stay gold

just leave it. it's good that I was cool and didn't loose my temper.

walking on my way I think about my father.

maybe that old man is asking the maids about me ? hah! what are you even expecting jungkook ! why....would he....

I didn't bring my car. I just wanted to...walk. I'll often do that when I feel lonely. honestly, everyday. not lonely in the way that my hyungs leave me alone. it's just that the reason for my lonelyness is what I can't or don't want to share.

I soon was at the bus stop and fortunately the bus didn't take too long. I board the bus and take the empty seat.

ah! that man ! I must ask v hyung if y/n has a brother .

I was about to text v hyung

no! I can't ! he'll ask me where I met him and I can't lie! just forget it I don't care if she dies or whatever !

I started thinking about her. how she looks when smiles and laughs and how she ran to the store because she misunderstood me for a stalker or something.

"pffftt! what an idiot " I laugh recalling that turtle level sprint she did " ah! it's my stop!"

the bus stop and I got off.

I take out my phone and put on my earphones.

I hummed the music as I walk.

" hummmmmm....mm...mm...mmmmm."

"in a world ..where.you. feel. coooold..."

"you gotta stay gooold.......(baby...)"

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i really like this song

soon I was in front of my home.

I open the door

" welcome, sir"

"Shelly, is dad back?"

"yes sir"

"did he .....?"

"n...no...sir..."

I got angry.

this damn mother f**cker don't even care to ask about his son!

I rushed to my room.

" sir you dinner..."

" I already had it !"

I slammed the door shut and punch on the wall.

I pull my hair but release it soon.

pull yourself together jk.

I walked to my wadrobe and took out my pyjamas and went to take a shower.

um.....dad....mom.....**** !!!

tears fall down my cheeks. I always cried in the shower. the water hide my tears and help me forget that I even cried.

this is my life and guess what, it's gonna be same.

it turn the shower off and wrap the towel around my hip. I exit the bathroom and wear my pyjamas.

before going to bed I pick my phone up.

is she alright ? ugh! dammit

I felt anger rush through me again at the thought of her.

why is this happening again i was alright a before !

I held my head.

*ring ring *

I pick up the call without seeing the caller's name

" hello?" I asked

"jungkook are you alright ?"

" ah, I'm ok Jin hyung, but why ?"

" it's nothing, I just felt something's wrong and got an urge to call you. I felt like something was off. please tell me honestly if anything is wrong"

" ah.....thankyou Jin hyung .... I just...I don't know .... I was all right when I saw y/n earlier . I mean I wasn't angry but she just now flashed in my find for a second and i faw angry af and my head started to hurt. I don't know what's happening hyung."

"jungkook, look, don't worry we are always here for you. don't you dare take sleeping pills imma warn you. drink some warm milk, ok. I know that's there is a reason for you to act this way and Kookie I think it's time for you to tell us about that so we can find out a solution. it hurts us to see you this way and it hurts even more that we can't do anything. so please kook, prepare yourself to tell us everything and get that burden off of you shoulder. ok ?

" hyung, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to hide anything from you guys. I was just...not ready ...but I think that now I'm. thankyou hyung for always being there for me. I love you guys"

" we love you too makne. ah! suga is saying that you'll sleep well tonight don't worry. you know 'he want it, he gets it'"

"suga hyung is with you ? "

" yeah, we were playing video games and when we realised that we played for too long, it was already night. it was too dark so I insisted him on staying, lol"

"haha. then tomorrow I'll come too! "

" of course ! let's all have a night stay tomorrow !"

"that sounds fun! I'll tell jimin and v about it and you tell others"

'' ok I'll . now go sleep and tell us everything tomorrow and drink the milk before you sleep. call me anytime if you can't fall asleep."

" ok hyung. see you tomorrow. good night to you and suga hyung "

" good night to you too kook"

"sleep tight makne " suga said from the bg.

*beep*

Jin hyung is just like that. always knows when someone is at trouble just like a mom. talkin to him just calms me and I can even say the 'mom' word without loosing my temper.

I reach to the side of the bed where my thermal flask was.

ever since I started having anger issues and can't sleep at night I started taking a lot of sleeping pills. when my hyungs found that out they scolded me. Jin hyung ordered Shelly to keep a thermal flask with warm milk near my bed. that helped me a lot with my sleeping issues.

well I have a family and for sure the best of all.

I smile and drink the milk. I place my phone on the side and get inside the sheets.

do I have a mental disorder ? no! don't think about it now! but... should I take a test ? I'll ask the hyungs tomorrow .

I soon fall asleep .

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hey guys ~ I'm really sorry for not updating for a long time. it's not that I didn't have any ideas, I actually do have many ideas and I've planned the story with many twists, it's just that I lost motivation. I really wanted to upload this beautiful story but I felt off. I'll ask you guys for a fovour actually ...... I'll be really motivated of you guys comment down ...haha...sorry if I'm asking for much .... it's just that .... when you guys comment I feel like connected to you guys and I want to somehow tease you with my next chapters and I feel like you really like this .......😅 mm...my exams are also starting from 19th but I'll try my best to upload ..... sorry again guys but I love you !!! and our mochi became 174cm taller !! crossed suga and next is j- hope!! all the best to our jimin !

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