Episode 17: Sometimes I hate him, but love him more than that

 We just broke up, Yun Jin ....

 To Van Cam was startled awake from the dream, in this spacious room just bare herself, the voice in the dream seemed to still echo, lurking throughout the room. She got up, looked at the clock at the bedside, it was 5 o'clock, so she did not feel sleepy anymore, went to pour herself a large glass of water, slowly sitting down in front of the dressing table. How should a woman be twenty-seven years old? Just like a flower of the wall, a moment bursts to the fullest extent, each petal spreads splendidly, just a moment later, wither and wither. Tô Tô Cẩm patted her cheek with her hand, for more than three years, to say exactly forty-one months, how long had it been since she remembered him, that voice. She pulled the drawer of the table and searched for the remaining blue pearl bracelet, held in the palm of the hand, cold and aching. The words he said when she put the earrings on her still whispered in her ear, and yet, the day she left was too hasty, she ended up losing the other earring.

 She and Cheng Cheng, have lost each other already.

 Trinh Tranh, Trinh Tranh ... A man once close as flesh on his body, turned out to be also unrelated to the sea of immense sea. She could no longer remember the details of that farewell night, the memory of a human being defending herself, only remembering that she had stepped out of his apartment, and the two had never seen her since. How big can a city be, enough to destroy two people? God can make two people have a coincidence in the corner of the pool, but four long years of not pushing for the two of them to meet once, surely they must punish each other yet. deep enough.

 How can it be considered deeply in love? In the first two months since the breakup, his figure wandered everywhere, To Van Cam whether through every street or when he turned around still always panic to see the familiar silhouette, every night whether good or bad. , there is always him in it. But then gradually faded away, time is a scary thing, it is flat with everything, every single blow, every single blow, all clean and ugly traces, only scars scar left clearly in shape, later she became less and less thinking about all that was related to him, in the end, even in the dream was no longer seen.

 Perhaps Cheng Cheng was right, she was just an unruly gambler, like this might be worth the luck and joy, because the pain would be greatly reduced as well. However, once, Mac Australia Hoa told me: “From a medical point of view, losing pain is also a form of disease, moreover it is quite dangerous, because a person if not pain Whatever he is, he won't know how serious his condition is

 Sometimes Cam Cam really admires the main characters on the drama, hurt emotionally, casually walks away, wanders everywhere, after years of returning to the old place, everything has become new. But she is not the female protagonist in a drama, but in real life, she needs to have a bit of a backlash, most ordinary people just like her, stumble and struggle. muddy a bit, then crawled up from the same place, brushed his face clean, then dragged one foot forward. If she did not die, she had to live with kindness, she wanted to have meals, have a house, and wanted to support the family, she had no right to immerse herself in misery.

 For several years, in the company, gradually, someone had known about To Van Cam in the marketing room, the girl looked fragile, normally very reserved, and for things unrelated to her, she didn't say half a sentence. , but the job assigned to her, regardless of anyone can be completely assured, because she always handled with care and efficiency. The same thing, he gave her half a month's deadline, she could do it very carefully, but if she only gave her half a day, she still finished the job on time, without a glimpse of people. What errors are detected? On the table, there were always customers who deliberately teased this handsome young girl, placed a big glass of wine in front of her, just waiting for her to surrender, but she didn't fuss, just stood up. quietly drinking without leaving a drop, drunk also biting back home teething, there was vomiting up to long landslide and no one ever saw. Rarely has a woman like this, under her soft calmness, hid an overwhelming mass of strength; Over the past three or four years, her position has kept rising, from a part-time staff in the marketing planning strategy department to a project manager, deputy planning manager, assistant marketing manager, deputy director. marketing director, steadfast at the middle level of the company. Although she is young and unmarried, no one can doubt her accomplishments and efforts.

 Twenty-five years old, she finally managed to buy a house of her own amidst this expensive real estate city, twenty-seven years old, owned a Toyota. My uncle has long left the job at the other garment factory, thanks to a sum of money from Van Cam, contributing to the opening of a restaurant in the district, suffering the pain of getting up late at night, more or less, it is enough for the day. , with her mother, life was temporarily considered to be peaceful; the younger sister passed the university entrance exam, Tô Tô Cẩm also devoted herself to supporting the money. Everything was as she wished, a small and unknown person trying to ** to this day, though more or less should know enough. Su Yun is not greedy, she appreciates everything she has right now, except her heart is missing a certain piece, she herself did not discover it, she only knew it when she was most happy. I still feel lonely, in the middle of the night waking up incredibly empty. She could not make up for it.

