Jeongguk's own person
sounds like heaven to Jeongguk
oh, how much he wants be a momma only his universe knows
No amount of happiness can be compared the day when he becomes one
but almighty might not want to give him that much happiness
why would almighty give you something which you have been yearning since forever? be for fùcking real
Jeongguk is very envious of his sister
no one of them she wanted/wants
Almighty has granted her two babies
Here, Jeongguk wants to have atleast one
but he hasn't gotten his future baby's father yet
life is playing fùcking games with him
Look how everything is against him, even
his own sister hates him too
because Jeongguk is a king and he is unaware of it
He is too pretty to be true!
He is so beautiful
he doesn’t even know
How he lights up everyone's eyes
Whenever they get the chance to see him
It steals their breathe away
Cause he is so stunning
It’s beyond words with an explanation
Which simply his sister lacks! of course, she will be jealous
He had good grades even without attending any cram school
but his sister had to attend cram school for ' extra grades '
yes, luck was never on his side
but his sister got the chance to attend a great university which Jeongguk couldn't
Luck will not stay with talented and deserving people
No matter how much his sister is being selfish or being jealous of him, it doesn't change the fact that she won't be Jeongguk
No matter how much Jeongguk tries
luck will not be on his side either
when you love and care your siblings and they just show their selfishness or their hidden agendas get exposed, yes that's really hurts. And something very common which happens with people like Jeongguk
he just ignores everything
How much Jeongguk has to face only he knows
absolutely no one can understand
He has never really learned to emotionally regulate,
Taking clues from Nickelodeon more than parents who set good examples,
Screaming fights and bruises and broken glass
Too much drinking, the smell of cigarettes.
His Eomma's broken bones due to his appa's beating
Make yourself small, make yourself gone
your appa may not notice you and your sister
they played family a lot, curtaining blankets over a bunk bed to block the outside, and in family, Jeongguk always took care of his babies.
because in reality his appa would beat the sh!t out of his eomma after consuming alcohòl
and he would take care of himself and his sister
Jeongguk never really learned to emotionally regulate, taking clues from the friends around him more than parents who set any example.
A an alcoholic father, or losing his cash cow that was his eomma when she was kicked out from her work place
The smell of Arbor Mist and alcohol still makes him sick,
his father's incoherent fists still make contact in his sleep.
He wouldn’t play anymore. he and his sister was mostly estranged. But they started working. And in family, he always took care of his babies.
Babies?
yes, his Eomma and his sister are like his babies
cause he needed to work for them
he needed to earn for them
he needed to protect them from his father
He needed to protect them from
Of course he played a role of a mother
He is still learning to love himself, please, the sound of yelling still makes him sick,
He dosen't know how to do this.
He is grown now, he is mostly put together. And now he lives. But this is his family, and he will always take care of his babies
heck, he even considers his niece and nephews as his babies
People will not understand him
call him lunatic all yall want
but for him, he only needs his babies
Jeon Ji Hye
No, why would you put makeup? like look at you~ pretty older brother
Lee Ji Yeon
Shut up, let him put makeup. He is going to a date.
Jeon Ji Hye
Do whatever you want Jeon, nobody is going to tolerate your sharp tongue
Jeongguk is staring at the mirror
of course he doesn't want to go to the date with that man
he might marry him and have babies
but Jeongguk is shattered
Lim Yeosin
Samchon, I will put make up for you
Lee Ji Yeon
Yes, apply some more found--
Jeon Jeongguk
Oh, Eomma please, stop this drama
Jeon Ji Hye
Yes, why wasting my makeup products when he will reject the date anywa--
Lee Ji Yeon
Shut up. I know, what you are trying to imply. Stop being jealous
She walks closer to her son before holding his shoulder firmly
Jeongguk is sitting before the mirror
Jeon Ji Hye
Am I being jealous? Me!! He is jealous of me. Cause, I am better than him. I attended one of the great universities- Seoul national university, I got great marks, I have a good job than hi--
Jeon Jeongguk
Then why don't you stop mooching off my money? Oh, cause you are saving it for you and your children's future. No?
Jeon Jeongguk
I have future too
Jeon Ji Hye
Future? yes, first get a good job and a husband then think about it.
