The Single’s Diary

That Night When All Begins

My life, as for myself, is nearly complete. It is not that extravagant but I’m not also struggling. Its simple and its normal. I am not rich nor beautiful— hmm yes, I am just that LADY in the middle.

Like most normal ladies out there, I also have my dreams, who else doesn’t have one? Me — To get marry, to have a family, to live with the person who loves me and vice-versa —that’s what i dream too.

My parents, my family, my friends and, yes of course, the love of my life; treat me as a princess minus the capricious living. I know how to balance so that I could stay happy.

Ahh. Yeaahh! Living normal is an heaven.

But wait, I also work for our plans. And so he do. We’ve been together for 5 years now, yes, 5 long years. And we never had a big fight, that’s why my friends are envious. They said I’m so blessed to have him, and so he was, right? Its a matter of give and take. We know that.

Just today, I wanna see him, he is my power source. Yea, I need to recharge and i want feel his hug. Just like that I believe something good is happening tonight.

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“C-can you please repeat what you have said now?”, I was in complete shock when he told me those words. None of those registers in my mind. I dont know how to react, shall I laugh? Is this some kind of a joke? You were just kidding right?

My mind is blurry now. “Please,a-again”. in the middle of this confusion, thats what my mouth speaks about.

“I said, let’s break-up.” he said as he looks straight on my eyes. “I am so tired of all these dramas and I am tired of keeping things up for us.” He paused, as if he was collecting his thoughts into words, and then again he speaks: “I’m so tired of you. I need to breath”

Shocked. My tears rushed as if they were in a race. Huh? How can this be happening? What did I do? “I c-cant understand...did—”, and cut.

He did not let me finish my words, he cut me off with his, telling and saying and speaking words from one to another and there I started to question myself.. DID I:

Ask him too many favors?

Step on his line?

Do something wrong?

Say something unnecessary?

Neglect a things so needed?

Wait? Why? What did I do? How come this is happening? Please pause, somebody please pause for a while. I’m not yet ready! Huh, Im not ready! Wait a minute! What shall I say?

And with all those thoughts and those questions running in my head, with those tears dropping on my cheeks, he continuously bickering his reasons.

I was stunned like everything flies so fast, the time, the people passing and walking outside this cafe, the words thats he speaks. I felt so tragic. Yes i do! I was starring at him, processing and processing.

I was so excited to meet him, to get my energy back and yet this??

“Please, lets not be like this. Let’s talk calmly. ” At last sentences came out.

“Yes, let us not be.” Without a blink he said it again, “Thats why im telling you, Let’s breakup.”

Pained

Stunned

Shocked

Confused

Hurt

And repeat

A minute

An hour

A two