Soul mate
Jeon Jeongguk
No, Just tell me- if I ummm can be a momma or not?
Jeongguk is extremely sensitive about one topic
He has always dreamed of becoming a momma
momma of 5 children at least
Everyone is getting married
having children but what about him?
Universe has totally forgotten him
currently facing the biggest fear of his life
for the last 3 months he hasn't had his heat cycle
No, he isn't pregnant because nobody is interested in him and
his single asś is against of having a one night stànd
He wants to carry his babies for every second of their lives,
From the moment they will come into this world, he wants to
hold them close, through every joy and strife,
As his love for them will be continued to unfurl.
He wants to watch them grow, and take their first steps,
And smile as they stumble, but keep going,
For he will know that they are learning, with each rep,
And in their heart, a love for life is growing as well.
As his journey on through the passing years,
his love for them will remain as strong as ever,
His bond of love with his children will never falter or sever.
For he wants to carry his babies through every moment,
And love them with every fiber of his being,
And he will love them for every second,
Until the end of time, and beyond, unceasing.
Yes, that kind of love he wants to experience
not every omega is fascinated with the idea of motherhood but surely Jeongguk does
when he was a kid
A little marshmallow came into his life
A fluff ball, a white kitten
He used to call him marshmallow
then Jeongguk got older and become an adult marshmallow too grew with him
when Jeongguk was 19 and marshmallow 8
marshmallow died
Jeongguk couldn't sleep that night
He still can see marshmallow
wandering around in his room
the little bells attached to a belt which marshmallow used to wear
still make sound
he thinks about marshmallow, he feels
marshmallow's presence every second
Jeongguk's first baby is his marshmallow
And he strongly believes his marshmallow will come to him
they say cats have 9 lives
then why not using a life to become human being
Jeongguk believes his marshmallow will come as his biological son
he will carry his marshmallow in his belly and give birth to him
who thinks that his wish is too childish
fùck the world who thinks a cat's life is as not valuable as a human being
fùck all of them who think a cat cannot be someone's child
Jeongguk is definitely going to name his firstborn marshmallow
his marshmallow's ash is still kept intact in an ash container
he can't let go of his baby
though his baby is always watching him from the sky
Jeongguk has been waiting to hold his marshmallow in his arms again
he has been waiting fùcking 21 years
Not just Marshmallow he hasn't even met Marshmallow's father yet
where will he get spèrm to have his Marshmallow?
he doesn't care about his future husband
who ever it is - he has to be able to give him his Marshmallow
atleast a good looking man
but when you are literally 40 and unmarried
you can't expect a handsome unmarried man who is willing to marry you
every good-looking man is already married with at least 2 children at the age of 40
It's not like Jeongguk didn't want to get married
He had a boyfriend from his college days
they were in a relationship for 16 years !!
and Jeongguk only wanted to marry that man
5 years ago they broke up
His entire world stopped that day
Jeongguk promised himself
that he won’t ever love anyone how he loved that man,
that man lit his days the way the moon does the night,
that man fell into his hands and he fell into that man's and
holding each other—they promised to never let go
And yet Jeongguk fell,
his heart erupted. Broken
Blood gushed over his intestines until he ceased to exist
Except that he did exist,
he felt it all for months,
even now he feels blood leaking through the wounds that will never completely heal
he knows it is selfish, but his anger wants that man to ache for Jeongguk. The way Jeongguk aches for that man.
Only then Jeongguk will be pleased; knowing that his ex truly suffering for all the love he gave and took away.
Jeongguk sometimes compares his love to the sun from mid summer days
He has a bad habit of staring into the sun.
Back then, he could blame his innocence,
maybe ignorance, but
what's his excuse now?
Digging hòle in his soul-that they could have been happier
A perfect fairy tale story
But nah, that man has to break Jeongguk
like every antagonist of story
now Jeongguk has been waiting for a prince to save him
5 fùcking years but there is no sign of his prince
forget prince at least a low level soldier will do
He doesn't want to see a happy Jeongguk
That day when Jeongguk decided to leave his ex-boyfriend
he felt like thousand swords piercing his lungs
Jeongguk loved his ex boyfriend, but he couldn't stay.
Does it count if his ex-boyfriend never came home?
Jeongguk found a safe space in his ex, but reality says Jeongguk has always been alone.
His ex-boyfriend has never been Jeongguk's
in the time Jeongguk been his ex-boyfriend's.
throwing stones at himself
as Jeongguk throws himself at his ex-boyfriend.
So he left his ex-boyfriend that day,
and his ex-boyfriend didn't notice Jeongguk was gone until Jeongguk traveled too far away.
Though his ex-boyfriend wouldn't care.
Jeongguk loved his ex-boyfriend, but his ex-boyfriend never wanted Jeongguk to stay.
