EP 2
After sitting there for don't know how long , Zara finally got herself together and stood up
Zara Rehman/FL
*Took off the frame and calmly took the picture out*
Zara Rehman/FL
*Put frame against wall and looked at the large picture*
Zara Rehman/FL
*Sat down on ground and started tearing it down*
She tore that picture down just like he tore all her dreams
Just like she broke, step by step, minute by minute
Calmly she was also tearing that picture
But in reality she was tearing down that past
She was ripping away those memories
Which gave her nothing but pain
Zara Rehman/FL
*Tore the last piece*
Zara Rehman/FL
*Looked at the picture now shredded into thousands of pieces*
Zara Rehman/FL
How..... similar...
Zara Rehman/FL
*Said softly and got up*
And so, she calmly walked around the house, collecting every single gift, every single thing that held even slightest bit of his memory, of their memory
And after what felt like hours of collecting and piling she finally finished
Zara Rehman/FL
*Arranged them all in 2 separate piles in living room*
Zara Rehman/FL
*Got some cardboard boxes out of storage and sat down beside the piles*
Zara Rehman/FL
*One by one put stuff from one pile in one box and other pile in other box*
Zara Rehman/FL
*After being done, put them beside the door*
Zara Rehman/FL
What will I get out of throwing them? They can very well come in use for some people
Zara Rehman/FL
Or....
(And....)
Zara Rehman/FL
Yeh sab bech kar paisa donate kar don ge, mere in sa buri yaden juren hai, lakin kisi or ke in paison sa madat ho jai ge
(And I'll sell all these and donate the money, though these objects hold bad memories for me, but this money can help someone else)
Zara Rehman/FL
*Smiled softly and walked back to living room*
Zara walked around her whole house, reminiscing old memories but the more she walked the more she realized that no matter how many things she would get rid of, she couldn't erase his traces from this house
Zara Rehman/FL
*Sitting in her balcony and looking at the moon*
Zara Rehman/FL
I can't live here anymore....
Zara Rehman/FL
I need to leave this place...
Zara Rehman/FL
It is suffocating me....
Zara Rehman/FL
*Softly and continued staring at the sky with blank eyes*
Don't know when, but she fell asleep in the same position
It was Fajr time and Azan, the most beautiful sound for Muslims, was coming inside the room from all directions
Zara Rehman/FL
*Eyes slowly opened and laid there listening to Azan and responding in soft tone*
Zara Rehman/FL
Looks like I slept here....
Zara Rehman/FL
*Sighed softly and stood up to go and offer wudu*
And like this Zara offered Namaz and later stayed in prostration state for long long time
Zara Rehman/FL
*Crying softly and praying with all her heart to alleviate all her pain*
Zara Rehman/FL
Beshak tu (Allah) he sabsa behtar sunnain wala or madat karna wala hai
(And without doubt Allah is the best listener and helper)
Zara Rehman/FL
*Said softly and got up from prostration and sat down while continuing to pray*
After half an hour of devoted praying
Zara Rehman/FL
*Got up from prayer mat, folded it and kept it in cupboard*
Zara Rehman/FL
*Sat down and started reciting Quran*
And like this Zara recited Quran for 1 and half hour before finally stopping
Zara Rehman/FL
*Kissed Quran on front and back and placed it in cupboard carefully
She thought to get up and do something, anything, but she didn't have the energy to get up, she was way too mentally drained for doing anything right now
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