It's been only 4 days. But as time goes by I'm realizing that everything is changing
I don't know if I should be happy about it or sad
Now I'm all alone here. I had my sis before. We were quite close to each other
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I used to love making friends, but it's been almost 1 year I don't talk to people much. Because I'm tired of acting sweet and nice
And I got admission in a new school because I wanted to run away from reality. I was hurt back then
I came to a new school and I was trying to start everything over again.
but I kept acting in front of people, It became a habit of mine so I couldn't quit it.
I kept smiling as always. And I was known for my smile. That's the reason people like me so easily.
But I was empty inside, as time passes by I started getting sick even if I'm a little sad
My life changed a lot after coming to the new school.
I didn't make any friends there and I was avoiding people who wanted to talk to me
I had my sis and old classmate in senior class. I used to eat my lunch and sit with them
I was okay with it. But soon I felt like I shouldn't bother them anymore and stopped hanging out with them
I've started enjoying my own company.
Yeah I feel lonely sometimes but I prefer to stay alone
I felt pretty good after returning home in the afternoon and lying in my bed.
I was okay with my life and I thought I can handle my own problems
I had my sis. We used to share our thoughts, clothes and things. she was my only friend
..
then..
I had to quit my room. And it was given to my sis and her husband
I wasn't happy about it but I'm okay with it
even though my room is my only peaceful place to me. and it's hard to live in another room.
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today... I felt abandoned and neglected in my own home
Back then I wanted to run away from school and people but I want to run away from my own home now
It doesn't feel home anymore. home isn't a place.. it's a feeling
I feel like I'm a beautiful living showpiece or something
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It hurts when you realize you aren't as important to your loved ones as you thought you were
I found myself dumbfounded and alone
It hurts.. I can't deny
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2025 isn't going to be easy for me. Maybe it's going to be the hardest year of my life. I have to make decisions by myself and if I'm wrong I have to take responsibility for it
I'm scared and alone like a kitten wet in the rain..
Damn........., you were CLEARLY NOT BOTHERING them! They just LIKED YOU A LOT, that's why they always sat beside you. Who TF talks & sits with someone if they don't even like that person? It's COMPLETELY obvious! Stop having these thoughts cutie pie, everyone loves you that's why they take care of you like that!
2025-01-19
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♡🂡⃟ ♡Zåñ*¥🂡⃟ ♡♡
Aww, that's so sweet! That's a really amazing thing dear! I actually don't really act in front of people, i just be myself that's why people in real life don't like me much. They just think that I'm too "Grumpy & Crabby".
2025-01-19
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♡🂡⃟ ♡Zåñ*¥🂡⃟ ♡♡
So, you were an extrovert before, & now you're an ambivert? 🧐 Wow that's awesome, uff girl why are you sad about such a dumb thing? It happens to mostly everyone (except some people) I'm like that too! Stop being sad about it. 😁
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♡🂡⃟ ♡Zåñ*¥🂡⃟ ♡♡
Damn........., you were CLEARLY NOT BOTHERING them! They just LIKED YOU A LOT, that's why they always sat beside you. Who TF talks & sits with someone if they don't even like that person? It's COMPLETELY obvious! Stop having these thoughts cutie pie, everyone loves you that's why they take care of you like that!
2025-01-19
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♡🂡⃟ ♡Zåñ*¥🂡⃟ ♡♡
Aww, that's so sweet! That's a really amazing thing dear! I actually don't really act in front of people, i just be myself that's why people in real life don't like me much. They just think that I'm too "Grumpy & Crabby".
2025-01-19
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♡🂡⃟ ♡Zåñ*¥🂡⃟ ♡♡
So, you were an extrovert before, & now you're an ambivert? 🧐 Wow that's awesome, uff girl why are you sad about such a dumb thing? It happens to mostly everyone (except some people) I'm like that too! Stop being sad about it. 😁
2025-01-19
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