It's their every day routine
Neither she will beat the allegation of being jealous or arrogant or selfish nor he will stop considering her as his daughter.
After all being younger always gives a free pass to these people
Lee Ji Yeon
Don't mind her, she is immatur--
Jeon Jeongguk
You know what Eomma? I will go on a date with him and if possible then marry him
Grabbing his bag he leaves the apartment not even bother to check his reflection in mirror
Here, Taehyung is quite excited for this date today
He has worn contact lenses today for the date
cause he is practically blind without glasses
and he wants to look handsome today
He has spent 64640 wons for his contact lenses
It's hella expensive for a man like him
cause he doesn't earn much
He is going on a date after 12 years
of course he would be the happiest bachelor ever
He has shaved and brushed his teeth properly
he has even trimmed the hair in his nose
he has shaved his armp!t as well
oh, boy he is so excited today
he knows, today they might not makè love or else he would have shaved pub!c hair too
he will do that before his f!rst night for sure
His father has already told him atlest 50 times that how much handsome he is
still he didn't believe it
but when he leaves his apartment and who ever glances at him can't help falling in love with him instantly
He is like the outcome of constellations, stars and planets colliding
He is the wild river that keeps flowing
He is what this world needs
Yes, he is the most beautiful art universe has ever created
or some people might become instant poet because of him
People just want to listen from him that he is glorious
wonderful and strong
with his eyes
revealing things
They might shamelessly tell him these lines
" Tell me that you love me
but tell me not
you'll be
with me
and I will be with you
dying
eventually. "
He is pure perfection, He is a God's Gift
To all mankind
Anyone might become lucky enough
to call him all ' mine '
but well, he doesn't care about his own beauty
Finally he has seen Jeongguk
but wait what's that on his head?
Jeon Jeongguk
Why did you tell me to come to an amusement park, it's for babies.
Kim Taehyung
Do I look handsome?
Jeongguk frowns immediately
Clearly Taehyung hasn't expected this reaction from Jeongguk
while he was waiting for Jeongguk
in this amusement park, people started drooling
he doesn't even bother to say a word
Jeon Jeongguk
No, you look better with your glasses
Kim Taehyung
Then how will I kiss you, by the way where is your glasses?
Jeon Jeongguk
my Eomma forced me to buy lenses
Kim Taehyung
And what are you wearing on your head?
Jeongguk nonchalantly replies
Jeon Jeongguk
My niece's hairband
Taehyung wants to kiss the hell out of Jeongguk this instant
How can a grown aśs man be this cute while talking with a pout?
Like God, how can someone be this unbothered about their outer appearance or judgemental people around him?
He is simply wearing a kid's hairband
Kim Taehyung
You don't mind it? Like people are-
Jeon Jeongguk
Watching me, judging me for wearing a little girl's head band or these excessive makeup?
Jeon Jeongguk
They don't feed me. They don't cook for me, they don't earn for me, they don't place food in my or my family members plates.
Jeon Jeongguk
they can say/judge whatever they want but it will not change the fact that they aren't going to do any of that so why care?
Jeon Jeongguk
Plus, I don't know how to apply makeup. My niece did it for me.
He walks towards the ticket counter
Taehyung hasn't thought about that
he has always been concerned about other's opinions
But Jeongguk doesn't care an ounce about other's opinion
Even people used to say that he loves playing the buffoon
no, why would someone like Jeongguk do that?
Do they even know how much he has suffered
He is always being mistreated by his closed ones
Jeon Jeongguk
By the way, you look good today. Did you shave just for today?
Kim Taehyung
Yes! Wah, so you can actually see
Jeon Jeongguk
Yes, I guess the contact lense is good
Taehyung just smiles softly
Taehyung has led Jeongguk to the aquarium, obviously they can't ride those scary rides
After all they are old, no?
Thay are standing at an invisible wall
Staring into the deep blue abyss
As graceful creatures glide by
Jeongguk is breathless.
