her likes dislikes... someone who care for her more than his own self..i wish i had that warm embrace so i can be carefree

someone who never fights

Yeah i hate fights

Specially between lovers

Cause for me love is pure

a pure bond where the two aren't dumb to put their ego first

and name it as "you hurt me you don't understand me i did so much for you"

Oh...owh.. god..why why why..i may be wrong

But in love

There is never a "i did this much for you" it just happens and you never regret it

Diffrent people have different cravings of love

I wish people understand their partner

Instead of fighting with them

And yeh if they do so

Their partner will try to do same

In love..there is no guilt trapping

love is pure..love is sacred.. not everyone can get it

I wish i find someone.. with same defination of love

That i have

u know

i have lots of faults

And mainly i cry easily

So if someone accepts me it feels like a blessing itself that i start to take them as my saviour

but they accepted me

They didnt accept my tears

no one did

No one can handle this troublesome filled with flaws shittty ugly human

Only i myself

Can love myself purely

Its a miracle enough that someone is accepting me as partner

How can i be greedy

How can i ask for more

But i deeply crave to ask for more

I wish..i never ever ever ever have to ask for love to my partner

But eh i aint getting one

I am staying alone

love is scary

Breakup hurts

my escape

but i will always be here

my escape

To comfort you

my escape

To understand you

my escape

And will never fight with you my pure adorable lil human

*smiles* yup you are my only escape

Ah letts study

TODAY I WILL STUDY A LOTTTT

I promise to myself i will study and wont get distracted