The Magic I Was Waiting For
" THE VIOLENCE IT TOOK TO BECOME THIS GENTLE "
While Taehyung was thinking about Jungkook and the calmness and gentleness he saw in his eyes ... Even though it looked like a facade but it was there .....
JUNGKOOK ( MC)
" No one will ever know the violence it took to become this gentle "
Jk sighed as he removed the accessories from his left hand and softly carressed the scar on his wrist ....
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won't post a pick of a scar guys Can trigger some people sooo .... Imagine there's a big scar on his wrist ...
He smiled softly as he remembered the worst part of his life ... When he was breaking down piece by piece and he was not able to pick those those broken pieces of his life let alone put them back at their place ....
A teenage boy stood in the middle of the hall of his university as some bullies where walking around him in circles... He was taking deep breaths , hands were clenched tightly into a tight fist , eyes were changing from blue to red flickering, his jaw was tightly clenched as he was trying to keep his calm .....
He was getting bullied while the others just stood there and enjoyed the show....
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Bullies 1:- Haha you must be feeling on cloud nine right you bloody orphan... Just because you got first rank in the university you think you're a king ?
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Bully 2 :- You might have cheated you bloody low life .... Even your parents didn't want you ... Hahaha ....
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Bully 3 :- How come you got into this prestigious university??
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Bully 4 :- Might have seduced someone tsk ... Like mother like son .....
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Bully 5 :- He's son of a rich father but his father doesn't acknowledge him ... Just a son of a whore ...
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Bully 3 :- what you know his father ??
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Bully 1 :- Ofcourse one of the orphan from his orphanage was found to be the lost son of mr.jeon and he told me that when they came looking for their lost son they first thaught that this bastard was their son as he resembled his father too much but later it was found that he was indeed mr.jeons son but his mother is not Mrs. Jeon and that he's a illegitimate son of Mr . Jeon and the real son of mr.jeon and Mrs.jeon was found in the same orphanage.
Young Jungkook
(* Shocked * ) Wh.. what? What nonsense are you spouting?
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Bully 1 :- Hahaha... You don't know ? Awwww ...
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(* Claps his hands * ) 👏🏻👏🏻 Haha ... Look at him guys ..he has no idea that his mom was a whore ...haha , your mom gave birth to you so that she can become mrs.jeon by threatening your father but she failed and your father refused to accept you when you were small and even after he found you again he still didn't accept you Hhahaaa .... your mom didn't want you your dad too didn't want you why are you still alive ??
And the last string of his patients snapped his eyes glowed blood red ... And he caught the bully by his neck chocking him by his throat ....
Young Jungkook
I don't talk so you thaught I can't ? I let you beat me so you think I CAN'T?❄️ (* Growls .. holding the bully up by his throat * )
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Bully 1 :- (* Struggling to breath trying to remove his hand * )
His ( Bully ) eyes rolled back due to the lack of oxygen... He was about to die and no one dared to come forward to help him cause no one had a wish to die by the hands of a " TRUE BLOOD ALPHA " afterall . Just when the bully was about to lose his breath Jungkook left him because something snapped in his mind and he realised what he was doing but he didn't show it on his face . The bully fell on the ground with a loud thud as Jk released his grip around his neck ....
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Bully :- (* Coughing and Gasping for breath * )
Young Jungkook
(* Bent down to his level and held his jaw tightly * ) You know why I left you ? Cause you have parents and they might be loving you a lot . They won't be able to see you dead .... ❄️(* Leaves his face with a jerk * )
He then got up and went away without sparing a single glance at anyone ... But his strong demeanour broke as soon as he left the university behind . His face had no emotions but tears were falling from his eyes ...
Young Jungkook
(* Started running while tears Continued to fall from his eyes * )
He was running to avoid the unbearable feeling in his chest ..he was feeling as if someone's clenching his heart with their bare hands ... He ran until he was infront of his small rented room he unlocked the door and went inside ...
Young Jungkook
(* stood infront of the door looking forward at the small room * )
As stared at his room blank he couldn't help but remember the miseries that he went through all his life .... The torture , the constant abuse he had to endure when he was in that orphanage.... The struggle he did to get a job .. To pay for his university fees . The way he ran away from the orphanage when it was getting unbearable for him ... And roamed on the streets hungry and lost .....
He endured it all with a strong heart why ??
Young Jungkook
Why ?? WHYYYYY (* Screamed out * )
Cause he thaught he'll find his parents someday .. He thaught his parents didn't abondon him..they just got separated. His parents might be searching for him ... Of course he was naive to think so .But that's what he was told ... That's what he was made to think .... he worked so hard to survive so that he can find his parents... He resisted the constant urge to die ... But today when he heard that he was unwanted and that his parents knew about his whereabouts but still didn't care shattered his already tired and wounded heart ....
All the trauma and his fears , his nightmares and anxiety came crashing down on him ....
As he continued staring at his poor and tattered life he realised that he had no one by his side ....
And all the events of his past , the 18 years of his dreadful life started playing infront of his eyes ....
He saw himself getting beaten up for small mistakes ..., he saw his younger self crying in a dark corner of a room , in the next second he was curled up trying to avoid those hits , his nine year old self on a surgery bed all tied up as some people in white coat were around him , him screaming to be saved to be rescued only to be beaten more , the scenes kept changing and there was not a single second where he was happy .... Always crying.... Then the scene came where he escaped from the orphanage.. and then he was searching for a part time job at the age of .. 16 years ..... Studying non stop .. working endlessly..barely sleeping.. having nosebleeds ...
Young Jungkook
(* Nose starts bleeding * ) Why why am I even alive ? Why ? No one needs me , no one wants me ... All those years of misery were because of my parents .... I had to pay for their mistakes....
Young Jungkook
How foolish of me to think that they love ...love hahahah no one loves me ..no one wants me .... I should die I should die there's nothing I'm living for ... Nothing (* Breathing heavily .. Vision gets blurred* )
And before he realised he was on the floor breathing abnormally , every little thaught made him want to scream ... But he wasn't able to . He was experiencing a panic attack...
Young Jungkook
(* realised he wasn't able to breath , looked around and felt like the walls were coming closer to him.... * )
He felt as if everything's closing in ...
Young Jungkook
(* Feeling trapped and wanted all of it to stop * ) Stop ..stop ..please ..hah..haa
Young Jungkook
(* Tears streaming down his face * )
He wanted to run but he can't ... It was becoming too much ... Too much for him ...he wanted it to stop but he wasn't able to stop it ... And then he heard a voice... A scary voice ....
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You are not wanted... Not loved ... you are not deserving...you are a nobody ...useless ..you are useless .. (* Whispering* )
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You should die ... You should die ... (* Whisper* )
By now Jungkook was curled up on the cold floor trembling , crying and shaking uncontrollably.....
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Ohh I'm writing I'm writing.... I'll update one more chapter......
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But Let's pay our tribute to the cutest charm of ARMY'S and Sir.Taehyung .... Hope his journey to the stars is filled with stardust ..he's a star himself....
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We'll miss you and keep you safe in our memories FOREVER KIM YEONTAN ... Thank you for feeling our and Sir.Taehyungs life with joy and happiness....
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It was a big loss for Sir.Taehyung .... I can't explain how he must be feeling right now cause we all know that when someone so close to you leaves and you look at their pictures and their things ...It Hurts ..it really does ... So I hope he's doing we'll..
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Byy Guys ... Make memories with your loved once cause we never know when they'll leave us .. So beautiful happy and keep your loved ones happy too 💜
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Support Sir.Taehyung ..and share , like and post his new song .... WINTER AHEAD ....
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THANK YOU (* BOWS * )
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