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Everything's gonna be alright

09.11.2024

Saturday

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I'm not feeling well again. I feel like I've lost my everything

maybe I'm just having mood swings now. But it hard to control myself

I'm trying to keep myself clam. But it's really hard

I don't know what should I do now! Should I just die?!

I can't do anything by my own will. But I can die maybe

No, I can't. Dying isn't easy . I need a proper preparation before doing this

I feel like I'm returning to one year ago; the darkest year of my life

the same feeling, the same stress, but it's hurting more this time

I just wanna dieee

I really wanna die

I'm trying to be cheerful as I always do… but I can't

I've no right to stay happy

I've to put an end of this. It's getting more tiring nowadays

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useless thoughts again

I don't know what I'm doing or saying

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Mom.. Dad..

they don't love me anymore

Just why?!

why you blame me always!?!

It wasn't my fault.. I was...

No, you're right!

Everything is my fault

I was careless back then.. I'm immature.. I'm not strong like you...

I couldn't control myself.. I've waste one year of my life...

I don't deserve to be your daughter..

i always do whatever I want.. I never listen to you

But I love them both… I didn't do this because I want them to worry about me

It was because I was hurt… I needed you by my side

they were busy as always…

yeah, I expected too much… It's my fault

I wanna stay with them a little bit more

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no, I've made my decision. I'll do whatever you want

I'll listen to you this time… I'll try my best to be emotionless

even I've left something precious that you may never know

It hurts… But I can do it. because I'm your daughter

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*sigh.. I'm really going crazy

I can't lose my hope

I don't wanna be hopeless

Everything's gonna be alright ~

Everything's gonna be okay ~

It's gonna be a good, good life ~

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Raven

u have the right to be the happiest, cuz u deserve it more than anyone else 😌✨

2025-02-23

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Raven

shh stop saying this, little dove 😔

2025-02-23

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