GOOD KINDS OF BUTTERFLIES (TAEGISEOK, JIKOOK, NAMJIN, TAEGI, VHOPE, YOONSEOK / SOPE) Pathetic

Taehyung

Are you sure you don't want anything to eat before you sleep?

Yoongi nods, barfing wasn't fun. It made him feel awful so yes, he is very sure that he doesn't want to.

He sits on the stool, eyes still a bit puffy from their little cry session back in the couch.

Yoongi

Hoseok, How are you feeling after yesterday?

Yoongi asks and Hoseok just continues playing with his fingers under the table. Clearly, completely zoned out.

Taehyung snaps his fingers before the other making him jump a little.

Taehyung

What are you thinking about so deeply?

Taehyung questions and Hoseok sighs shaking his head, but he huffs when he sees the look on Taehyung's face, telling him to talk.

Hoseok

I just... I'm still shaken by what you had to go through in Daegu.

Yoongi watches as tears pool in Hoseok's eyes again before he looks down. Yoongi slips off his stool, and he makes his way around to the other side of the island where Taehyung and Hoseok sat, and he hugs Hoseok, who turns to him, and he spreads his leg to let Yoongi rest between his legs.

Hoseok

I'm sorry you had to go through all of that alone...

Hoseok whispers in his ears, Taehyung sighs. He knew Hoseok hated seeing people he loved hurt so this was hard for him.

Yoongi

I'm fine. It's in the past...

Yoongi tries to reassure with a soft smile before he speaks again.

Yoongi

And besides, I have both you and Taehyung now so, I'll be fine. Don't you think?

Taehyung smiles brightly as he kept his eyes trained on the two men before him. Yoongi was right, he did have them, and he'd make sure nothing like that ever happened to Yoongi again.

Hoseok nods before he moves his head, so his forehead now rest on Yoongi's, their noses only inches away from brushing against each other.

Hoseok

I.... about uhm...yesterday.

Hoseok starts and Yoongi nods, urging him to continue as he steps back, and he makes his way back around the island once again, taking a seat on the stool he'd been seated at just minutes ago.

Both Taehyung and Yoongi gives him their undivided attention as he opened his mouth to speak.

Hoseok

I don't know...it was harder than I thought it'd be.

He lets out, eyes trained on his hands. Hoseok was one who didn't like to open up, especially not about his feelings so Yoongi knew this was pretty hard for him to talk about.

Hoseok

I wanted the funeral to come go as fast as possible because I thought... I thought I'd feel better. That I'd be able to move on with my life but I... still feel like I lost something.. I...

Hoseok

I just want to move on with my life.

Hoseok finishes and he keeps his gaze away from both Yoongi and Taehyung. He guesses he was a bit scared that they'd judge him for acting like such a child.

Yoongi

Hoseok, he was your dad. I don't think you'll ever be able to just... move on with life.

Yoongi tries and the amount of times Hoseok's heard that is quite funny. Why exactly couldn't he move on with his life?

Hoseok

He was... He was awful to me... Why shouldn't I move on with my life?

Hoseok

I shouldn't care that he's gone, I just... I want to... to do what I want to do for once and even with him gone I still can't.

Hoseok

Even with him dead, I'm still as pathetic as ever.

Taehyung

When are you going to stop calling yourself pathetic? How many times am I going to have to tell you that you're not? huh?

Taehyung

At this point, I'll start believing it.

Yoongi looks to Taehyung, mouthing to him saying "Don't be so harsh."

Taehyung sighs before he looks back to Hoseok, and he takes a gulp. Sure, maybe he was being a bit too harsh but he and Hoseok have been through this so many times.

Taehyung

Look, Hoseok, I know you feel conflicted and you hate that you're grieving and upset about your dad's passing but you've got to accept it before you can move on.

Taehyung

You loved your dad, even though he was awful to you. Even when he couldn't see the greatness in you, you loved him,, and you're not okay with the fact that he's gone.

Taehyung

No matter how much you try to pretend like you don't care, I know you do and I know you're hurting but you don't have to pretend Hoseok.

Taehyung

You don't have to bottle up your feelings because I'm right here and Yoongi's right here. We're both here for you, Hoseok.

Taehyung

So tell us how you really feel.

For a moment, Hoseok just looks at the white quartz countertop, seemingly not going to say anything, but after a while he finally speaks up.

Hoseok

I... I miss him...

He admits, eyes still trained on the countertop.

Hoseok

I hate that I do but I do and he... I was so horrible to him... I...

He lets out and Yoongi was just not going to have that.

