This is my life!
I'm sitting in my room near window, looking at moon. Moon gazing is my favourite thing to do which gives me peace.
While moon gazing let me tell you about myself.
Suparna Mukherjee( FL)
"Hey it's me suparna, I know you guys already know my name."
Suparna Mukherjee( FL)
"A name that means "one who is beautiful," yet it feels like a cruel irony every time someone calls me by it. Beautiful—such a simple, universal word, yet society has twisted it into a narrow, unforgiving standard"
Suparna Mukherjee( FL)
"Instead of seeing the meaning of my name in my eyes, my kindness, or my soul, people reduce me to their judgments: fat, moti, kali, badsurat."
Suparna Mukherjee( FL)
"Labels that took away every ounce of confidence, leaving me to wonder if being myself will ever be enough."
Suparna Mukherjee( FL)
"Why is it that beauty is confined to the fair-skinned, the impossibly skinny, the airbrushed ideals that grace magazine covers? Why does the world worship these illusions while women like me, who are far from those superficial standards, are cast aside as though we are invisible—or worse, unworthy?"
Suparna Mukherjee( FL)
"I’ve lost count of the number of boys who have walked into my home to “see” me, only to leave with the same rehearsed rejection. "
Suparna Mukherjee( FL)
"They tell their families, “She’s not my type,” or “I need someone who looks a certain way,” as if my worth is a product on display for them to critique. "
Suparna Mukherjee( FL)
"I’ve heard whispers about my weight, comments about my dark complexion, and unkind jokes about how I don’t fit the mold of an ideal bride."
Suparna Mukherjee( FL)
"It’s as if my personality, dreams, and heart don’t matter because my body doesn’t conform to what society has dictated as beautiful."
Suparna Mukherjee( FL)
I try to smile through it all, but deep down, every rejection chips away at me. Am I really so flawed because I don’t fit into their definition of beauty?
Suparna Mukherjee( FL)
Why is it that fair and slim girls are celebrated while others like me are dismissed as “nothing”?
Suparna Mukherjee( FL)
It’s exhausting, this constant battle between who I am and who the world expects me to be.
I need to sleep now because Tommorow again a guy is coming to see me . I don't know what will happen or maybe I already know? He'll reject me because of my skin tone and chubby body just like everyone did.
I'm already ready for it.
It's enough for now , join me to see my story .
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Comments
GK
its the reality of our society 🤍😭
I feel like she is saying my thoughts 😭😭
PS: I'm also indian plus size brown girl hearing those comments daily from family neighbour or friends as if this become a habit of my life 😭🤍🙂
2025-02-27
8
Tammy
To be honest... people who say appearance doesn't matter are the biggest liars...It does matter and I too have experienced it.
I was around 72 kg once and people used to taunt me but then I lost some weight and the same people praised me. Now I again gained some weight, it does matter how you look (especially if your parents are looking for a boy for you) and I saw the difference in behaviour.
2025-01-27
17
tara
well in Indian society even slim girls are not so welcomed i have heard comments like kitni patli h , kuch kha le beta and more worse when i was compared with my cousins after dressing up that my cousins look way more pretty than me even sometimes my friends also skinny shame me
2025-03-07
4