EP 1
On the road surrounded by plants and cozy little houses
A car was driving steadily to its destination
And finally they reached the house, at the far end of the street
Hidden between large trees and surrounded by lush greenery
Stepping out the woman looked at the house with so much unspoken emotions
Taking a deep breath she collected her belongings and moved to the door
She got closer and closer
And finally stood at the same place she once stood to say goodbye
She was a woman chasing her dream when she left
She came back escaping the nightmare she suffered
Zara Rehman/FL
*Opened the lock and held the door knob*
Zara Rehman/FL
*Before entering took a deep breath and recited the Dua (supplication) of entering the house*
Zara Rehman/FL
اللهم إني أسألك خيرَ المولج، وخيرَ المخرج، بسم الله ولجنا، وبسم الله خرجنا، وعلى الله ربنا توكلنا
(O Allah, I ask You for the best entrance and the best exit. In the Name of Allah we enter, in the Name of Allah we leave, and in Allah, our Lord ,do we trust.)
Zara Rehman/FL
*Smiled softly and opened the door, finally stepping in her house*
Zara Rehman/FL
Assalam O Alaikum....
(Peace be upon you...)
Zara Rehman/FL
*Said softly , turned on the lights and looked around*
And like this she took in every single detail of her home, her safe place, the silent witness of her happy, sad, dark and bright days
Zara Rehman/FL
Long time no see....
Zara Rehman/FL
*Mumbled and walked in while lightly tracing the walls*
The walls, which were adorned by so many of her beautiful memories, her milestones and....
Zara Rehman/FL
*Stopped and looked at the picture*
The only picture that once represented her happiest day, now signified the start of that hell
Zara Rehman/FL
*Looked at it emotionlessly*
Zara Rehman/FL
Apna sab kuch tumhara liya qurban kiya....
(I sacrificed my everything for you....)
Zara Rehman/FL
Lakin ek bar bhi reham nahi aya tumhain....
(But you didn't show mercy even once....)
Zara Rehman/FL
Mere zindagi ke sab sa bari ghalti ho tum, or sab sa bara sabak bhi....
(You are the biggest mistake of my life, and also the biggest life lesson....)
Zara Rehman/FL
*Blank eyes scanning the picture*
Zara Rehman/FL
Tum sa nafrat karna bhi bojh lagta hai....
(Even hating you feels like a burden...)
Zara Rehman/FL
Kash Kash tum na milta, to aj mohabbat sa atabar sa uthta mera.....
(How I wish I didn't me you, at least I wouldn't have lost my trust in love...)
Zara Rehman/FL
*Chuckled bitterly and traced finger on their held hands*
Zara Rehman/FL
I don't even know what to feel....
Zara Rehman/FL
Should I hate you? Or should I forgive you?
Zara Rehman/FL
Should I keep hating you and suffer more than you will suffer?
Zara Rehman/FL
Tell me Omar....
Zara Rehman/FL
Why did you do this to me?
Zara Rehman/FL
Why did you turn me.... into this...
Zara Rehman/FL
This woman, who even I can't recognize...
Tears started dripping one by one and soon she was on the ground crying hysterically
Mourning the woman she was
Mourning the love she lost
Wailing at the woman she had become
Wailing for the love she'll never believe again
She cried and cried till she couldn't anymore
Zara Rehman/FL
*Leaning against the wall and staring at the picture in front of her*
Zara Rehman/FL
How happy....
Zara Rehman/FL
How happy I was....
Zara Rehman/FL
*Smiled bitterly*
And so she sat there, staring at the picture
How long? She didn't know
She just sat their like a broken doll, gazing at those faces
Remembering that day and the days that followed
The happiest she had ever been, the luckiest she had ever felt
It all came crashing down
All it took was that one day
Her prince, Her protector, Her love
The person who was supposed to trust her, listen to her, believe her, fight for her
But he didn't , not once did he listen, he just sentenced her to her death
Declared her the sinner of her own sister
Punished her for something she never did
The cautionary tales her grandma told, to never trust someone with your life
Because they will ruin it, shatter it, tear it into pieces you could never fix
Zara Rehman/FL
And I laughed at those....
Zara Rehman/FL
I was naive to think it wouldn't happen to me...
Zara Rehman/FL
I was a fool to think that you wouldn't ruin me, that you would believe me, that you would protect me......
Zara Rehman/FL
How naive....
Zara Rehman/FL
How pathetic...
Laughing at her own foolish self, she drowned in self hatred
A victim, she was a victim
But the hatred at her own foolishness made her more mad at herself than that person who turned her into the lifeless shell she was now
Zara Rehman/FL
*Smiled sadly and closed her eyes leaning against the wall*
Zara Rehman/FL
*Put her hand on her belly and a lone tear escaped*
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