GOOD KINDS OF BUTTERFLIES (TAEGISEOK, JIKOOK, NAMJIN, TAEGI, VHOPE, YOONSEOK / SOPE)
Beta
Hoseok
Is he gonna be okay?
Hoseok asks, rushing behind the nurses and doctors as they quickly rush Yoongi's body on a stretcher.
Nurse
He lost a lot of blood, but we'll see what we can do.
The nurse tells him, and he stops following them as a guard holds him back, carefully guiding him back to the waiting area.
Hoseok gulps heavily as he bites his nails, panicking. He didn't know what to do with himself, didn't know what to think? He was so worried.
SeokJin
Why didn't you guys get him here sooner?
Seokjin shouts, and Taehyung can't help but feel bad, he didn't do anything? He just sat and watched as everyone else did something to help Yoongi and he just sat there crying all pathetic. He feels like crying again but he refuses to. He'd only feel more pathetic than he already did.
SeokJin
If anything happens to him, I swear.
Seokjin gets cut off by Hoseok, who was still fidgeting, clearly very anxious about everything that was going on.
Hoseok
We were asleep... What... You think we'd have watched him bleed out and not do anything?
He bites even harder at his nails and Taehyung starts to worry, won't he start bleeding soon?
Hoseok
I did the best I could have given the situation.
Hoseok defends and Taehyung gets taken off guard when Seokjin spins to him with a question.
Taehyung looks at Seokjin's accusing eyes, and he starts breaking down again, he didn't do anything and that thought has him blaming himself. Maybe if he had help Yoongi would have gotten here faster, or maybe he could've... he doesn't know, so he just said the one thing he knew he was feeling at the moment.
He says between sobs, and as he closes his eyes, crying heavily, he feels Hoseok's arms wrap around him gently and he appreciates it, it made him feel better, but he doesn't deserve to feel better. Not yet.
Taehyung
He's gonna be okay, right?
Taehyung asks for the first time in a while, his eyes are heavy and red from all the crying he'd been doing.
He asks again, more panic in his voice, as he had gotten no response from Hoseok.
Taehyung
Hoseok... He's gonna be okay, isn't he?
Hoseok
I... There was so much blood, Tae... I... I don't know.
The other whispers, not looking at him. Taehyung could tell the other felt guilty too.
Taehyung
But he has to be.
Taehyung
I... I don't get why this is happening.
Taehyung continues, and he shakes his head, rubbing at his tired eyes, he looks up when he hears a familiar voice.
SeokJin
We have to stay calm.
Seokjin starts as he sat down next to Taehyung, he'd stepped away a while ago, but he seemed more calm now.
SeokJin
I know that it's hard, but it's what Yoongi'd want.
Both Hoseok and Taehyung nod, he was right, but it was easier said than done, especially with all this guilt floating around.
Hoseok begs, and he stands, stretching a hand out for Taehyung to take.
After a while the younger takes it, and he follows Hoseok to the bathroom.
Is the first thing he asks and Taehyung folds his arms, leaning against the column of bathroom sinks. He sighs not knowing how to respond to that.
Taehyung
No, i don't think I'll be fine until Yoongi's fine.
And Hoseok felt the same, he's tired, but he can't sleep until he knew Yoongi was going to be okay.
Taehyung
He was okay last night and...
The younger trails off, he starts wondering what he could've done different last night. He should've... should've observed Yoongi more carefully, make sure he was okay, but he seemed so fine.
Taehyung
Maybe we should've taken him to the clinic since last night. We should've known that something was wrong.
Hoseok admits, and he folds his arms, shaking his head at himself.
Hoseok
I should've made him eat, and... made sure he got through to Seokjin but I... I didn't take it serious enough and now he's...
His voice cracks a bit, and he closes his eyes for a minute forcing himself not to cry, and it reminds Taehyung of how the other acted when his dad died.
Hoseok
Fück... I can't... We should get back out there.
He tells, and they head back to the waiting room, taking their previous seats.
They sit there for a couple more hours, trapped in an uncomfortable silence as they waited for any news to come, sadly none arrives.
SeokJin
What are you guys?
Seokjin was the first to break the silence, confusing Hoseok and Taehyung.
SeokJin
Both of you and Yoongi?
He struggles to answer, he wasn't entirely sure what they were, they didn't discuss it much.
He settles before he looks away again, biting his nails.
SeokJin
I thought he'd be safer here in Seoul, but even in Daegu he never ended up in the hospital.
Seokjin starts again,, and it was clear that he cared very dearly for Yoongi and that he was beyond upset that this happened.
