I Am An Unwanted BAD OMEN

Amaira stood in front of her parents looking down. Everyone was present there in confusion.

Samuel cleared his throat making Amaira look up a little,

Samuel Linton

Amaira is going to marry in this week

He said in his cold voice leaving no room for arguing and dismissed everyone

Amaira went in her small room silently which had nothing just a small vanity and a small single bed. For her the room was colorless just like her fate and soul. She stood in front of the vanity and looked in the mirror. The girl she was seeing in the mirror was looking broken, her eyes, her soul empty. She didn't know how to smile and how can she know when she forgot the meaning of smile

She moved from there to the corner of the room where a window was. She looked out of the window and looked at the moon which was shining brightly and the sky which was dark just like her soul. Her soul was like night, but the only difference was she had no morning in her life to illuminate her dark soul.

Slowly tears started flowing from her eyes, one by one sob started escaping from her mouth. She slipped down and leaned back against the wall, curling her legs And wrapping her arms around them. She cried over her fate, she cried of being unwanted, she cried for her future which she didn't see, she cried because she believed she'll never be happy

Amaira Linton

(No one asked me if I wanted to marry or not. I don't even know who was the man who I was going to marry.)

Millions of thoughts ran in her mind just thinking about her future.

Amaira Linton

What if he is just like them? {teary}

Amaira Linton

what if he too sees me as unwanted

Amaira Linton

will he love me?

Amaira Linton

what if he hates me? {anxious}

Amaira Linton

(I don't know what to expect from this marriage. I was just 19 years old and wanted to study but after college my parents didn't let me continue my studies. They all called me a bad omen and believed everyone that I was a bad omen.)

She slept while crying and overthinking her thoughts

Next morning

She woke up and found her self on the floor. She felt ache on her back but ignored it because she was used to all this. she slowly made her way to the small washroom and did her business.

She went downstairs in the kitchen and started prepare breakfast for everyone. She didn't eat anything before everyone because it was her punishment which she didn't know why they were giving her.

With a heavy heart, She wiped her tears which were flowing. she quickly made breakfast and put it on the dining table in the dinning hall. Everyone entered the room one by one and sat on the chairs.

She silently served them and was about to go in the kitchen when her dad stopped her

Samuel Linton

On your wedding day, don't make this ugly face. I don't want anyone to think that you are not happy

He said that making her heart hurt.

Amaira Linton

{nods}

She just nodded her head and went back in the kitchen.

She pressed her lips tightly in a thin line and closed her eyes, trying to suppress cries. She heard her dad's voice

Samuel Linton

It's just a business deal not a real wedding. They just want a simple wedding ceremony and a grand reception

He was talking slowly, but Amaira heard him.

Amaira Linton

(Just a business deal.)

At nighttime

She Went back in her room once everyone ate dinner. She was in no mood so She skipped dinner. She locked the door of the room and sat on her bed, after taking her diary out of the drawer.

She opened the empty page of her diary and looked at it. Slowly, her tears started flowing again from her eyes once she started writing.

The girl is slowly breaking The girl is slowly dying. Yet no one sees. The girl is slowly fading. Yet no one notices. Dear diary, They are now finally getting rid of that a bad omen. No more burden they will have. Life Is so amazing right? This is what everyone says. Wrong. They all are wrong they don't know life is not amazing. It's difficult and full of twists which makes every person a mess. My life is also a mess. I am a bad mess, a bad omen, a burden, an UNWANTED, an Empty soul and much more. The people who say life is beautiful then they haven't seen the real life, a life which is cruel and has cruel people. I am going to marry someone. What if he is just like them? What if he is worse than them? Tell me will he give the love which I ask in my every prayer from god? I just want love nothing more. Tell me should I keep this hope that he will not be like them? Tell me should I forget this all and start a new life with a hope of being loved? Tell me?

She couldn't keep herself together more so she closed the diary and put it under her pillow.she put her head on the pillow and slept after crying her heart out.

EZRA (Author)

ba-bye lovelies

EZRA (Author)

Next update will be on 6 March