 The next morning, when she went to the company to work, there was a lot of work on the table, leaving her unable to spare the useless lament. Time to go to work has passed more than thirty minutes, the female employee named Lu Lo has just come in to scavenge the fire as he broke into the main office of the marketing department, right when he ran into To Van Cam himself. Get yourself a glass of water. Tô Vân Cẩm took a look at her, said nothing, Lu Lo felt uneasy, hurriedly bent his head and quickly moved to his seat.

 To Van Cam returned to his office, watching Luc Lo through the glass running close to the floor, the young, soaring young girl, graduating from college in less than a year, must have played too much last night or pretended to be fake. now sleepless, this month is the second time coming to work late. Su Yun was not a strict boss, she rarely scolded or interfered with her subordinates, most of the time, she just kept quiet, but who worked hard, who lazily passed on, who cared, who was right wrong she saw, all remembered in her heart, in terms of reward and punishment have their own decisions. There is something for strangers who are as quick and strange as this Lu Lo girl, To Van Cam is also subconsciously devoted to more or less tolerance, just do not cause serious catastrophes, and also trifled a number of small flaws. Other than that, she just closed her eyes to ignore, because she admired Luc Lo's carefree youth. She also used to have such great years like that, but what was To Van Cam back then? Sensitive, dark, lonely, she did not know why she could be so upset that day, even an affair like that could not change her inferiority habits, so she lost it. it already.

 Is it because with age every day more and more, the tasteless laments also increasingly piling up? Tô Tô Cẩm put her fingers on the temple, perhaps a long dream that she hadn't met made her so emotional, she rearranged her thoughts, focused her attention, buried her head into work. . At the end of the afternoon working time, when she had just finished the phone call with her boss, Sales Director Tu Chi Hang, Lu Lo knocked on the floor of her office and poked her head in, excitedly. said: "My boss, everyone in my room tonight will make an appointment" make up ", send me to invite you, please go". "No, let's go have fun," laughed Tô Tô Cẩm, lowering his head again. Having been discovered for a while that something was wrong, raised his eyes to look, only to discover Luc Lo had a serious face and face right in front of her desk, Tô Tô Cẩm couldn't help but feel a bit amused. again?". Lu Lo sternly asked, "Sister To, do you have to work over tonight? Or an appointment? ... Or an unwell person? If everything is wrong then why do you have to do it alone, do you know what is the great enemy of lonely women, flowers bloom quickly and eagerly, don't wait ... ”(Note: The verse of Luc Lo mentioned in the article Kim Lu Y by author Do Thu Nuong - Tang Dynasty Originally: Encouragement of military troops to accumulate gold and silver, Encouragement of teenagers, young men; Even though the flower buds are not extracted, roughly translated: The guy who regrets not wearing yellow embroidery, Is it regrettable to keep his age, The flowers bloom quickly and pick them, Don't wait for the flowers to die and pick them up)

 "Stop!", Tô Yun Jin interrupted Lu Lo's messy argument. "Tell me where." She pretended not to see Luc Lo showing a winning hand to his colleague who was waiting outside the door, maybe she really needed appropriate relaxation.

 “At Ta Ngan, we eat and drink on the 2nd floor, sing karaoke on the 3rd floor, le la bar on the 4th floor… Wait for me, Sister Tô, I will ride in your car.” Luc Lo stumbled out, did not broadcast appeared a moment of suspicion of Tô Tô Cẩm.

 Actually, To Van Cam was not new to Ta Ngan. In the past few years, she gradually lost the world as she used to be in Trinh Tranh, after losing her job or wandering around with old classmates or friends in big entertainment centers. of the city. Ta Ngan has been a prominent entertainment complex for the last two years, the design is very fancy, the price is mid to high, quite suitable for the interests of office workers, most importantly, Ta Ngan is the name of Chuong Viet.

 After parting with Trinh Tranh, To Van Cam and Chuong Viet basically did not contact each other, but Cu Cu An was still her friend. Tô Tô Cẩm is very clear, someone like Tham Cu An is very vulnerable to love, but maintaining a suitable distance for friends to go back and forth, he will again be a perfect companion. . For a long time, Tham Cu An had never mentioned anything related to the parting of Trinh Tranh in front of her, To Van Cam rarely asked about his dissolution with Chuong Viet.

 After eating and drinking, the crowd screamed in the karaoke room. Although To Van Cam still advocated that after hours could be a bit arbitrary, but in front of her subordinates, after all, it was still inconvenient to forget herself, so most of the time she acted as an audience. . However, Lu Lo did not ignore it, so he dragged her to PUB on the 5th floor, saying that it must be together with Ms. High. She had just finished drinking a glass of wine, her face was flushed red, her eyes were brighter than at any time in the office, like radar scanning among the crowded men and women who were searching for the figure of handsome men. , also slightly shook Shi Yun. "Sister To, look, there is something wonderful!" To Van Cam looked at her direction, jumping around in chaos, how to distinguish "excellent" or "leaving", then let go with little interest: "It's not my" F4 "style again. is that right? ”.