SeokJin
I should've.... made sure nothing happened to him.
Hearing that triggered Hoseok a bit. He couldn't help but think that if Seokjin had answered Yoongi then maybe they would've known that he definitely needed immediate attention.
And it's a stretch but it still makes him so mad, so he doesn't stop himself from saying.
Hoseok
It's your fault for not picking up the fücking phone when he....
Seokjin chuckles humorlessly and he looks over at Hoseok with angry eyes.
SeokJin
No, It's more your fault than mine.
He ignores Taehyung?, looking only at Hoseok as he says.
SeokJin
You're the one who got him pregnant. He was bleeding out because of you and your fücking weak genes.
Hoseok gulps, he wants to say no, tell him that it's not true, but deep down he knew. He had a hunch. He's never heard a lot of tales about omega's getting pregnant by a beta, and a male omega at that, but he didn't want to admit that it could be him.
Taehyung
Stop. You don't know what you're-
Before Taehyung could finish, he gets interrupted.
Nurse
Sorry to interrupt but... I have updates on Min Yoongi... He'll be fine but, i regret to inform you that the baby, it... it didn't make it.
Nurse
We tried everything we could to save it but ultimately succumbed to all the complications. We'll have to do a surgery to remove the baby, and with the amount of blood, Mr. Min has already lost he might be in here for a while.
SeokJin
What happened to him?
Nurse
Well, from what we understand...
Nurse
He was pregnant, with all the odds stacked against him.
Nurse
He's a male omega, who has seemingly had an abortion, has been on suppressants for a long time and also tests shows that the father is... was a beta.
Nurse
It's.... just not a lot of good combinations.
Nurse
If I have any further news I will come right back but I'll leave you guys alone for now.
She smiles politely before she walks away, disappearing behind a door for "staff" only.
Hoseok closes his eyes, and he tries to stop himself from just breaking down right there. He was hoping that just maybe it actually wasn't his fault.
He feels like he's only proving his dad and his grandfather right.
He shakes his thoughts away before he turns to face Taehyung.
Hoseok
I'm gonna step out for a minute.
He says, avoiding all contact before he tries to leave the waiting room.
Taehyung to tries to follow the other but Seokjin stops him.
Seokjin tells, Hoseok would probably need a minute or two to process all he'd just heard.
Taehyung
What? He can't be alone right now, not when-
SeokJin
He won't be alone forever, just let him get his thoughts together.
Taehyung sighs before he takes a seat again and Seokjin sits next to him.
SeokJin
I... I wasn't being totally serious when I said it was his fault to be honest I just... I was upset, so I was just saying whatever but now I... I actually feel bad.
He admits, he felt bad. He wishes he could take it back to be honest. Hearing it twice was probably really hard for Hoseok.
Taehyung
He's been made to feel like an abomination for being a beta his whole life. Hearing that him being a beta is part of the reason Yoongi is... in here, this is just gonna throw him back into that "i'm not good enough phase"
Taehyung says panicking. He's seen Hoseok struggle to accept himself since they were kids and recently he's been getting better. This was going to ruin him completely.
Hoseok steps outside the hospital, and the hot air hits him immediately. He can't even appreciate it with how wild his thoughts had gotten.
It's all his fault. He knew that being a Beta would cause challenges in pregnancies but he... he never imagined it could be so bad.
Yoongi would never forgive him.
He opens his car door quickly, and he hops inside, eyes brimming with tears.
He says as he breaks down completely, and he doesn't have the strength or will to even try.
He stays there for a while just crying,, and crying before the door opens and he hears Taehyung's voice
Hoseok shakes his head as he cries loudly.
Taehyung
It's not your fault...
He begs, he knew what Taehyung was going to say but he just couldn't hear it. Not right now.
Hoseok
You know...t...that's not ...true.
Taehyung
It's not like you planned this, right?
Taehyung
You couldn't have known.
Hoseok
Yeah, I didn't know but Yoongi is... he bled out because of me and... me and my weak genes.
Hoseok
Why couldn't it be you? If you got him pregnant, then... he'd be okay...
Taehyung
Don't think like that, Hoseok.
Taehyung
There were a lot of complications it was just-
Hoseok
Please just stop I... I can't.... I can't do this right now. Taehyung I-
Taehyung
Okay, fine. Just come
Taehyung pulls the other into a hug and he just cries, loud and messy but he didn't care.
His mind was vicious in ways it hasn't been for a long time, and he doesn't complain because it's what he deserves.
His grandfather was right, he is an embarrassment.
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Superior Sope
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2024-01-07
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Max💫
He isn't
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