The Magic I Was Waiting For
The stranger's word's (Flashback ends )
It's said that panic attacks are so so scary that the person who's experiencing it would do anything that you tell him/ her or anything he hears .... And the voices that were ringing in JUNGKOOK'S mind were enough for him to do as that voice said .,.....
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You are worthless...you are not needed... You are abondoned... you should die ...die...
Young Jungkook
Hah...haaa I sh.. should die .. ....
The voice was asking him to die .. He got up and found a knife ...
Young Jungkook
(* Placed the knife on his left wrist and makes a deep cut * ) Hah ....ha (* Closed his eyes and smiled * ) it's feeling good but it's not enough...it's not enough....
He was a true blood after all ofcourse it was difficult for him to die .. And he can't die this easily not when his wolf is so very desperately trying to heal him . And he knew it well and the voices in his mind knew it too ... they got quit for some seconds but as the body got adapted to the pain in his wrist they started again...
Young Jungkook
(* Got up and went out of the room stumbling... * )
It was raining heavily as if the sky was crying on his misery ....
Young Jungkook
💭I am walking down on this busy road everyone is in a hurry ofcourse they will be its night time and their families might be waiting for them it's raining heavily and my hand is bleeding heavily but I don't feel pain anymore , I want it to end quickly ... If only I was born as someone else or not born at all .... 💭
And thinking this he stood in the middle of the road and soon enough there was a big truck coming towards him ... He looked at the direction of the truck and smiled widely....
Young Jungkook
Finally (* took a deep breath and closed his eyes * )
Just as he was about to get hurt by the truck someone pulled him and he was saved .....
Young Jungkook
(* Snapped open his eyes and look up at the person with anger filled eyes * ) You ..how dare you do that ? ...what if you would've got hurt or died in the process?? (* Glaring* ))
KIM TAEHYUNG/ALTISSIMUS ( ML)
(* Sighs for the nth time * ) Well it's been a month that I sent my parents away .. Now I don't have anything to do (* Staring blankly at the glass wall * )
Tae was laying on his bed lazily staring at the sky outside which was rumbling and the dark clouds were crowding the once clear sky when suddenly he felt a sharp pain in his heart....
KIM TAEHYUNG/ALTISSIMUS ( ML)
Ahh.....shit what's happening....(* Feeling uneasy * )
The pain grew and he was soon feeling suffocated ...he felt as if his heart is being clenched tightly...
KIM TAEHYUNG/ALTISSIMUS ( ML)
💭 Maybe it's because of stress and the thing's that are happening from the past few months 💭 ..... I'll just go out maybe fresh air will make me feel better....
So he took his car and drived away from his mansion...he parked his car near a quit street and decided to walk a bit as the street he was on was a remote area and only few vehicles passed by the road ....
KIM TAEHYUNG/ALTISSIMUS ( ML)
(* Walking down the street * ) 💭 The uneasy feeling just keeps increasing.💭
He was leisurely walking on the foot path when his eyes caught a sight of a boy walking without a umbrella...
KIM TAEHYUNG/ALTISSIMUS ( ML)
💭 He..he isn't walking he is stumbling 💭
Tae found it a bit strange and he thaught thet the boy who was walking ahead from him was probably drunk ...but his eyes widened when he saw his blood stained white shirt ...
KIM TAEHYUNG/ALTISSIMUS ( ML)
💭Fuck ..is he injured 💭
Then the boy suddenly got down from the foot path and started to walk on the road probably trying to cross the road ... But after taking few steps he stopped in the middle of the road when a truck was coming dangerously close to him ....
KIM TAEHYUNG/ALTISSIMUS ( ML)
(* Eyes widened seeing the boy smiling softly looking at the truck coming towards him * ) 💭 Oh...fuck he's trying to suicide. 💭
Tae immediately dropped his umbrella and without thinking twice he ran towards the boy and pulled him away from the street just at right time.....
The thunder and lightening intensified as the truck went away ...
KIM TAEHYUNG/ALTISSIMUS ( ML)
(* The pain subsided a bit * ) 💭 I'm feeling a bit better now but it's still hurtinging ..and this boy here instead of thanking me he's glaring at me ....💭
Young Jungkook
WHY THE HELL DID YOU SAVE ME ? (* Screamed in frustration * )
KIM TAEHYUNG/ALTISSIMUS ( ML)
You should be thankful to me kid.....
Young Jungkook
Thankful my foot it was my decision to die ...I didn't ask you to save me (* Eyes flickering from blue to red * )
KIM TAEHYUNG/ALTISSIMUS ( ML)
💭 True blood alpha 💭 * Smirk * Awww you wished to die ..... or trying to run away? Huh cowardly alpha ?
Young Jungkook
IM NOT A COWARD ....
KIM TAEHYUNG/ALTISSIMUS ( ML)
Yes you are ...look kid I don't know what you're going through but ....think about your parents
Young Jungkook
I don't have parents...I have no one❄️ (* Stated blankly * )
KIM TAEHYUNG/ALTISSIMUS ( ML)
💭 I saw myself in his eyes ..... I have parents but I still live like a orphan ....💭
KIM TAEHYUNG/ALTISSIMUS ( ML)
So what if you're alone you still have yourself...
Young Jungkook
I ...I feel it's us..useless ❄️( * Breathing heavily * )
Saying this he turned around trying to walk away but his vision was blurry and he stumbled and was going to fall when a strong arm got wrapped around his waist preventing him from falling and with a swift motion he was spinned around and he was facing the stranger again .......
Young Jungkook
(* Opened his eyes , staring straight into the older's eyes * ) Leave me you...
KIM TAEHYUNG/ALTISSIMUS ( ML)
Shhh....You know what if you end you're life now no one's going to care .... you're struggles till now would go to waste , don't you want to make them pay for abondoning you ? don't you wanna achieve your goals? Your dreams ....
Young Jungkook
(* Stops moving and Whispers * ) I don't have that much courage left in me .....(* Hangs his head down * )
KIM TAEHYUNG/ALTISSIMUS ( ML)
Chin up kiddo they will kill to see you fall ....They've ruined you ...won't you ruin them too ?
Young Jungkook
S .. should I? (* Looks up again * )
KIM TAEHYUNG/ALTISSIMUS ( ML)
Uh huh ...you have to do it alone , do it broke ,don't let anything take you down , do it for yourself ....For yourself only ....❄️
Young Jungkook
Th..thank you ....
And saying that he finally lost his last bit of consciousness.....and tae took him straight to the hospital got him admitted and left after paying the hospital bills ....
As Jungkook remembered that dreadful night where he almost gave in to his self destructive thaughts his breath became ragged and his vision got blurry.....
JUNGKOOK ( MC)
(* Holds his head and crouched down * ) Fuck ...fuck Haah ha ....
And once again a panick attack hits him unexpectedly and before he realised he was on the floor , gasping for breath...but somehow he got up and found his medicine.....
JUNGKOOK ( MC)
(* Gulped the pill and collapsed on the bed * ) Huff ......why did I get triggered today ?
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I wrote after a whole month I guess .....
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There's still no attention on this story but I got the whole plot planned already and I'll update as much as possible....
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HAPPY NEW YEAR...(belated) ...🎉
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But yeah may this year be one of the best and I hope you'll make the best out of it ....don't think much about the last year if it was bad and remember the good lessons it thaught you and move on ....
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Don't give in to your self destructive thaughts...I know I know it's really very hard to keep living when you're dead from inside but ...fight for yourself for better days ..keep striving keep reading 😇
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