Chapter 1

'Life is full of surprises I guess.  No one knows what will happen next. It's so unpredictable. One moment you are happy and the next moment something happens. If Our childhood and adulthood were the same then it would be our happiest life. But the older we grow the harder our life becomes. It's so much suffocating. In the process of growing, we lost our closest friends and family members. It's not we do that intentionally, it's just happened somehow. Day by day our closest person becomes a stranger. And it's hard to accept.  But we can't do anything. We can just observe the changes in the past. How can people change so easily?? Is it that easy? I wonder sometimes.  People say life is beautiful.  Is it true? I have my doubts about this topic. What if it's just people's imagination? People are so unpredictable.  We will never fully understand another human being. It's just so complicated. In this universe all people are selfish. I don't know if anyone will ever agree with me or not. But I will always say that. '

Here I go again writing some nonsense in my diary. When I will ever stop. It's already have been a mess. Why I'm making it worse? I need to sleep. What time it is now? OHMYGOD it's already been so late. What am I doing? I should go to bed. I have a class in the morning.  I'm so stupid. why didn't I notice the time? If I'm again gone late the professor will kill me for sure. But I'm not feeling sleepy either. I have to fix this problem or otherwise, I would be done for this semester. Another night passed without sleep.

I'm dumb. I don't even tell you my name. So I'm Sofie Amnar. I'm a university first-year student. I don't have any friends. I'm kinda of introverted. When I get close to someone they understand how I am. Introverted people suffer too much don't you think!!

 I don't talk much with my family. I'm currently living in my grandpa's house on the other hand my house alone. It's the only gift I ever received from my grandpa. And it's the best gift I ever received. This house is so peaceful and secure. It also has a little garden on the balcony. And my favourite place to spend. In my little garden, I have so many flowers. Rose, spider lily, sunflower and many more. I have also my cute baby cat Milo. My one and only friend. She is so adorable.  When I'm not home she will spend her time sleeping.

It's already 6:30 a.m. How time flies so fast! Now I have to get ready for my class. I have 2 hours to do my stuff. I'm feeling hungry now and I am also feeling tired too. I can't sleep now. Sometimes I feel I will be dead soon from these things. On a serious note, I wanna die early. Sometimes my heart feels so heavy that I can't take it anymore. The voice in my head it's so unbearable. Oh no, I'm thinking about this stuff again. Didn't I tell you I'm an overthinking person? And it's also my favourite work.

I am almost done with my work. I have to go now otherwise I will be late for class. My home to uni walking distance like 1:30h. I love to walk and listen to music. Because the whole time, I can think, and make conversation with myself. I don't have friends. I can't trust people anymore. And alone life is so peaceful. I wanna spend my whole life in that way. Or I can just die.

I arrived on time. Directly heading for my classroom, I don't wanna meet people gazing. People are so weird. They loved to gossip about anything.  These people don't care whether they are hurting someone or not. In my opinion, they are just empty shells because they don't have any brains to function.

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