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How much I wish that those feelings that are going in and out of my heart in my bloodstream up at my brain out of my breath, those feelings that are making me rushing, making me blush, make me smile as they are putting fear from behind of me, as they know very well that I’m going to be hurt from them I’m going to be in pain.

How much I wish to put them down berried down on me, no I wish if somehow I can lock them, there at my heart and never fell them … but I’m here at the door ready to prove myself once again that those feelings aren’t good for us, no those aren’t good for me.

How much I hate to love those feelings now I realize that I miss opening this door. I miss walking in this cafe and I miss him waiting at my favorite spot with my coffee ready.

“I’m here to prove to me that this is the real bitter truth,” I said under my breath as I walk through the coffee.

I don’t know how but I turned on that terrace and saw him. He looks so handsome more than time. As he holds his drink and looks at the time on his phone as he looks at me as if he got up from the chair.

“Brain:0 Feeling:1, “ I said as I turned around. First I need to let my breath out and breathe again cuz somehow I forgot and second I need to leave and NO I don’t need to check if he is him.

“Skyla wait “ he grabs my wrist “ we need to talk…” I pulled my wrist and slapped him. ”to talk about… I wasn’t expecting this.” he whispered but somehow I heard it in the middle of the cafe in the middle of the noise.

“I... “ I couldn’t say anything but I need to say something I need to … to leave now.“ I don’t this I care to listen to you now.” He walked one step behind and I turned at the door, as soon as I was outside everything was blurry, still, I was walking and my tears started to fall they had enough staying in my eyes.

I turned around which broke my second rule I wiped my first tear and check my face. “Good I’m not all red.” and I checked if he was still out he wasn’t. “In this short time he hasn’t left he is still inside.” this voice pushed me to go inside once again.

I was right he was there in the same spot waiting. I wasn’t expecting to see him crying.

“God he looks so hot, so sexy without his glasses.“ I don’t know how I said it but I was far I know no one has heard me. I walked to the table where he was. When I sit he relies upon that I was there. Of course, I have been waiting about 20 minutes till he stopped crying and he went to the bathroom and come out all good after all that crying and he didn’t look like he has cried.

This man wasn’t ashamed to cry like a baby in a cafe but he wasn’t in the middle of the cafe so maybe that gives him the courage to cry.

“Skyla, you came back.”God, he didn’t look like he was crying not even in his voice if someone will tell I wouldn’t believe it but I saw it with my own eyes.

“What on the earth were you thinking when you put that proposal to my grandmother, did you go nuts,” I said as I didn’t care about that part of him crying, but deep down I do care. God only you and I know how much I had missed him.

“I…“ he paused for a minute. “I meet William and Peter the other day and I accidentally heard about that problem, “ he said while looking straight into my eyes.

“Oh, accidentally you heard. “I took a sip from my ice lemonade.“ I didn’t know this … I mean my problem could be heard accidentally.”

“As I said it it was accidentally and I thought that for some time I can be a good help - to prove you some security till you sort things with that man “He finished and grabbed his drink. Every word he said made my heart boil only if I could hug him and kiss him like in the past but no NO I’m stopping myself.

“Why you … what do you win by this … and why should I trust you... Why are you so ready to put yourself in this danger... Why do you come again in my life? Why... Just tell me why. “I looked at his beautiful dark blue eyes, which I have missed so much.

“Because of the old times and we both will be winners on this, and as for the others why I tell you when I think is the right time for you to know,” he replied fas as he was ready to stop me from leaving.

“Old times - right time -stop lying you won’t win anything you only can get hurt from this, stop here before will be too late” I put money to the bill on the table and put the wallet in my bag as I talked.

“I now out brake out was worse but you should trust me in those times I can protect you,” he said as if what he has done was nothing.

“ Brake out, hear me out YOU LEFT ME, YOU LEFT ME ON THE DAY I GRADUATED, ON THE DAY THAT I NEEDED YOU THE MOST, YOU LEFT ME FIVE YEARS AGO, YOU DIDN’T BRAKE UP WITH ME. ” I screamed at him put my glasses on and left this time not sad but frustrated at him.

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“Sorry for being late,” I said to Lydia

“No need to worry girl I said you need to stop to buy tampons on the way,” Lydia said as she was preparing for the therapy

“You said that to the Manager.” I was shocked.

“Yes why not, girl we are women this is normal, what has happened to your face why is red, did you cry. “she twisted and twisted me while she checked at me.

“I’m fine is just hot outside.“

“Yeah you’re right is in mid-August. “ I took the syringe from her hand, that she was pointing at me. “You think you can fool me.”

“Lydia we talk later we have to work first. “I turned at her and give her the open ampule.

“Mari those are ready you can put them on the patient “ she give the system and other stuff to the nurse student and so we were left alone for maybe 5 minutes. “Don’t tell me that is true that he is back.”

“Am I that obvious?” I gave her another open ampule.

“Yes but no I mean you have been like this for 5 years now, and each time it hasn’t been him so I had given up that he will come back… long story short everyone knows that a hot single emergency intern has been transferred here and Oops he has the same name as your ex.” I was continuing opening the ampule and she was angry taking out of the ampule and putting it in the IV bottle.

“So Peter hasn’t told you.” I immediately regret what I said.

