Maturing Wake up call

Wake up call

You know.. Sometimes i feel unreasonable

I keep expecting a lot from you

I keep expecting you to understand me without talking

I keep expecting from you to logic it out and find what's wrong without asking

I keep expecting from you to see what i see

To feel what i feel

To be excited about the things i am excited about

Then i remember...

I remember we are not in a romantic novel

I remember we are not in a fictional world

It's not fantasy... We are in reality

Things like that doesn't exist

I keep reminding myself, he is a separate full human being

We can't totally synchronize

Understand each other just by a glance or a word

It's all fiction.. Something i'd never get

But it hurts, unintentionally hurt, i hurt myself, you didn't, I hurt myself with expectations of things that could never be, of things that could never happen With a love that's not meant to be, i broke my heart myself, and now i am mourning my expectations and dreams, all these years dreams

I should have guessed it

I should have known it all along

Real relationships are not that way

I lost touch with reality

Now the truth is hard to swallow

It stabbed my heart so badly, it's bleeding

It kept stabbing with no mercy

It took everything from me, it took all my childhood dreams from me

But it's a necessary process to adulthood, it's necessary process for me to mature

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