EP2 SOCIAL ANXIETY(1)

SOCIAL ANXIETY

Social anxiety disorder, also called social phobia, is a long-term and overwhelming fear of social situations. It's a common problem that usually starts during the teenage years. It can be very distressing and have a big impact on your life. For some people it gets better as they get older.

Family conflicts , bullying ..

However, social anxiety disorder is treatable. Talking therapy, cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT), and medications can help people overcome their symptoms.

They all laughed while they all looked at me.

I took the earphone from my bag and I listened to music, when I was walking I couldn't hear a voice. but why is that even though I can't hear them, I can feel the pain they are telling me.

every time I walk into the classroom, everyone looks at me, and they start talking about me. I couldn't do anything but put my bag down next to me and sit on the chair like a famous actress with almost everyone looking at me, I was shaking with the fear I felt. as if I wanted to run away but it felt like there was glue on my feet that I could hardly move.

Going to school is scary for someone like me who has social anxiety. All I want is to go to school quietly without anyone judging, if only there was a school for people like me, maybe the fear I feel will slowly disappear.

When the teacher calls me, I'm very scared, because I might not be able to answer what he might ask me. and when that happens all my classmates look at me again, and the more I get nervous and feel the fear, if you don't answer your professor's question, you get more nervous because you don't know what to say to you, because usually all you hear are hurtful words.

you will sit without answering your professor's question, and all of your classmates will suddenly say something to you , what can you do if something happened that you can't take back.

you will come home and your parents will yelling you, they will be angry with you, that they don't know how much you are struggling in school. when you go home you think you have escaped the hurtful words you hear every day, minute by minute it will be worse when you go home. you hardly know what to do.

You will look into the eyes of your parents who are so angry, that I can hardly say anything, but listening to everything he says will hurt me. that if at school the hurtful words my classmates and the professor say to me, I just listen to them all until they voluntarily stop saying the hurtful words to me. and I'm waiting to hear no more hurtful words.

I wonder why I have to go through this. every day is like this, when will the day be when I can be free?

maybe it's nice to feel the joy without fear.

I always say to myself that if I had been smart, studying would have been easy for me, but that's why I wasn't smart, because I was only able to do what I could in my studies and that's it.

if I'm smart, I'm sure my dad will be proud of me, I won't hear hurtful words from him.

sometimes I wonder why the world is unfair, the people who like peace, why is it not given to them, why is it only suffering and sacrificing what they experience.

Meanwhile, the others who feel the peace, why are they wasting what they experience, they have almost everything, but why do they ignore it and let it disappear from them. Why is the world unfair?

Why do we have to experience suffering early? Is it really easy to answer, or do we have an answer because we experience it?

Having social anxiety is very difficult, you always prefer to stay at home, because you feel more free when you are alone.

You are not afraid to be alone, because the person who has social anxiety is always alone, when almost everything is lost to you, you will not feel the sadness because before they came you were already hurting too much, now that they are gone there is nothing new.

In everyday life, I don't know how to get out of the suffering I always suffer.

whatever you do is lost that suffer but... , if someone does that.... you can't leave.

"I read something and I want to share it with you."

-I decided to live as me-

Written as a to do list for everyone struggling with adulting in today’s world

Translated from Korean

Its goal is to comfort its readers as they figure out for themselves who they are and what life means for them.

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Quotes from I Decided To Live As Me

Even if we want to believe that time will heal everything, there are problems that can’t be solved by time, like we can’t rely on fairies for doing our delayed assignments for us while we sleep.

People who will exploit our anxiety to earn profit are everywhere and we can be easily lured. Therefore, stop doing your best anxiously only to prove yourself or to conform with the crowd.

But trying to be good to those who are recklessly judging me as if they were somebody means having lost my self-defense mechanism. I’m equal with them but not weaker. Even if someone hates me, that fact will not damage my life.

Don’t feel ashamed for things that aren’t shameful.

Just like how ocean water doesn’t go bad because of 3 percent salt, if some things are not working in the world, perhaps we each lack 3 percent effort. So, let us do what we can do. The sole savior of our society is an individual who does not ignore it.

No matter how I live my life,

I will support myself.No matter how I live my life,

I will support myself.

I DECIDED TO LIVE AS ME

BY KIM SOO-HYUN.

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