chapter 2

“Please Tae, don’t tell him. I don’t want him to live with any sort of guilt because of me. I’ll figure out something to say, but i want it to come from me.” He simply nodded and helped you into bed. A month had passed and your condition naturally worsened, more flowers bloomed within you each day and finally tae decided he was going to take you to the hospital, at least for something to ease your pain. Really you had become used to it, the thorns in your throat didn’t burn the same, and the ache in your chest was just a low dull pain. The wedding was beautiful, and ironically enough they had chosen red roses as their flowers, they were Jungkook’s favorite. Which for you was convenient for coughing into when they said their vows and you stood behind the bridesmaids, Tae staring sadly at you from his spot behind Jungkook the whole time. You were happy though, never seeing Jungkook as filled with joy and pride as he was that day. You danced and drank and lived the day to the fullest, Jungkook had even shared a dance with you. You smiled to yourself, your very last dance together. That was two weeks ago. Now you were laid up in a bed, nurses would come by to check in on you and adjust the medication or bring you small things of food to eat. Tae had visited every day, and each time would ask if you had yet to say anything to Jungkook. You knew he thought you were being selfish and maybe you were, but this was about you and no one else. Tae kissed your forehead and mumbled something under his breath before leaving for the day.

The next morning you were woken up by loud voices outside your door, your nurse could be heard talking to a man outside. You were too fatigued to move from the bed, but the figure bursting through the door made your heart nearly stop. Jungkook. Why why was he here how did he know? Your mind was racing and your couldn’t stop a tear from rolling down your cheek. His eyes were wide and frantic as he kept looking from all the medical equipment and back to you. He moved closer and you could see the dark circles under his eyes, “ Y/n... why? Why didn’t you tell me?” his voice cracked as he reached to hold your hand. You simply gave him a small smile, “because I didn’t want you to worry about me Kookie, you had a whole wedding and honeymoon to plan. I didn’t want to pull you away from all of that and have poor Mai to do it by herself.” He scoffed, “You’re my best friend, you’re supposed to tell me everything, we share everything, we,” he choked on a sob, “it’s just, I don’t want to lose you.” You bit your lip, holding back the tears forming in your eyes, “I’m sorry Kookie,” he shot up from beside you to look at the x-ray hanging on the wall. Clear as day, vines and thorns weaved themselves around inside you and a very dense bloom of flowers nested itself above your heart. He looked back at you with his now puffy face, “Who the hell is he,” his voice was harsh and you frowned, “It’s not important Jungkook, I’m the one choosing to not have the surgery.” He ran his hands through his hair, “I don’t understand, why let this kill you?! Whoever he is I promise you he’s not worth this. You can start over after the surgery I can help you recover and we can” you held up your hand to cut him off, “No Kookie that’s not what I want. I don’t want a surgery that will remove all of the happy memories I have with him, that’s not how I want to live my life. Losing that would be like losing half of myself, and I don’t want to live the rest of my life not knowing why I feel like I’m missing something.” He sniffled and sat in the chair beside your bed,

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