Chapter 1: Our first meeting

Hi! My name is Lotus. I have a crush on a guy calls Pan, who may seem not to be serious in our relationships (sometimes he acts like a friend and sometimes like a boyfriend). Now, let me direct you guys to my story...

Primary school, Year 1:

"Hey little piggy!", a boy's voice shouted from the window of the class. I'm pretty sure that this is Pan, since no one calls me pig except him.

I turn my face to find those voice to stop him from calling me that ugly name, but no one is there. I'm so embarrassing, how can he do this to me when our classmates are here?

Everyone gives me a new nickname because of this boy \=\=

A few minutes later, he turns up in front of me, teasing me nonstop until the teacher arrives. Thanks god!!!!

Time flies quickly, and we are now in second grade. We study in the same class again, so our friendship tighten stronger. Pan and I spend most of the time playing and studying together throughout the year.

Pan always stays by my side, messing around with me and taking care of me like a friend (maybe), which I started to develop my feeling towards him.

People won't believe that a kid like me started to like someone at this age. What a shame :<

In our third year, we don't have a chance to study in the same class, and there are many things to happen this year. Since I always hold my first grade in the class, the teacher asks me to help her a lot, which is one of the reasons that Pan and I do not meet each other frequently like before. We started to become awkward when we talk, so I decided to hide from him for a while, and so does he.

In the middle of the year, I am confessed by a boy in the same class as mine. He is Ken, who is one of my competitors in the class. Since I am not taken, why shouldn't I try dating? But who knows.... This is when Pan and I become strangers. Pan gives me a reason before he walks away, saying that he doesn't want people to confuse about our relationships, which can affect my relationship with Ken. I disagree, so I try to convince him to stay, but he rejects me. This relationship is not working since I am the only one who do everything, hence, our friendship is destroyed by me!

Until the end of the year, I break up with Ken, but Pan and I are still strangers.  I don't want to please anybody anymore, so I remain in my place and only focusing on study.

I become quieter and colder starting from Year 4, which scares people away from me. But luckily, someone approaches me, then we become besties. Her name is Nicky, a courageous girl who does not scare anything.

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