 When Luc Lo tried to turn around to look back, he did not see anyone anymore, mentally said: "It's really beautiful, beautiful and has a temperament, why can't you see it anymore?". Tô Tô Cẩm chuckled in her stomach, so far away, yet she discovered that the other person had a "temperament".

 Lu Lo discovered that Su Yichun's interest had faded, and immediately said in a disobedient tone: “Sister Tô, I am only twenty-seven years old, but I am no longer inspired by the handsome guys, this is very scary, women can not have wet love, she looked at her, dark circles under the eyes, certainly the Yin and Yang imbalance.

 "Talking nonsense, I didn't sleep well last night," Tô Tô Cẩm laughed.

 Lu Lo laughed hii said: "Sleep not good, is there to remember the boisterous people there?". With words out of her mouth, she suddenly realized that To Yun Jin's expression froze for a moment. She also just involuntarily blurted out, because To Van Cam was always intimate with her so she dared not abstain from anything like that, now that she remembered that her boss did not like to discuss privately with others, she unintentionally regretted having missed words, immediately stealthily le le tongue, tiu thinking about changing topics.

 What made her even more surprised was that Su Yun Jin was silent for a while, and finally nodded again. Luo Lo was stunned for a moment, immediately feeling he could pull out some sensational scoop, hurriedly clinging to To Van Cam's sleeve, asking as if in a fortune telling: "Sister To, who are you missing, tell me."

 "The lover of the past", To Van Cam said calmly.

 Lu Lo was even more excited, “It turned out that I used to have a lover before, I told you, how beautiful as To here, how can I not have any love experience. "The lover of the past" means that you two broke up? Why break up? You're good like that, it's definitely because the opponent isn't good, so you left him, didn't you? ”

 “No, he's not bad at all, on the contrary, he's the best son I've ever met - at least that's what I feel. I thought, there would be no one else like him who would love me anymore, that I don't have a destiny, so I just lost him. ”To Yun Jin was surprised that he finally said those words. for this girl, perhaps the sight that awakened her from her dream last night had conjured up memories from laau, making her soft, needing to find someone to listen to.

 "Then you definitely miss him a lot, don't you?" Lu Lo listened attentively, and did not forget to ask sympathetically.

 Tô Vân Cẩm shook her head. "Actually, in recent years, I rarely remember him. The city is not that big, but I've never met him before. ”

 "He is also in this city G?", Lu Lo widened his eyes. “Sister Tô, suppose you and your ex will meet again, what will you do? Do you cry? Or did he pretend to not notice and greet him normally?

 “If I ever see him again, my only wish is - I hope he is not happy, at least not to be happier than me. Isn't it cruel? ”Tô Tô Cẩm shook the glass of wine in his hand.

 Lu Lo was able to hear these words innocently, innocently asking: "Why is that?".

 Tô Tô Cẩm lowered her eyelids: “Because I still cannot give up. A lot of times I hate him ... But I love him more than that. "

 "Sister To, I don't understand. If you can't give up on someone, then why not come back and find him? Regardless of how unscrupulous, the two people who used to love each other, still in the same city, can definitely find the other person. ” Lu Lo wondered.

 Losing words were gloomy, "One or two years ago, I was not willing to look for him, because I could not forget the initial hurt, thinking that the two of us would be together again." Why, no one has ever forced us to break up, we don't know how to love each other. She broke up with him, not a misconception, nor by accident, just sooner or later. Later, he gradually thought about some things, but did not dare to look for him anymore, afraid that he would have other people beside him, afraid that he would leave her and find happiness. Humans used to be as close as a body part, just in her sight, but now outside her life, just thinking about it was enough sour. Otherwise, not seeing is more, at least you can lie to yourself. After getting used to it, without him, he can still live well, I will have my own life too. ”

 "But, I always thought that people who love each other should throw away thousands of obstacles to be together," the young girl who never loved never spoke stubbornly.

 “Probably right. You are just a negative book, should not affect your expectations about your love ”, To Van Cam laughed sarcastically.

 The two of them were still talking when Tieu Mac - a colleague who was still singing karaoke on the 3rd floor - turned through the crowd and approached him, "Head of Tô, it turns out that you are here, making me search forever, someone to find me it's you ”.

 Su Yun Jin had a bit of a lake or, following Tieu Mac to walk towards them was a young woman who was not familiar with the face.

 "Who among you is Tô lady?", The young woman stepped forward, asking Su Yun and Lu Lo. Looking closely to see her age must be in her late thirties, but the makeup is thorough, sophisticatedly dressed, the voice has a slight voice.

