the fourth chapter

I could not sleep that night, I turned on my bed, and the three things: study, war, and luxury conspired against me and caused me insomnia and severe headaches Oh my God... I'm tired... Tired! Let study go to hell! War, as well as go to hell ! And Raghad... Raghad... So let me go to Raghad! I jumped out of my bed with a very urgent desire to see the little one... She must be asleep by now... How cruel I was to her! How regretful I am! I walked slowly until I entered Raghad's room, and I was amazed when I saw the darkness looming over it! My little girl is afraid to sleep in the deep darkness and insists on turning on the dim light. I approached the bed and looked closely to look for the little girl's face, but I did not see him. I lit the dim lamp next to her bed, and I was terrified when I saw the bed empty... I got up in panic... And I turned around... Then I turned on the strong lamp and looked closely at everything... Raghad was not in the room... I left the room like a madman and went straight to Dana's room, then Samer, then all the rooms of the house and around it, and I didn't Stay one meter away from him without being searched... Except for my parents' room. I walked staggering and clinging to my last hope that Raghad would be there... I stopped at the door, and raised my hand in preparation for his knocking, and my strength betrayed me. What if Raghad is not here? Where could she be? Anxiety, rather dread, and fear over Raghad possessed me and cast aside any sound thinking from my head. I knocked on the door with successive knocks, feeling anyone panicked! Seconds, and if my mother stood before me in panic: “Walid? Good, son?” I took a few breaths in succession, then said: “Is Raghad here?” Say yes mom... please! “Yes! I slept here.” It was as if an iceberg had fallen over my head when I heard her answer. Suddenly all my muscles loosened, and I stumbled, stepping back, until I sat down on one of the chairs. My mother came up to me, glanced at the clock on the wall, and then looked back anxiously at me. .. “Walid? What’s wrong with you, dear?” I closed my eyes for a second, unable to move any muscle in my body… Then I looked at her and said with difficulty: “I was worried when I didn’t find her in her room… I almost died of anxiety… My mother approached me, wiped my head and said: “Be easy on me, son… She came to me crying yesterday and said that you were angry with her and took her out of your room! She was very sad!” Perhaps my mother wants to blame me for my behavior with Raghad. I've had enough reprimand and more...don't you see that I haven't slept until this hour because of that...?? "Sorry to bother you mom, good night" Raghad! What are you doing to me!? I got up late the next morning, and when I went to the kitchen I found my mother busy preparing food while Raghad was playing with some dolls next to her. When Raghad saw me, she smiled at her, but she rose and clung to my mother, as if she was asking for protection! I was very annoyed by this... Has my beloved child become afraid of me?? "Raghad! Come to me..." She did not move, but clung to my mother more, which made me very uncomfortable, so I left the kitchen immediately. She will forget after a while... She is just a child and children forget quickly! It is better not to forget so that you stay away from me and get rid of one of my worries! In the evening, Um Hussam came with her two children Hussam and Nahla to visit us. Um Hussam is Raghad's only aunt, who was taking care of her in the past, after the death of her parents. Husam is her eldest son, who is seven or eight years old, I think, while Nahla is a few months younger than Raghad. Looks like a (new brother) is about to join this family! Raghad loves this aunt very much, and the aunt visits us from time to time to check on Raghad. Our house has been transformed into a children's playground... Playing, laughing, crying, quarreling, fighting, cheering, screaming! They were all happy, but I stayed in my room and studied. Later, the voices completely disappeared, so I concluded that the guests had left. At dinnertime, I was the first to sit around the table, for I was hungry, and I had not had any main meal for the day. The chair next to me is the one on which my little girl Raghad usually sits, and I always helped her eat. My family members gathered around the table, but the chair next to it remained vacant! "Where is Raghad??" You insist on going with her today and today only?? I lost my appetite for food, and I only ate a little of it... On Friday evening I went with my father to get Raghad from her aunt's house. I entered the house while my father was waiting in the car. The children, Raghad, Nahla and Hussam, were playing some games in one of the rooms when They saw me stop playing, and they stared at me! Do I look terrified?? Maybe because I'm tall and sort of big ! I smiled at these little creatures and then said: "Hello my dears! Have you not had enough of playing!" None of them smiled or moved a finger! I looked at my little girl Raghad, and said to her: "My sweet little girl! It's time to go home." "I don't want" was the first sentence Raghad uttered! She does not want to return home ! "What, Raghad? We must go back now, for tomorrow you will go to school!" "I'll stay here" "Raghad! We'll bring you here to play every day if you want! Come on, our father is waiting in the car." She didn't seem to get up. And now?? What do I do with this little one?? How should the proper behavior be?? Umm Hossam intervened, saying: "My daughter, Raghad, tomorrow Walid will bring you here again. And every day if you want to play with Nahla, come and bring your toys as well." What happened to this small ? why you do not want to come close to me anymore ? Eat this because I took it out

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