Kim Taehyung
Sit with me here
and Jeongguk does
Careful not to lean too close
Trying to figure out if it's in Jeongguk's head
Or if Taehyung leaning in a little too
Wherever they are, time isn't
they talk and watch sharks circling by
As people come and go before them
Taehyung gladly sit here all night with Jeongguk
He is not pulled to Jeongguk by the rush of his heartbeat
Although that is distracting too
It's this calm and comfortable essence
The balancing act of their energies
Taehyung wants to hold Jeongguk's hand and
he wants Jeongguk to think he is lovable not handsome or beautiful
Just someone whom can Jeongguk love.
And even if it isn't mutual
Taehyung still wants to be right here with Jeongguk
Jeon Jeongguk
Why are you staring at me like that, I know I am ugly but not the ugliest on earth
Kim Taehyung
And who says you are ugly?
Jeongguk gaze at Taehyung amber eyes before speaking
Jeon Jeongguk
Have you ever loved someone before Taehyung ssi?
Kim Taehyung
Yes, not one but two people
Kim Taehyung
I am not v!rgin
Jeongguk bursts into laughter immediately without covering his face
in Korea it's disrespectful to laugh without covering your face specially for women / omegas
** It's an Omegaverse story so I added omega and women
People are staring at the 40 years old omega who is shamelessly laughing
Jeon Jeongguk
of course you aren't. To be honest I wasn't expecting that you would be v!rgin. Well I am not v!rgin either, will you still consider to marry me?
" It's time to close the aquarium, please leave the area. You can still enjoy the fairies wheel "
Kim Taehyung
Let's go and let us ride the wheel. I will answer you there
They can clearly see the city from the fairies wheel
Kim Taehyung
Yes, I will still want to marry you
Kim Taehyung
I don't know, I ju-- just want to marry you. See, we are too old to go several dates then eventually fall in love and then get married. We have to do all these after wedding.
Kim Taehyung
You know what I mean right?
Jeon Jeongguk
Yes, don't you want to know about my past Taehyung ssi?
Jeongguk gazes at the city beneath his feet
cause he is too close to sky
that's the magic of riding a fairies wheel
Kim Taehyung
No, I will eventually know it anyway
Kim Taehyung
take your time
Jeon Jeongguk
I should give you a warning then
Jeon Jeongguk
because nobody warned me before
Jeon Jeongguk
Nobody warns you about the first boy who tells you he wants to marry you.
nobody warns you about the tangible shift in the universe when he parts his lips to smile.
nobody warns you about the poetry he'll write you or how your knees will weaken or the melancholy hidden between the layers of his laughter.
nobody warns you that miles will morph into lightyears and you will curse the ocean for being the only thing that keeps his fingers from resting between yours.
Jeongguk averts his gaze and starts looking at his fingers
Jeon Jeongguk
Nobody warns you that miles will morph into lightyears and you will curse the ocean for being the only thing that keeps his fingers from resting between yours.
nobody warns you about the day his sweater doesn't smell like him anymore.
nobody warns you that human hands are incapable of holding a person together.
nobody warns you that sometimes love is not enough, no matter how much you wish it was.
Jeon Jeongguk
Nobody warns you about the crippling nostalgia that renders you breathless.
nobody warns you about the nights when silence screams for your blood.
nobody warns you about the crater that forms in your chest in the middle of the night when he doesn't answer.
nobody warns you about how it's going to feel when he tells you he's in love with someone else.
nobody warns you that forever is a lie.
Taehyung has been sitting opposite to Jeongguk
Kim Taehyung
then allow me to mend you
And suddenly
the cosmos has
appeared in his eyes
and Jeongguk is just is the brightest star there
Jeongguk can feel Taehyung's breath fanning on his lips
Under the shelter of the bewitching midnight sky
Jeongguk lies in bed and wait
No colour is there
Only the light from the moon
It seeps through the blinds and the curtains in his room
Sleep waits for his guard to let down
Only problem is he never wants to let anyone down
So, instead he let his thoughts consume him
same thing is happening right now
he doesn't know what to do
No what kind of person Jeongguk wanted to have as his husband?
Some one who he can call his own person.
His own person is healthy and courageous. Someone who is self-aware and emotionally intelligent. He is growth-oriented, resourceful and positive
Someone supportive, thoughtful, kind and empathetic. Someone who is ready to take accountability, communicate and work through things even when the going gets rough.
