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Hoshi has reached his house, but his mind is heavily displaced.
His emotions are in a turmoil and his mental state is far worse than that of a mental asylum patient.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
How could this happen to me????
Soonyoung/Hoshi
Out of all people, I had to have such wh*res as my friends!?!
Soonyoung/Hoshi
This is outrageous, how could they accept such a sinful act of loving their own gender???
Soonyoung/Hoshi
I can't tolerate it. Don't they feel the slightest ashamed?
Soonyoung/Hoshi
And........was I so oblivious to their identity??
Soonyoung/Hoshi
That m*th*rf*cker Mingyu said he was dating Wonwoo during his f*cking high school days.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
And the rest were also open of their sexuality. How could I have never noticed it??
Soonyoung/Hoshi
I think, I should get away from them.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
They are disgusting pieces of sh*t. I don't need such people in my life.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
I should openly tell them that I now hate them with my whole heart and that I can never accept them for the degrading and embarrassing creatures they are.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
Let me tell them that I ain't gonna deal with their shameful shenanigans.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
I won't be joining them anymore, I'll cut my ties with them.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
I don't need them in my life. Thei-
"Are you sure about that, Hosh?"
Soonyoung/Hoshi
"Turns around".
Soonyoung/Hoshi
Hobi hyung 😮
Soonyoung/Hoshi
When did you come here?
Hoseok
I was here the entire time.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
So I guess you heard my entire monologue.
Hoseok
Yes I did. And I get what you're feeling.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
See hyung, you also understand my concerns.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
Then why do you still ask if I'm sure of my decision.
Hoseok
Hosh, even though you're right in your own way, could you at least think about it rationally.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
But hyung, they're f*cking homos 😖.
Hoseok
But more than that, they were, and are the only one who trust and support you the most.
Hoseok
Before your high school, you were that lonely, depressed guy who would never think of talking to anyone.
Hoseok
You got so much hate and were bullied for no valid reason.
Hoseok
You struggled with me and mom so much. You endured all the hardships that fell on you without a single acquaintance of your own.
Hoseok
But when you went to high school, these people were the only ones who cared for you.
Hoseok
They might be gay or anything, but they were good to you.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
Hyung, that-
Hoseok
You always told me that Jihoon inspired you to pursue your passion for dance.
Hoseok
He ignited a hope in you that you could be the best.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
Yeah, 😞 ("in a low voice")
Hoseok
Seungkwan and Seokmin included you all the things they did. They never made you feel like you're a burden or an extra person in their group.
Hoseok
Junhui brought the child in you and Dino made you feel like you had someone that you would want to care for and protect.
Hoseok
Jeonghan and Seungcheol were always there for you, they were like your second parents. I don't know what the rest of your friends did, but they must have also been close to you.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
You're right in every sense hyung.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
But they still chose the wrong path.
Hoseok
Horangi, people make such bad choices in life.
Hoseok
We can't do anything but support them, even if we don't want to.
Hoseok
I also don't like their choice of sexuality, but I believe it's best for you to continue to be with them.
Hoseok
Apart from me, you have no one with you Horangi.
Hoseok
If you want an identity, if you want someone who can support you at all times without making you feel guilty for doing so, then it's them.
Hoseok
You never like to rely on me for bigger matters cause you that I have struggled to reach at this point.
Hoseok
I hate this habit of yours, but I still respect your wish cause you are my one and only family member that I have.
Hoseok
Similarly, they're your only friends. You can make new ones, but I don't think no one will be as loyal to you as they are.
Hoseok
Look at me. I have no luck in getting friends. The ones I have had never called me from the moment I left them.
Hoseok
They never wished on birthdays or any other important thing.
Hoseok
But you on the other hand got a personal invitation.
Hoseok
And I assume you had limited contact with them, something which I never got to.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
Yeah, they did wish me on my birthday and vice versa.
Hoseok
I advice you one thing.
Hoseok
Hate them as much as you want.
Hoseok
But don't leave them.
Hoseok
You need them for your security. I'm sure they will invite you in their pack.
Hoseok
You can't be like me, packless forever. It may seem smooth on the surface, but you may not know how much I get humiliated for not being a part of a pack.
Hoseok
The pack in which we are cements us in the society. Though this was just an old means of reconnecting, it has now become a must follow custom.
Soonyoung/Hoshi
("shocked") 😲😲😦
Hoseok
It's best if you think about it once again.
Hoseok
I am sure you'll find something good for yourself, regardless of how much you might hate homosexuals.
With that, Hoseok left the room, not giving Hoshi a chance to speak.
Hoshi, on the other began to deeply analyze the situation, realizing that his brother was right.
But at the same time, how could he tolerate being with people of the sexuality that he hates the most?
Would they also make him gay? He wouldn't even dream of becoming one!
All emotions ran in Hoshi's mind. But he decided to toss them away, and went inside to take some rest and call it day.
A day of heart wrecking revelation.
Cute kitty author
That's it for now.
Cute kitty author
You might find Hoseok reason for convincing Hoshi a bit dumb and questioning, but it's actually an important one.
Cute kitty author
I also mentioned in the introduction that packs are not important, which they actually are, but Hoseok puts an extra emphasis on it.
Cute kitty author
Hope you enjoyed this episode.
Cute kitty author
See you all in my next episode.
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