Episode 1

I've always dreamed about how having a true love would feel, but it was never a possible thing for me. Despite being born in a wealthy family, I was not pretty or even close to that word. In simple I was the ugly duckling of the family. No matter how many things I've done to make my parents happy, I always felt that I was their biggest disappointment. To make matters worse I was an only child, so I didn't have anyone to talk to about what I truly felt. I always pretended that everything was okay when it was not. I was being bullied a lot in school because of my ugliness, but I always used my family name and power to scare them away. I am a coward and I knew that.

The only thing I wished to have in life was someone who'll love me for who I am despite how I look, but that felt impossible too because I wasn't the greatest person when talking with other people. I always told mean stuff to people and have hurt countless of people through my words. So, how will anyone know my true self? Simple, they won't.

"If only I was pretty.." I keep telling myself every night. What right did I have to love myself anyway? I mean there was absolutely nothing about me that I loved so how can I expect anyone to love me for who I am?

I used to believe in Christmas miracles for the longest time. Thought that someday a prince on a white horse would come to take me away but I was wrong. Those fairy tales on wishing on a shooting star and Christmas miracles were all fake. It wasn't like one day I'd wake up and find myself pretty all of a sudden and it's not like a guy would come upto me and be like," Venessa! I love you! I want to spend my whole life with you!" I swear if someone ever did say such a thing to me, I would have laughed out loud. There was no way someone would say such a thing to me.

Christmas was coming up and like always, I'll be going out on my own and will celebrate Christmas alone. I mean it's not like my parents are ever home and they know that I won't get into trouble as well, so I'll be renting a house alone for the season and live a bit on my own for a while. I know it's a weird thing to do on Christmas but that's what I do. It's not like I have someone to spend Christmas with anyway.

Every Christmas, since I have no one to spend it with, I always dress myself as Ms Santa Claus and go surprise as much as orphans as I can. Of course my parents don't know about this and they think that I spend thousands of dollars on myself on Christmas, so I have never really gotten a Christmas present from anyone since the day I started doing this. Anyway it doesn't matter because the biggest gift that I get every Christmas is the joy and happiness that many children get because of me.

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