episode 4
(scene- Eun-woo's room to Hallway)
Eun-woo
[thoughts]💭
In fact as the eldest in the family, Hwang-in was the only brother everyone could lean on during that painfully difficult period. Despite being only twenty -one at the time our parents passed away, he carried all of us on his shoulder. 😔
He sighed, suddenly a wave of depression washed over him
Eun-woo
💭Shit!! Here I go again, feeling gloomy... Hormones. yeah, lets blame it on hormones.
Eun-woo
💭 I'm eighteen years old and I've never had a girlfriend💑. let alone... all-out s*x (T⌓T)
Eun-woo
💭 I'm still a virgin
(个_个)
I couldn't been like other guys my age go to parties, pick up some random girl, and have a one-night stand. I tried once....but the thought just didn't sit well with me.
Eun-woo
💭Every time I build up the courage, it always ended the same way. A nervous hello, follower by me walking out feeling sick to my stomach.
Eun-woo
💭Why the hell couldn't I just be normal? 😫 why couldn't I like girls and want to do things with them?... why didn't b**bs do anything for me🍒..
Eun-woo
💭 Why did I have to fall in love with Hwang-in ಥ⌣ಥ
My own stepbrother?
why?
like hell I know why..
╥﹏╥
with another sign, like some depressed middle-age man in the middle of midlife crisis, I dragged myself out of bed.
[Eun-woo grabs a pair of jeans, a T-shirt, and underwear, then steps out into the hallway after dressing up.]
In the hallway, Joong appears from his morning run. He is five years older than eun-woo, graduated from university in his twenty-three, and drenched in sweat from his intense workout. His shirt clings to his torso, droplets of sweat tickling down his neck.
Joong
(grinning slightly, wiping sweat from his forehead with his arm)
Morning...Eun-woo. You're up later than usual today...
Eun-woo
(trying not to stare at Joong's drenched shirt)
yeah...I didn't go to bed until really late last night..
Eun-woo
💭I didn't add that I'd been too busy 🍆 masturbating thinking about his older brother, Hwang-in..
Imagining all sorts of filthy, forbidden things...kissing him, touching him, having him touch me back..🤤
Joong
(frowning slightly, but with that usual serious tone)
I know its summer break and all, but it's only your first week on the job right??
Joong
you really don't want to give your employer a bad impression..
Eun-woo
(grumbling, looking away😒)
I won't be late.... I'll ride there as soon as ..i m done showering..🧖🏻♂
Eun-woo
💭 Joong was the perfectionist of the family. He had this innate ability to lecture me 😒..about life and responsibility without even raising his voice🤭
Eun-woo
💭 For him, life was something to be taken seriously every second accounted for ....🙄
Eun-woo
💭😐😑Me?... I wasn't exactly living recklessly... but I wasn't Joong
Eun-woo
(Muttering to himself as i pass Joong toward the bathroom)
I can handle it...
Eun-woo
💭 After all, I couldn't afford to lose this job... I needed money💰💸..I refuse to depend entirely on Hwang-in..
Eun-woo
💭😔He was already spending too much the rent ...The bills, groceries..and six months to feed and Hwang-in made sure none of us ever went without..
The least I could do was contribute even if it was just a little..
author
guys will continue this on the next episode..
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