Im a fool that I trusted someone easily

When I woke up I saw his phone on the top of my cabinet, and saw some messages. So I opened it and explore on the apps of his phone, because since we are in a relationship I have the rights to do so. When I opened the messages I was stunned for a sec and I felt like my whole body was numb. I couldn't even speak nor moved. After a few seconds a tears in my eyes drop all of the sudden.

message:

Blake: Dude dont forget all what you are doing was just a dare okay. Dont fall in love to her, she is just a peace of trash even her so called bestfriend disgust to her. Gotta go Mia is waiting for me.

(Ps: Blake was Glyde's bestfriend And Mia was my childhood friend who is also my bestfriend and like a sister to me. Blake was Mia's boyfriend)

Me: How could you do this to me?! You know what I've been through and yet you also hurt me. You played by me feelings. I thought you are not the same as them but I was wrong, YOU ARE ALSO JUST LIKE THEM!!. why....WHY??? *saying those things while wailing*

Glyde: Ase you woke up? *then he saw me holding his phone* Ase let me explain, please listen to me! *and holds my hand*

Me: There is nothing to explain to, I already knew it. We should brake up. * with a bitter smile*

Glyde: Ase * he said it like he is saying sorry*

Me: please go out and leave and thank you for making me happy for the mean time, Hope this will be our last meeting. * and turned away*

All I did was cry after he left the house and suddenly my step mom came in.

Stepmom: Good for you *then smirk* your dad will be here in the afternoon, fix yourself you moron. You shouldn't be here anyway *drag my hair and wispered in my ear* If you tell your father all the things that I did to you, I will make your life miserable, you understand my dear? NOW YOU FIX YOURSELF. *then left*

I fix my self and put on a hat so that my dad wont see my bald. My dad came and had some few gifts.

Stepmom: you look very tired dear, why dont you go straight to our room and rest there.

Dad: Its okay, give me some water.

Sister: My tuition fee is still not paid *giving him a puppy eyes*

Dad: Alright, I will pay it tomorrow just let me rest here for today okay? Ase, dont just stand there, come here.

Me: * I went near but not that close, and i sitted to a chair that is opposite to him*

Dad: Why are you there? come sit next to papa.

Me: Its okay dad, I'll just sit hear * then smile a bit*

Dad: Here, I got something for you * hands over*

Me: Thanks dad, let me just go back to my room so that you can rest quietly dad. Rest well * then leave*

A few weeks past, while I was walking outside our house to get some fresh air I saw my bestfriend Mia. So I called her

Me: Mia * saying it with a waving my hand*

Mia: *she looked at me with disgust* Ase whats up?

Me: you are disgusted to me right?

"she was a bit shock when I said it"

Mia: who told you that? of course not! * then looks at me with a pityful eyes*

Me: PLEASEE, stop pretending I already know the truth. Blake said it to glyde and.... *she suddenly interrupted*

Mia: Fine....Your right, I was disgusted to you and I hate you because you are....you have all the things that I want *tear fell from her eyes*

You know what, I have a big grudge to you. And blake and I are not even on a relationship, I just came up with that idea to play with your feelings. You and glyde are in a relationship for about 2 and a half years and that half years we are also in a relationship.

* wipe her eyes then smirk* I am also the one who push you in the pool, who messed your bag, and the one who always rip your outputs. I did all of those things because I am jealous to you, you always laugh and so nice. Its like your living like a princess and...

*I interrupted*

Me: (laugh crazily) I thought you understand my feelings because we grew up together. I also shared my secrets and all my grudges to you and yet you are just thinking about yourself (laugh a bit). Now that I knew all the things that I wanted, please let's end friendship here. Hope that you and glyde can stay longer.Goodbye

And that's was really the last day we talked, I thought that she will find me and say sorry to me but No. I had a mental breakdown again and what I did is that, I drink the one bottle of bleach in our house and outcome is I vomitted a lot till it becomes blood. My lip turned white and I felt dizzy then pass out.

Because of anxiety and depression I had phobias called...

ALGOPHOBIA- fear of pain

HAPHEPHOBIA- fear of touch

ILLYNGOPHOBIA- fear of vertigo

AMAXOPHOBIA- fear of travelling

AUTOPHOBIA- fear of being alone

and lastly CLAUSTROPHOBIA- from a anxiety disorder.

With this Phobias I still manage to run away from home, even if I knew that I have a amaxophobia. I tried to run away 4 times but I didn't succeed but on my 5th run away from home, I succeeded. There was a sign of relief in my heart that shed me into tears. I felt overwhelmed and there was this feeling that I couldn't explain. But that was just for a minute, a man sitted beside me his face was covered and pointed something on me that made me shiver and couldn't speak ......

(See you on the next chapter ♡)

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