What's Up With My Idol

I hate myself

😡 again!

an other proposal! what the hell up with my parents!

😑 They were the one who told me, don't start a relationship while studying..... and now they are busy with finding a partner for me!

🤔 it's true no one court me either yet 🤦‍♀️ but it's not my fault being a student of a girl's college! 💁‍♀️ I'm just little chubby, but still cute! eh, I guess! 🙂

😒 indeed there's no need for them to bring proposal from a someone 12 years older than me!

👉 "I mean age gap of 4, 5 years ok! but 12.... damn 12 years? 😳" 👈 this what my friends ask back me when I discuss my situation with them!

Here I go again.... 💔 an other sleep less night full with pain, confusion and disappointment!

😢 it's been 25 years. I'm still no one. just a girl glued with manga, K pop idols and daydreams!

"+" 😎 the president of NO JOB company!

Never had a boyfriend yet while some of my friends having boyfriends than the count of bras I'm owning by myself! 🙄 Many them cheat with many boys but at the end they found the perfect match! but me, thinking always of being loyal, lovable and respectful to my future boyfriend, but still never met that superhero 🙃 maybe he's not exist in this world! maybe not born yet or die already? 😶 or maybe in Mars or Jupiter or another planet that I don't even know the name?

okay! I know I'm not good at astronomy 😖

aish! " I HATE MYSELF!"

I was one of the most talented student at school when I was 16 y.o. but now....... what happened to me... my laziness hunted me or am I really unlucky....?

it can't say I was inactive, I tried so hard to become successful 😔 but, I failed and failed... after many trials I gave up. maybe it's not my fault but my fault!

🤕 I always think everything will become successful if I choosed an other field, but 😪 I can't guarantee changing path will change my destiny... maybe I was born to be a no one and a loser... that why i failed every time and finally gave up. so, is it fair that I'm become jealous with successful people easily?

NOOOOOOO! i don't want 😭 what is this! what happened with me... not only a looser and a unlucky girl.. but also a jealousy ***! and someone become angry easily cause of failing life... No No No! don't be so! I don't wanna become a cruel and bad guy from stories... no 😭 I don't want this!

"I HATE ME, I HATE ME, I HATE ME! 😭"

please bad, don't come to me! leave me!

🙏 wish if I could travel back to the past like in many mangas/manhuwas/comics...

I'll change every mistake I've done... 😥

I'll become more effective and work hard like my idol.

but,

😪 I know...... that will never happen!

*as usual... I felt a sleep again thinking this facts never come true....

yes! this two thing that I always wanted to come true magically but I know that will never become true!

travel through time to the past

meet jungkook for real 😍

forever dreams forever ever 💔😢