What's the point of having friends?

Oh yeah, hi readers.. I know no one wants to read this. So I just let it be. This is stupid novel after all.

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...Now the topic is about what's the point of having friends....

Friends are important.. Everyone wants to have as many friends as possible. But don't you ever think that having many friends is a pain in the ***?

Think about it..if you have many friends, you don't feel lonely anymore.. you get to hang out every day.. Many good memories.. But what about the bad things?

..."GET BETRAYED, GET STABBED FROM BEHIND, TALKING BAD, MANIPULATE, USING PEOPLE."...

This is stupid, everything is stupid. This damn world.

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...My conversation between my heart and my brain...

My brain : I hate this world

My heart : why?

My brain : this world isn't fair at all!

My heart : what do you mean? Don't you see, many people are happy to be living in this world? Having friends at school, getting to know many people.

My brain : what about it? If I have many friends, I have to pretend to be someone else in front of them to make them feel satisfied. And I hate it. They will complain every time I act like myself. They will say...

"You don't act like before"

My heart : that's not true

My brain : it's true. You can't blame me if I already hate this world.. Humans in this world are selfish. I am no exception... I'm the same that makes things hard.

My heart : not everyone likes that, you can't blame everything on this world, and what's the point of humans? They act diff way, there are people who love the way you are, there are people who don't know who you truly are. Just give it some more positive thought. No one is perfect.

"You are just scared, you are just a Coward who blames everything."

My brain : don't act like you know me! You are weak! Too kind for everything! You forgive everyone that talks bad about you every Single day and just say "it's ok" every time. I'm trying to protect you, and you defend them more than you defend me?! It is my duty to protect you and tell you the truth-

My heart : you are wrong. I'm not weak, but I'm not strong either. You are right, I forgive them even tho I sometimes get hurt by my friend's actions towards me. I'm feeling very disappointed towards them, but that doesn't mean I have my right to get angry at them or yell at them. It is also my duty to make things as simple and positive as possible. I don't want bcs of me you start to OVT. I protect you from evil though.

"Don't suffer alone. You must know that I'm always here for you. I'll tell you in case you already forgot."

My brain : you are right. I'm scared.. Why I'm feeling more scared than you? You have suffered enough trying to hold back your tears and here I am making everything worse for you. I thought this would be the best for you, I thought having a friend would be a bad thing. I always thought..

"don't trust them"

"they are just using you"

"they forgot about you"

"they didn't care about you"

"don't get your hopes up"

I'm scared to the point I hate having friends. I'm scared of getting hurt and feeling betrayed.

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