No, Jeongguk doesn't want to be a momma just because he desperately wants his marshmallow as his son
yes, it's the main reason but there are actually several reasons behind it
When he was a kid, he used to play with his sister
His sister would be his eldest daughter and there were 6 other dolls
those were his other babies
at least he used to play like that
he had an imaginary husband
whom he used to call baobei
his husband would come home from office, and he would cook meals for them
his sister, who was his eldest daughter in the game would help him cook meals
in the game they would go to amusement park on weekends because in reality neither his father had money nor he wanted to take his children anywhere.
In this game they used to do many things like a real couple do. By the way he didn't know what is sèx back then because he was the naivest baby ever.
Not like babies nowadays who get to know about sèx at the age of 6
and have boyfriend/girlfriend at the age of 8
anyway sometimes he would go to play with his sister to the nearest park and there was an alpha boy who used to play with him.
Sometimes that boy would play as his husband
When Jeongguk was 9 that boy would be 11
that boy lost his mother and his father with his elder brother and elder sister moved to Daegu
Jeongguk hasn't met this boy since then
what was that boy's name again?
Jeongguk has forgotten his name
an insignificant playmate
Anyway he has those toys and dolls kept safely in his room
Jeongguk never had a healthy childhood
and when he was 6 he was sèxually molèsted
not once but several times
but it couldn't snatch his innocence
It is another reason for him to not accept any alpha in his life
and that boy too ruined his life
A prince or a king never came into his life
in real life, there isn't a prince waiting for you somewhere who will come and make your life all flowery or pinkish
Fact, only lucky people get their prince charming
People like Jeongguk who has been struggling with poverty, an abus!ve father, bullying and mòlestation
and finally a motherfùcker boyfriend and motherfùcker best friend
no, they don't get their happiness
and Jeongguk knows it very well
if it wasn't for the extreme love he has for the babies
he wouldn't have wanted to get married either
he doesn't like a man nàked on his bed
fùcking him, or he has to give that man bĺowjob
Nah, that's not Jeongguk's cup of tea but still he did those with his ex-boyfriend
Why?
Because he loved that man.
Which is a miracle
then again he can sacrifice everything just to have a baby
he still gets nightmares of those days when he was mòlested or those days when his class fellows would bully him for being poor, being ugly, being tall, being not so bright student, being fat and simply being him
But being a knight since childhood Jeongguk wins every battle, life has to offer
Jeon Jeongguk
No, you are telling me that I can't be a momm--
Choi Hyun Woo
Wah, hold on Jeongguk ssi. I haven't said you will not become a momma!
I said, you need to lose some weight
see, you are already 40 and around 45 atleast 40% people have their heat cycle ended
Choi Hyun Woo
So, I am saying you have to eat healthier foo--
Jeon Jeongguk
I am a fùcking nutritionist, I know what to eat. That's why I work at one of the expensive schools as a lunch lord
Jeongguk says while clenching his fists
these days he gets too angry
and he blames the weather for it
The doctor visibly rubs his forehead and a sigh escapes from his lips
Hadn't he fallen in one-sided love with Jeongguk, he would have kicked this arrogant patient out of his hospital
Choi Hyun Woo
Listen carefully, your hormones are more or less ok. But you need better lifestyle
change the food habit, stop stressing
do some yoga to maintain a satisfactory weigh--
Jeon Jeongguk
So, you are telling me I am fat, and I should stop dreaming about a baby?
My hormones are ok then why am I not getting my heat cycle? Just tell me you are a failure of a doctor
Many people hate Jeongguk
Because in last 5 years after his break-up he has drastically changed
his words are too poisonous to hear
Choi Hyun Woo
Yes, I know I am a failure as a doctor, but you need to try as well. Just maintain your diet. You are a nutritionist yourself then how can you eat ramyeon, potato chips, pastries and don't even try to deny it because I saw you entering the cake shop a few days ago
The doctor is as frustrated as hell but still trying to maintain his composure for the sake of his ' one sided love ' for Jeongguk
Jeon Jeongguk
So what do you want me to do? I have been working like what? since forever?
Earning for a nagging mother, sister and even her children
paying debts for my dead father and can't even have sweets. No, tell me who would cook healthy for me at home?
My mother? She is too busy counting her miseries every moment and
mourning for her past naive self.
My sister too busy to find sugar daddy and her children are too young to cook
Now, I work my fingers to the bone to provide a home and food for 5 people will come home at night and then cook healthy for himself?
Yes, dream on
Jeongguk states furiously
Choi Hyun Woo
Then you can only dream to have babies
Finally that doctor has said that one sentence which Jeongguk despises the most
He immediately grabs his bag and leaves the hospital
but his anger has more temperature than the sun itself
He is welcomed with a harsh air of mid June
under patches of violet-blue sky, the sun is too happy to burn Jeongguk alive
The tears he has stored finally cascading down his face.
