BTS: Where I First Fell In Love (Vminkook)
Let Go!
Namjoon knocked on Tae’s bedroom door
Kim Namjoon
Tae, baby.. come out.. we need to talk
Namjoon said it as softly as possible
He waited for the door to be opened
After few seconds, there was a click from the inside and soon enough the door was flung opened by Tae
Tae walked out keeping his expressionless posture
Kim Taehyung
What is it hyung?
Kim Namjoon
We need to talk about this..
Namjoon pointed at the wedding invitation
Kim Taehyung
Talk about it, what?
Kim Namjoon
When did you find about it?
Kim Taehyung
Just now.. it was placed on my doormat
Kim Namjoon
Uhm.. I don’t know what to say.. this is happening so sudden..
Kim Taehyung
There is nothing to say hyung..
Kim Taehyung
It’s their life
Kim Taehyung
I don’t know why you are giving it so much attention
Kim Namjoon
It’s just.. I tried.. I tried
Kim Taehyung
You knew about this?
Namjoon’s eyes were back on Tae, searching for any expression.. sadly, Kim Taehyung was the master of duality.. so cunning for his own self..
What happened to this actor? He was such a happy lad few years ago.. he was the light of their lives and now he barely has a life with him..
This breaks Namjoon’s heart
Kim Namjoon
I got their invitation yesterday morning
Tae’s eyes dilated.. he wasn’t sure of how to react on it
Tae said it like a whisper
Kim Taehyung
Well good for them..
Kim Taehyung
It’s a good news
His words sounded as meaningless as his life
Kim Namjoon
They shouldn’t have sent you an invitation
Kim Namjoon
Knowing all too well what happened in the past
Kim Namjoon
This is just so rude.. I didn’t expect this from Jimin and jungkook
Tae lowly growled.. it was more like a whisper
Kim Taehyung
Don’t speak of their names
His voice was threatening though
He looked at Tae sympathetically
Kim Namjoon
You should move on Tae
Kim Namjoon
It’s been so many years.. you have hurt yourself..
Kim Namjoon
I don’t even recognise you anymore
Kim Namjoon
It’s enough now
Tae scoffed although deep down he hated being such a burden on his hyung.. Namjoon has always been so close to him.. the elder would always worry about him.. it was a surprise that unlike others, Namjoon stayed by his side all through these years
Kim Taehyung
You’re talking too much
Kim Taehyung
I need to rest hyung
Namjoon’s eyes softened.. not minding Tae’s words
Kim Namjoon
Let it go tae
Namjoon was about to say something more when Tae cut in between
Each word came out slow and firm.. but had no power in it
Because Tae’s dimly lit eyes were enough to tell.. he has never overcome
Heck, he is leaving a life that proofs he has never overcome
Kim Taehyung
I am sleepy..
Tae said nothing more just marched in his room..
A loud thud noise was heard.. Namjoon stared blankly at the floor
Tae on the other hand.. closed the door.. and felt himself weak.. his back hit the door and he slid down on the floor
Tae hugged his knees as he chewed on his thumbnail.
Tae stared at the night sky while sitting near his door.. he can’t exactly pin point to what emotions he is feeling.. there is so much more and there is still nothing left in his life.. this whole life seems a plain travel while on the other hand he wished for so many things once upon a time and now he doesn’t want anything
He heard footsteps nearing his door.. he can already imagine Namjoon placing a hand on the door and gently caressing it as if Tae will receive it
He heard Namjoon say softly..
And within a minute.. he heard his main door closed
Tae sat there on the floor.. listening to his heart beat..
Stupid heart, still knows how to beat.. stupid, stupid, stupid, that’s what it is.. his heart
He wants to get rid of this emotions.. if it was any other day, then things would have been fine.. he would have been in control.. but tonight seems to really be the difficult one
Stupid heart, stop it.. I don’t want to feel it, Tae thought to himself
Stop please, his inner voice now sounded desperate
Giving up on his heart, Tae stood up and opened his bedroom door again
His eyes trailed in the dimly lit living room..
And it landed on the invitation card that was neatly kept on the table.. probably by Namjoon..
Tae clenched on to his night shirt hem and walked closer to the card
His feet bare, felt chills against the cold marble floor
He reached near the card and looked at it
A brown paper envelope had a white sealing with two words “For You” written on it.. a little blue flower attached with the seal
Kim Taehyung
Such a classy Jimin
Yes by just the look of it.. Tae can tell this was Jimin’s selection..
Jimin always had a likeness to story telling..
Kim Taehyung
He would always blabber about having the most unique wedding card..
Kim Taehyung
A simple and yet elegant one
Kim Taehyung
Something that defines he is a simple man and yet has a beautiful heart
Heart again?.. stupid.. stupid heart.. Tae gritted his teeth as his eyes threatened to spill the tears he promised to never drop
He in fact forced his own tears to never utter a single word out of his eyes.. because he was a good liar with his mouth..
He trained himself on many restless nights to deceive from his eyes.. he was doing a hella of a good job in the past years, but tonight seems like a real test
Kim Taehyung
You didn’t have to stoop so low jimin.. you’re mocking me
Tae said in a deep croaked voice.. but he will not cry.. never, even when his heart wants to..
Kim Taehyung
I can see your smiling face as you must be preparing this card for me..
Kim Taehyung
Want me to know what I can never have!
Tae took hold of the card.. looked at it for a brief moment and he didn’t know his heart was bleeding by now..
He could clearly hear his heart say.. “let go”
Tae growled to no one in particular.. to his heart, yes indeed
He could hear his heart whisper again..
Tae’s shoulders slumped.. his head hung low.. defeat leaking out of him.. defeat that he only carried within him was flowing out of him like a wind around him.. choking him, suffocating him..
Kim Taehyung
Stupid heart..
This time Tae begged his own heart.. seems like reality was this, that he never let it go
Tae crumbled the envelope in his palms and threw it somewhere in the room..
His eyes then landed on the chocolatey brown card.. words written on it like gold glitters
This was Jimin’s idea too.. this card, Tae can tell it..
The little lights are his way of expressing that love is light.. and he has finally received it
Jimin was always so simple.. so simple.. and yet he had the most extravagant personality.. he showed the world his different sides but his true self was simply simplicity
Kim Taehyung
It’s beautiful.. your name Jimin..
Kim Taehyung
I always wanted to give you away to your lover.. walk the aisle with you as you smile at your lover.. cry with you just a day before your wedding .. I always wanted you to be with your lover
Tae saw at the name below “Park Jimin”
Tae felt his breath hitched.. his throat dry and his breathing carelessly uneven.. his eyes stared at the name “Jeon Jungkook”.. Tae doesn’t know how to let go of that name..
Kim Taehyung
Stop it stupid heart
Tae this time deeply protested with his own heart
He stared again on the name
He watched the name as if it was burning him alive
And it was.. the name “Jeon Jungkook” was indeed burning him into ashes..
Tae gently trailed his index finger on the name “Jeon Jungkook” feeling all the electric sensation that he always had when the younger was around him..
“Jeon Jungkook” makes his heart so stupid
Heart is stupid they say!
Comments
Bestie S
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