Trust
Anger.. Rage filled my heart...Blurred my Sanity... Puzzled my thoughts...
"No, Don't", One part of me whispered.
"Do it, He really gets on nerves! He doesn't deserve her!", Another part of me yelled.
"You don't want to stain your hands in blood anymore. You had seen enough dead bodies.Get that shit inside your mind!"
"She had enough damage! Just kill him"
"Remember, Mom's words.. She won't like it.. She doesn't want you to be like this"
I loosen the hold on his collar, calming myself. My eyes were red bright as I looked up to him. He got an upper hold both in physique, power and too handsome, lacking of nothing but common sense.
***
"I don't need a fxcker to tell me, what to do! "
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"Why don't you understand? She isn't what you think!"
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"It's my fxcking business. I love her so goddamn much!"
I screamed. I told him. Do I regret? NO! I confessed and will always confess about my love towards her.
"But never to her", My heart hissed in pain at the warning of my mind.
***
"Don't you dare to come between us"
He screamed and let a punch on my face, as my face turned aside on it's force.
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"Trust her dammit! She loves you!"
The urge to kill someone reached the peak. I inhaled and exhaled calming myself.
I wish he wasn't so good. I wish he wasn't the one she loves. I wish I was the one she married, But God has his own way.
He has something that I don't have,
She craves something that I lack...
That was the only thing that stopped me from approaching her. She thinks she was alone. No I stood with her in all these past five years.
Her Cute gestures, Warm feels, Her tears, Her smiles, Losing her heart to him, Blushing at the sight of him, Confessing to Marrying him, I had seen... I had seen every single fxcking thing, And I love her... I still do... And I always do!!
But he... He loves her but he lacks the most important thing that love requires... Trust...
Would everything been changed, if I had confessed before, If I tell her how much I love her...? Various What if's! But she needs something I don't have...
I left the place praying to god to give him some damn sense.
"I thought guilt could be the one,
That could drown a person
Other than rivers and ocean,
And then my eyes met yours!"
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