Prologue

 Icouldn't open my eyes. I can't remember what happened to me what happened to me but there's searing pain all over my body. As if liquid fire is flowing in my veins.

I tried to think. What had happened to me? images of faces flooded my mind. my friends ,my family ,my love. Love?

  Now I remember, the boy I thought I loved had took me for hiking .But he drugged me .I could hear , and see everything around me but could do nothing . I couldn't even cry for help not that there was someone who could help me around there.

He dragged me to cliff I pleaded with my eyes. He laughed and said " you should n't have trust me Karen. " And he pushed me down.

I wanted to scream 'why did you do this to me '.Then I hit my head against something and everything went black with a burst of pain.

It's so unfair. I'm only 15 .I have so many dreams .And I'm dead already or am I? I always thought that after death there won't be any pain. But the exact opposite is happening there is nothing but pain.

I can hear something. It's not clear though. I opened my eyes, everything is white. Where am I? What is happening! I heard someone speaking in a whisper beside me. Then my eyelids got heavy and I slipped into darkness.. again...

There was nothing to do except think. So I did ; about my whole stupid life.

I was a good student , a nerd to be exact. I lived trying desperately to make others happy that I was rarely happy.

I suppose I was happy when I was really young like 4 or 5 but then my brother came. I got no attention or affection. People were like 'you are grown girl now, you should take care of yourself and your brother ' And I was like 'OK I'll do everything by myself 'and like 'wow I'm a big girl ' and so on for the first few weeks.

But then I realized that it sucks. I had to do my works on my own when all my classmates received help. I had to work twice as hard to be the best.

Then to make everything a 100 times worse my grandpa passed away.He was the only one who understood me. He could tell when I was in pain even if I had a smile plastered on my face. He was and is the most wonderful person I have met in my life. When he left me I didn't cry but my heart was torn apart. Nobody understood that . They said I was heartless.

That's when I realized that me and my family are like opposite poles.

I had no friends at school back. I wasn't much of a looker I was below average in terms of looks to be exact . I was that weirdo in the class. Someone who knew things most didn't. Someone who spends her time with a book.

Making friends with me meant being as far as you can from popular group . But they came to me when they need a hand on studies and stuff.

I actually started to make friends when I was in 4th grade or something. But I had drifted further away from my family.

I acted different in front of different people realizing that people like their type of person. But I couldn't be myself cuz deep inside I was a tomboy, a punk , a not so self-conscious girl and everyone likes sweet natured , cute and mature girls. It was driving me nuts.

That's when I got my golden opportunity. When I was in 5th grade I wrote a test and got admitted to a new school where you had to live in a hostel.

That was my ticket to freedom. I finally got to be the girl I was and make friends who liked me for who I am.

I got to enjoy almost 5 years . That's when he, Frank proposed to me. I thought it was a joke at first. But then I agreed. That must've been the worst mistake I made in my life. I took it for a serious relationship while he was going to kill me.

That totally sums it up. All I can say is **MY LIFE SUCKS** !

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