“ So even Peter knows “ her response was mad.

“Not only Peter, William knows too and things aren’t good, but before you ask for more let’s finish work than we talk.” Yeah, Lydia's face was pissed but we need to work now or someone will fire us from work.”

“Aren’t you going to the other work after this?”

“No, not today I don’t feel like working I need to talk with you, that’s more important now.”

“Weren’t you going on date with Peter?” I was changing from my scrubs.

“No I’m not going with him you need me more now, he can wait” I can see through her eyes that she is mad somehow.

“Lydia if I’m saying If we see him please don’t do or say anything, this is now between us … me and him.” She looks at me as ready to kill me” Plus you don’t know all the things that are going on”

“All right I do as you’re saying but because of you, not him, I’m still ready to kill him on the second I see him.” yes I know that in all those 5 years you had said it every time I had crying over him.

“I take you to my favorite place and not you’re not driving I’m” she locked her cabinet.

“But I can drive very…”

“Oh no you can’t drive when I’m with you, enough with words let’s go.” she didn’t let me finish like always, the only reason why I don’t drive well is because of those people who don’t let me be better.

“Let’s go.” I grab my bag and the file that William has to give me in the morning.

On the way to this cafe, we didn’t talk at all thanks to Peter's call. Thanks to that I have enough time to sort all my thoughts.

“What is with that file.” she stares at my hand.

“Let’s go inside and I tell you.” I open the car door.

“So what has happened, did you fight with your mom again no that won't have to do anything with Rowan, girl we are here so tell me.” she started with her question now as fast as we came inside the cafe shop.

“A lot has happened in those 4 days.”

“ Four days and you haven’t told me.” I put water in her glass.

“Come on you have been out of the country I didn’t want to disturb you.” She has already ordered the food.

“Still you should have, look at you have become so...“

“Skinner.”

“Fat you have gained weight again, how much this time.”

“Fun fact I have lost 4% of fat and gained 2% muscle, don’t worry I’m taking care of my bad habits” I open the files as the waiter put food at our table.

“ I’m proud to see that you can control yourself in those situations, you are looking perfect I was just joking.” Yeah, I know your jokes.

“So please Mrs. Lydia hear me and no questions.“ I took a deep breath and give her a picture it was a man.

“Who is he?”

“I said no question, he…he is the one who has been stalking me in those 7 or more years.” if I wouldn’t know her she will curse him now.

“This is that mother f***er” I guess I still know her. “How did you find it.”

“ I didn’t my brother-in-law did it… so you know that my family recently in those 3 years have a company “

“Yeah Yeah what does this have to do with him.” she has started eating.

“ He has bought 5% of our shares, and somehow he has found some sort of problem with the leadership and he is threatening us.” I put water in my glass and took a sip.

“Can he do anything to the company with that 5%” she stopped eating and stare at the papers on my left.

“Yes, he can do a lot according to my brother-in-law he can damage a lot of our company on the marketing if he posts on the internet the fact he has.” I turned to my right and then I give her another paper. “He said he can stay quiet but to do so she wants to marry me.”

“Wait wait. Can you at least tell me how you know he has been stalking you and how he is now o member of your company board.” she is keeping up with the news better than I was.

“Do you remember how it was always someone who keeps trying to brakes my SNS passwords, my brother-in-law has found him somehow but he keeps losing his location and the police couldn’t do anything he thinks he is the one who somehow has bought from one of our assets and now he is a member of the board and the one who has to make this kind of problem seems to be one of our members who my grandmother never trust and always keep eyes on him but we don't know how Grandma's people have missed this kind of problem.” She looks so confused I know is hard to believe this but all of it is true.

“One can you please stop calling my brother-in-law and please call him William after all he has a name, and continue I won't speak till the end.”

“Long story short to not lose millions and for my father and that man not to go to jail I have 30 days to find a fiance or better a husband and make so real my love to him or if not I have to marry this man...” I point at the man's picture. “My stalker.”

“And what exactly is this problem that has caused all this.”

“He said that our SPF contains benzene and other cancers elements that over 10 consumers now have skin cancer.” I give her another paper.

“This can’t be true both of us use those products and we don’t have any problem, maybe this is all made by him.”

“ This is what we have to think too, me dad and William so he has given us 30 days to find if he is lying so that gives me 30 days to find a husband or marry him.” This is crazy like how it sounds.

“This can’t be true I will be here helping, we were together when we have to make all tests and we have been using those products since the beginning and everything is going to be okay we are together in this” She rubs my back and I hold her hands. “Even if we have to go on each door of those consumers and as them, and take stamps I will be with you. It will be Me, you, your brother-in-law/ William, and somehow I drag here Peter and maybe your evil sister”.

“Thanks, but you will stay out of this” I put her hand on my lap.“ You need to listen to doctors, please don't make me regret telling you cuz if I don't I will be in a psychiatrist.” She removed her hand.

“But I need to help you.”

“ You will but in a different way, in a safe way. I kiss her hand. “Be a good girl and listen.”

“ Okay okay but you need to tell me everything.”

“ I swear I tell you anything, anytime, anywhere I'm, I just need you to be safe and not be stressed. I put my hand to my head like a soldier.

“Okay, so tell me is he more handsome than he was 5 years ago.” She put one eyebrow up.

“ Lydia ...”

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