1. First Life- JaeChan and Aera

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You're hopeless!!

Are you even my son??

Go and die!!!

You really are son of a bitch!!

Your mom did so much and now you?!

I hate you!!

Kim Jaechan, you fucking creature!

Go die!!

You don't deserve me!!

I regret on wasting my time on you!!

Go die, go die, go die, go die.........

Mom only if you were here.

There would be at least someone, who would take care of me and love me.

Why is my fate playing with me?

Why am the one, who is always abandoned?

Why am I the one, who is always thrown away?

You told me that, there is a purpose every person is born for....is this the purpose I'm born for?? To suffer, to get hatred, to feel pain, to be shattered, to be all alone??

Why?? Why it's all the time me??

My life, itself is a trauma....

But I kept my promises, mom...

I kept my promises, never to give up, never to loose hope, I never let my pain hold me back but now....

I'm over, I can't take it anymore..

I miss you.

You were the only one who loved me, who understood me,

If no-one cares about me, what's the point of living??

I'm exhausted of living this soulless life.

My smile that you loved is no more...

It's now hold back by the webs of lies and loneliness.....

Everyone whom I care and love, leaves me all alone, leaves me broken and leaves me crying.

Even you mom, you left me, that small boy, you left him all alone crying on the rain, waiting for his mom to wake up but she never did. All alone, you left me far away...very far away.

But now, don't worry mom,

I'm coming to you mom...

Wait a bit more...

I'm sorry...

Sorry mom!!

Single tear rolling down my face, paving it's way to be followed by the stream that begged me to let it flow..

My mind was filled with hatred not for others but for myself...

Why was I this way??

Why was I made this way to be hated??

Everyone who made me smile results to be the reason behind my most ugliest frown....

I don't have any reason to hold on, to live on anymore....

With the thought of the girl, I loved the most, the one who loved me the most, my mom, the most beautiful girl I ever saw, thinking about her, a guilty smile found its way to my face.

The most sorrowful tear left my eyes, and landed down the basement, I was six feet above. I close my eyes....and felt the chill air around me, trying to feel back all my past sorrows, and putting away all my frown, I smiled a beautiful smile, that my mom loves for the one last time, I took a step forward and felt my body being pulled down by the gravity and my soul being pulled up by my greed to die.....

Just some more seconds and I'm freed.

I'll be away, very far away not putting any burden on anyone....

But then suddenly I felt something and nothing, and I went black...........

Sorry, mom!!

I'm coming to you!!

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