Austin slumped onto his bed, holding his head in his hands.
"What's wrong with her?" he whispered to himself. "Why can't she just let me live my life?"
Adam's thoughts swirled with frustration and sadness.
"Why does she always do this? Why can't she see I'm trying to make a better life for myself?"
He thought back to his childhood, remembering the countless times his mother's anger had suffocated him.
"Is it because Dad left? Is that why she's so bitter?"
Adam's heart ached for the mother he once knew, the one who had loved and nurtured him.
"What happened to you, Mom? What made you so angry and hurt?"
As he lay there, Austin realized his mother's behavior wasn't about him; it was about her own pain.
"But why take it out on me?" Austin asked the darkness.
Tears streamed down his face as he let out a deep sigh.
"Dear God, please... I'm so tired of being alone. I'm exhausted.... from pretending to be okay...... I'm suffocating under the weight of my loneliness...... I just want someone to hold me, to..to.. tell me everything will be alright. I want someone to love me for who I am. (He cries, his voice cracking with vulnerability) I'm begging you... I don't know how much more of this I can take.......I...falling apart, and only you can show me the way. I have nothing left to hold on to, not even the strength to fulfill this contract......( huh Side smile )
I'm longing for someone I've never even met. It's funny, yet heartbreaking, how deeply I'm missing a stranger who's somehow already taken up space in my heart......" He whispered, his voice barely audible in the dark, small room. Exhausted, he finally drifted off to sleep
NEXT MORNING:
"Austin, get up!" she yelled, banging on his bedroom door. "You're going to be late for university!"
Austin groggily opened his eyes, disoriented and confused. He looked at the clock on his nightstand and saw that it was only 5:30 am.
"Mom, it's too early," he mumbled, trying to roll over and go back to sleep.
But his mother was having none of it. She burst into his room, her face twisted with anger.
"You're always sleeping, Austin!" she shouted. "You're so lazy! You need to get up and get moving!"
Austin slowly sat up in bed, rubbing his eyes. He knew that his mother was drunk in morning, and that she was taking out her frustrations on him.
"Mom, please," he said, trying to reason with her. "Can't we just talk about this later? I'm tired.".
But his mother just laughed, a cold, cruel sound.
"You're tired?" she repeated. "You're tired? You have no idea what tired is, Austin. I'm the one who's tired. I'm the one who's always struggling to make ends meet. You just get to sit around and do nothing!"
Austin felt a stinging sensation in his eyes as tears began to form. He knew that his mother's words were unfair, but they still hurt.
"Mom, that's not true," he said, trying to defend himself.
But his mother just cut him off, her voice rising to a shout.
"Don't lie to me, Austin! You're a lazy, good-for-nothing kid, and you're never going to amount to anything!"
"enough " he shouted abruptly
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"Enough!" he shouted abruptly, his voice echoing off the walls of his small bedroom. "I've had enough of your yelling, enough of your insults, enough of your constant criticism!"
Austin's mother took a step back, her face pale with shock. For a moment, she seemed taken aback by Austin's outburst.
But then, her expression darkened, and she sneered at Austin. "How dare you talk to me like that!" she spat. "I'm your mother, and you'll show some respect!"
Austin couldn't take it anymore. He grabbed his backpack and stuffed it with his belongings, his heart racing with emotion. He didn't care where he went, as long as it was away from his mother's toxic words.
He walked out of the apartment, slamming the door shut behind him. The cold morning air hit him like a slap in the face, but he didn't flinch. He took a deep breath, feeling the foggy air fill his lungs.
Everything was shrouded in a thick mist, and the silence was almost deafening. But somehow, Austin felt at ease in the quietness. It was as if the fog had swallowed up all his worries and troubles, leaving him feeling calm and serene.
He walked for what felt like hours, his feet carrying him through the foggy streets without him even realizing it. He didn't know where he was going, and he didn't care. All he knew was that he had to get away from his mother's poisonous words.
As he walked, the fog began to clear, revealing the city in all its gritty glory. Austin didn't notice, though. He was too lost in his own thoughts, too caught up in the quietness of the morning.
Eventually, he found himself at the edge of the city, staring out at the vast expanse of nothingness beyond. He felt small and insignificant, but in a strange way, that feeling was liberating.
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