Someone desires to make Jeongguk happy, chooses him and shows up for only him. He is sure about Jeongguk and healthily obsessed with him. Someone encourages and lifts Jeongguk up when he is at a low point.
Jeongguk's own person does not disappear when he needs him. his own person protects him. His own person knows how to introspect, reflect and has a desire to be better.
Jeongguk's own person does not make him feel small or irrelevant. His own person is a secure place where Jeongguk can feel at home. Jeongguk's own person is expressive. He is a source of light when Jeongguk is in a dark place.
Jeongguk's own person is as sure about him as the sun rises and sets without our asking, with certainty; regardless of the weather, timezone or location.
And all those qualities are present in Taehyung
but Jeongguk certainly can't know these just in day
But he has allowed Taehyung to kiss him
And
they are lost under
an athenian skyline
and for the first time
in forever
they don't want to be found.
Taehyung hasn't gotten bòner today like previous day. But he has decided to marry this man
After kissing Jeongguk he whispers
Kim Taehyung
Let this hymn beneath an ebony sky
Be the breath of angels upon our skin.
A song of scripture and silence
written upon your body and mine.
My head upon your chest every night and your lips upon my mind.
Our breaths swirling like a sacred fragrance
are everything I need to know of love.
Kim Taehyung
Let's get married Jeongguk ssi!
Jeon Jeongguk
You don't know me!
Kim Taehyung
We will know eventually
Jeongguk starts fidgeting with his fingers
Jeon Jeongguk
Fine, but there is a condition
Kim Taehyung
I will not touch you without your consent, there will not be any non-consensual sèx between us
Jeon Jeongguk
How did you know, I was going to tell you this?
He holds Jeongguk's hands and they have a nice dinner
They reach their apartment and Taehyung has come to drop koo to his door
but infront of flat no. 23 there are 3 police standing
Kim Taehyung
Wha-- What happened?
Taehyung is clearly concerned about it but Jeongguk is nonchalant
Jeon Jeongguk
What you about to see Taehyung ssi, after that you won't want to marry me
Jeongguk walks towards their door
There he noticed Jeongguk's drunken sister
Speaking incoherent words
Jeon Jeongguk
What did she do this time?
One of the policemen says
" She has beat the shit out of his senior's wife. Apparently her senior at office and her has a relationship which his wife was unaware of till today "
" Jeongguk ssi, every time your sister hook!ng up with someone and starts a relationship with them this what happens. How many times shall we let her go just because Mingyu ssi is your best friend's husband? "
Jeongguk bows to them and says
Jeon Jeongguk
I will talk to he--
" Why don't you let her marry someone? "
Lee Ji Yeon
And who will marry her? Will you marry her? No? then go away
Jeon Jeongguk
Eomma, please!
" Ajumma really has sharp tongue, if this happens again your daughter will spend one night in custody, and we are not even joking "
Lee Ji Yeon
Are you threatening me, huh?
Jeon Jeongguk
Officers, I will talk to Mingyu-ah. And this won't happen again
" Yes, you have been saying this for last 4 years. Anyway Goodnight "
Taehyung has been observing their conversation even he has noticed neighbors talking sh!ts about Jeongguk and his family
Amidst all Jeongguk has locked his gaze with Taehyung
Jeongguk's doe eyes holding so much pain. He is exhausted, he is tired and wants to give up everything.
And right that moment Taehyung just sprints towards him
without giving him any warning
he just embraces Jeongguk
which causes everyone gasping for air
Kim Taehyung
I promise, from now on you don't have to face these sh!tty situations all alone. I will be with you.
Taehyung whispers near Jeongguk's ear
and Jeongguk closes his eyes, shedding tear silently. Unconsciously he clenches Taehyung's shirt.
And their Journey will begin now
Comments
Ash Smash
this story is giving me hopes 😭😭 maybe I'm just too young for love now
2023-11-05
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Midnight Muse 💫
😌 this is so relaxing.. i remember how my love embraced me saying that he will stay with me forever sharing my worries . that's really really a good lines to hear from someone
2023-07-27
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Midnight Muse 💫
oh wow.. 😍😍😍😍😍😍
2023-07-27
1