 “It's me, please ask me…” Tô Tô Cẩm's words still hadn't finished, half a glass of Jack Daniels Luc Lo placed on the counter had been wiped clean in her face. Lu Lo exclaimed in horror, the happy guests in the surroundings watched in unison.

 To Van Cam gently brushed away the drops of wine fluttering over the eyes, watching the dazzling red painted nails holding the glass of wine, actually in the heart had guessed the eight, nine parts of the body and the cause of the opponent's presence.

 "From my husband's surname Xu, you may call me Ms. Xu, it's a pleasure to meet you, Tô lady." The woman's aura was calm and composed, as if she were chatting everyday.

 Luc Lo and Tieu Mac stood on the side for a moment, then reacted a little, flipping and handing tissues to To Van Cam. To Van Cam took hold, slowly wiping away the wine droplets still lingering on her hair and face, and her body gradually revived from the sudden incident. How familiar this scene was, the glass of cold water she had once thrown into Chenghai, has now responded to herself, "Lady's way of greeting is certainly different."

 The self-proclaimed woman From the other lady smirked at To Van Cam, her voice cruelly harsh, "It looks good, it doesn't seem to be a third-class girl, Tu Chi Hang's eyes have improved too." I now thought about it forever, why do the mainland women who have a bit of beauty are eager to do people? "

 Wine on Su Yun's face dried, she brushed away the wet hair stuck to the front of her forehead, laughing and replying, "I was always wondering, why are women on the island of old age a little bit tall?" Is it only water that wakes up the wife? "/

 "Too hard!" From the lady who could not keep laughing, her emerald hands swung hard.

 To Yun Jin grabbed tightly, "From the lady, I gave my permission first, the glass of wine you threw at me received. There is an apology, the game in the crowd of people eating her slap is not very easy for me to accept. If I were you, I wouldn't have done that, because you will realize that this slap comes down, though you can vent your anger, but your situation will be even worse. ”

 From the helpless lady let go, gritted her teeth said: "For me, there was nothing more tragic than the husband having another woman outside."

 “If you have any anger, you should find Xu Chi Hang to let go, cut off with him, because the one who slipped is him! If you want to get your husband back, thig should spend more time trying to understand what he is thinking, rather than the whole year that doesn't make peace with him. If it were not me, there would be others. ”

 "I don't know anyone, I just know you, Tô Yun Jin, stay away from him!"

 A woman until most desperate helpless, all the old wrinkled wrinkled makeup that no matter where can not hide.

 To Yun Jin's heart suddenly tightened, she soon thought of today, ending this wrong relationship is just sooner or later, something never expected to use this way, but nothing else Where is each other? It's time to say goodbye.

 "I agree with you, if he agrees to leave, I absolutely will not cling to him anymore."

 From the dumbfounded lady, she had originally decided to live a comfortable life, but without a doubt, she quickly stopped this flag. As a non-original person, she froze for a while and said, "Okay, it's best that you remember what you just said." Before tears welled up, she threw her hand away.

 "Ah, this woman, after finishing the water, I was going to leave immediately, there's no such thing as an unreasonable thing." Luc Lo showed no sign of obedience, still trying to call her back.

 To Yun Jin held onto Lu Lu tightly, saying: “She is finally the wife of General Xu, to blame for her or not for me. Let's go, are we still not happy enough with the viewers? ”.

 Until boarding the car, Lu Lo still asked her: "Sister To, the woman insulted you like that, could it be done after that?".

 “She doesn't insult me. You must be glad that the thing she threw on your face isn't acid. ”Tô Tô Cẩm Cẩm's hand drives the steering wheel, just like someone's talking.

 Lu Lo froze, after a while digesting Tô Tô Cẩm's words, "I mean, is it really true for me and General Từ Từ?"

 Tô Tô Cẩm was silent. Luc Lo in his heart now understand. Having been in the company for nearly a year, she did not have never heard rumors about Sales Director Tu Chi Hang and Deputy Marketing Manager To Van Cam, but in the company, the style of those two people before was still public and private, in front of people who never showed any intimacy. She could not believe it, General Director Tu was mature and attractive and the boss that she had grown so long to have an unacceptable relationship like this.

 "But then, Tô, clearly said that she could not give up in the past. Do you also love General Director Tu? ”She felt the love fairy tale in her heart gradually shattering.

 “I can't give up on the person I used to not mean I still want to be with him. As for Từ Chí Hằng, I used to need him very much, just or he needed me, just as simple as that. ”Tô Vân Cẩm showed no expression.

 "But…"

 "Nothing but nothing, don't ask anymore, if it's too much to know, it won't be good for me, come to my house, come in carefully." To Yun Jin stopped, let Lu Lu disembark, then turned. The front of the car went straight to his place.

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