Yoongi

No you weren't, Hoseok. You did nothing wrong.

Hoseok

But I did... I was... I told him that I... I told him off before he died and he... he probably died thinking I hate him.

Hoseok

I... I was so angry and I just said any and everything and it's been killing me.

Hoseok

He always had everything planned for me, and he always told me what to do, and now I'm on my own. I'm so scared to go back to the company because what if I can't do it without him? I...I'll just prove everyone right.

Hoseok

Then I'll let our family down and they'll think even worse of me than they already do.

He finishes in a panicked state, almost as if he was visualizing what he was saying.

Taehyung

You're gonna be fine, Hoseok.

Taehyung

I promise you, you'll be fine.

Yoongi

and like Tae said, you have us. Whatever you need, we're here.

Hoseok

Thank you.

Taehyung

It's nice hearing you say thank you instead of "I'm sorry"

Taehyung teases with a soft chuckle, and feels better when he sees that it made Hoseok smile a little.

Hoseok

Don't get used to it.

Yoongi

Trust me, we want to get used to it.

Yoongi retorts.

Hoseok

Whatever. Are you sure you don't want something to eat before bed? It's pretty late and-

Hoseok tries again, but Yoongi was adamant.

Yoongi

No, I just have no appetite and I'm so tired of barfing so I'll wait until tomorrow.

Taehyung

fine but you'll eat the moment you wake up.

Taehyung states sternly and Yoongi fights the urge to mick him.

Yoongi

sure.

Yoongi

Shall we go to bed now?

He questions, before he takes Hoseok's hand pulling him with him.

Taehyung

You're tired already?

Taehyung asks as if it was such a hard thing to believe.

Yoongi

Uhm...Yes, must I remind you I have a child growing in me.

Taehyung

Right.

Taehyung

Okay, I guess it won't kill me to sleep early tonight.

He puts out, clearly not very enthusiastic about his choice.

Hoseok

Well, so much for watching stupid romcoms tonight.

Hoseok adds too, as he continues to let Yoongi pull him away.

Yoongi

But, cuddling with me is way better than any romcom, don't you think?

Hoseok

well...?

Hoseok jokes, making Taehyung a little as he passes them and Yoongi immediately drops Hoseok's hand before he glares at him, clearly not a fan of his little joke.

Yoongi

Wow, Maybe I should just go home.

He retorts, turning away from Hoseok.

Hoseok

Come on, it was just a joke.

Hoseok defends as he follows behind the two.

Yoongi

Do you see me laughing?

Hoseok

No, but you just have no sense of humor.

Hoseok opens again, making Yoongi glare at him yet again and Taehyung laughs at Hoseok's horrible attempt at charming Yoongi.

Taehyung

You're digging your own grave right now, Seok.

Hoseok

I know but it's so fun to see him all riled up. It's cute.

Yoongi

You won't think so when I locked you out of your own room.

Yoongi threatens as he stares at the other who only smiles at him, not taking him seriously at all.

Hoseok

I've got the keys somewhere around here and you also happen to love cuddling up next to me so you won't really do that, will you?

Hoseok responds, a smug smile that Yoongi's grown to love playing on his lips, and before he can even think to respond Taehyung's loud voice comes from their room.

Taehyung

Guys, shut up and come on the bed, would you? Let's sleep.

Hoseok

fine.

Hoseok walks away and makes his way into the room, Yoongi trailing behind him.

Taehyung

get the lights.

Taehyung demands as Yoongi closes the door behind him.

Yoongi

why do I have to do it?

He whines.

Taehyung

You're literally a feet away from the light switch.

Yoongi sighs, but he does turn off the lights anyway, and just as he does, the night lamp flips on and the room is illuminated. He walks his tiny self over the bed, crawling between the two.

Hoseok

Are you comfortable?

Hoseok asks as he pulls Yoongi, who instantly responds to the touch, closer.

Yoongi nods with a bright grin as he feels Taehyung inching closer to him then he snakes his arm around the older's waist, making him smile even more.

Is he comfortable?

That was probably the first time he'd ever been asked that question and being honest, he was.

In the past month, he's been able to say he was okay. That he felt safe and like nothing could go wrong.

Sometimes, the thought that he ruined Hoseok And Taehyung's relationship lingers in the back of his mind, but then they hold him like this, and it's hard to believe.

He wants to be able to lay with them like this forever, and he knows things will change soon, He's about to become a parent, Hoseok's bound to return to work some time soon and Taehyung as well, but he's confident they'll still find a way to make all this work. At least, he hopes they can.

and they slowly drift off to sleep, tangled in each other's arms.