Soothing the sentiments so bleak.
Caressing the inconsolable face
Till the feelings dissipates.
Like a genuine friend
Jeongguk's tear is there till the end.
He wipes his face harshly and enters his room only to find his niece's friend touching his marshmallow's urn
Jeongguk so furious that a slap immediately lands on her face
another slap lands on his own niece's cheek
Jeongguk is not a person who would beat kids
but he can't tolerate people invading in his space
Jeon Jeongguk
How dare you touch my baby's urn?
Jeon Jeongguk
And, Yeosin-ah? How many times do I have to tell you not to bring your friends in my room? huh!?
But nobody can hear his voice as both the girls are crying their heart out
His mother comes running from her room only to witness his son's mad face as he has just slapped his own niece and her friend
Lee Ji Yeon
Ggukie, did you just slap them? What did they even do?
Jeon Jeongguk
This.. this girl Areum was touching my baby's urn. Didn't I tell you not to enter my room? What would have happened if she broke it?
He is chocking back his tears
Lee Ji Yeon
So you will slap your own niece over a cat's ash? Do you even hear yours--
Jeon Jeongguk
Enough, EOMMA! Not my bab--
Lee Ji Yeon
Baby, baby!! Every moment you are daydreaming of a fictional baby where you don't even have a husband. Forget husband, you don't even have a boyfriend
She takes a deep breath before bursting into anger
Lee Ji Yeon
For God's sake you are 40!!
40!!
When will you get married and have children?
Two days ago, you got an excellent proposal, but you rejected hi--
Lee Ji Yeon
So, what? he earns a lot!! A lot. He was even younger than yo--
Jeon Jeongguk
Eomma, listen very carefully
I won't marry an ugly guy. I won't let an ugly man fùck me
Lee Ji Yeon
Ugly? As if you are the most handsome man alive like what was that boy's name from that boy band?
Lim Yeosin
Halmeoni, it's V
His niece has already stopped crying and getting the dose of her daily entertainment along with her friend
Kang Areum
No, halmeoni
it's V
Areum, Yeosin's friend says
Jeon Jeongguk
Who ever, A b c d or V is- I don't care! I will not marry an ugly ma--
Lee Ji Yeon
Then stop dreaming of having a family or a baby cause ain't no way a 40 y/o ugly omega like you can get married to a handsome man
An angry mother has stomped down the room with her grand daughter and her friend
Jeongguk takes a deep breath
he is habituated with his mother's harsh words
but he isn't ok with the fact that all she has just said is reality
he starts caressing his baby's urn
And fishes out marshmallow's picture from his bag
Jeon Jeongguk
Momma misses you a lot.
It's rare for him to touch his baby's pictures cause whenever he touches them he cries a lot. He isn't strong enough to accept the fact that his baby has left him 21 years ago
Taehyung is returning from his work and he notices a cat
this cat waits for him everyday
if anything Taehyung hates
It's a tabby kitten, whenever he sees Taehyung he starts meowing
but the persistent cat sprints towards him
Taehyung starts running towards his home followed by the cat
suddenly he feels that cat has stopped running
Kim Taehyung
Where did it go?
His amber eyes meet a pair of bambi eyes
A man has already scooped that kitty up and patting
Jeon Jeongguk
You are Taehyung ssi?
Jeon Jeongguk
You moved here this week?
Jeon Jeongguk
Hello, I am Jeon Jeongguk. Your neighbor. We live downstairs, flat no. 23
nice too meet you
Jeongguk extends his hand
Taehyung holds his hand instantly feels the roughness of Jeongguk's hands
how on earth an omega can have this much rough hands?
Taehyung has already started wondering
Kim Taehyung
Kim Taehyung
flat no. 36
Jeon Jeongguk
Oh, my eomma wanted to give you this, enjoy -
Jeongguk gives Taehyung a food container containing tteokbokki
Kim Taehyung
Umm, thanks !
He gives Jeongguk an awkward smile
Jeongguk, just nods and starts walking in the front lawn of the apartment carrying this tabby cat
Kim Taehyung
My father must be trying to make me date this man!
Jeon Jeongguk
My mother must be trying to make me date this man!
Both whisper under their breath
Taekook
As if, he would marry me! Nice joke. He is so good-looking to be true
Both appreciate each other at the same time
It would be great if we could know what future has stored for us
it would be great if we could know whom universe has selected for us
It would be great if we could instantly recognize our soul mate
Comments
Ash Smash
oh gawd 😭😭
2023-11-05
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Midnight Muse 💫
yes.. just like an alpha notices his mate.. 🥰🥰🥰🥰
2023-07-27
1
Midnight Muse 💫
should I laugh
. 😶😶😶
2023-07-27
1