Love Is All I Have!
Trust
Anger.. Rage filled my heart...Blurred my Sanity... Puzzled my thoughts...
"No, Don't", One part of me whispered.
"Do it, He really gets on nerves! He doesn't deserve her!", Another part of me yelled.
"You don't want to stain your hands in blood anymore. You had seen enough dead bodies.Get that shit inside your mind!"
"She had enough damage! Just kill him"
"Remember, Mom's words.. She won't like it.. She doesn't want you to be like this"
I loosen the hold on his collar, calming myself. My eyes were red bright as I looked up to him. He got an upper hold both in physique, power and too handsome, lacking of nothing but common sense.
***
"I don't need a fxcker to tell me, what to do! "
...
"Why don't you understand? She isn't what you think!"
...
"It's my fxcking business. I love her so goddamn much!"
I screamed. I told him. Do I regret? NO! I confessed and will always confess about my love towards her.
"But never to her", My heart hissed in pain at the warning of my mind.
***
"Don't you dare to come between us"
He screamed and let a punch on my face, as my face turned aside on it's force.
...
"Trust her dammit! She loves you!"
The urge to kill someone reached the peak. I inhaled and exhaled calming myself.
I wish he wasn't so good. I wish he wasn't the one she loves. I wish I was the one she married, But God has his own way.
He has something that I don't have,
She craves something that I lack...
That was the only thing that stopped me from approaching her. She thinks she was alone. No I stood with her in all these past five years.
Her Cute gestures, Warm feels, Her tears, Her smiles, Losing her heart to him, Blushing at the sight of him, Confessing to Marrying him, I had seen... I had seen every single fxcking thing, And I love her... I still do... And I always do!!
But he... He loves her but he lacks the most important thing that love requires... Trust...
Would everything been changed, if I had confessed before, If I tell her how much I love her...? Various What if's! But she needs something I don't have...
I left the place praying to god to give him some damn sense.
"I thought guilt could be the one,
That could drown a person
Other than rivers and ocean,
And then my eyes met yours!"
~ ...
Hope
How possible can life swiftly change?
From feeling the lowest
To having the fullest...
At every insecured thought,
"Do I deserve this?",
His actions every time says,
" You deserve everything, love!"
"The world is cruel yet kind,
The world is toxic yet sweet,
The world has hate yet love
The world has devils yet angels,
It is you who gotta choose
Of what you wanna be!"
Those were my mom's words..
I don't remember having father... It was a just a family of two... And life was better with her... Better much than anything!
She never talked about my father nor her parents... For me, She is the only family and same goes to her...
Me and My Mom...
Even if you lose anything,
Never ever lose "HOPE"
She says it everytime.. I never really understood ... But I used to nod and say "Hope!"
For me Hope is beautiful...
Hope helps to live,
Hope teaches to love,
And "She is my hope!"
And when she left me alone in this world...
I realized, Hope isn't always beautiful!
Hope can be fxcked up!
Hope can be lost!
And my life journey taught me,
Life has to be seen with various angle!
And that's how hope is!
Hope can be fixed,
And even found!
Having no friends for so far, No one to call mine, I had various thoughts of giving up... But something stops me. And I believe it's the fragment of my mom's soul that watches me...
I might be wrong but I hope it is! She is there! She stays!
Having no difference between life and loneliness, I craved love... I craved for friends... I craved for a family...
And every hope as if reaches the God, I met him!
I can call him "Mine!",
'Cause he is!
He showed me love...
No, Showered me with!
Love is magical and beautiful✨
His parents were sweet... They accepted me as of a daughter than a daughter-in-law
His brother and sis-in-law passed away because of an accident... But they left a part of soul... Zoe!
And now,
We have a daughter too,
Zoe ✨
It's been some months that we were in love, and he asked me to move in to his house... His parents agreed to... But I refused it! And he insists for a registered marriage for now, so that I would move in with him...them...
Zoe loves my presence too, so without any delay, We married... Happily!
And who thought, the girl whose life, Which was filled with fears and tears,
Will have a drastic change...
The younger me craves,
And now I has!
He gave, everything, for me, for us!
And his peppering kisses
Always whispers,
"It ain't a dream,
But real!"
My heart is filled...satisfied... I don't desire nothing but hoping it for to stay! Stay long! Stay till we die!
Hope is a good thing maybe the best of things..
And no good thing ever dies!
Abandoned?
The lack of warmth made me quiver, as I moved along the bed, tracing for someone... him...
My eyes shook open as I see the right portion of bed empty.
Serena Angeline/ Stewart(FL)
Where does he go?
I turn on the lamp, and took my phone to see the time.
It showed half past twelve
He never left the bed in these two months before 5 ... And seeing him gone, made me wonder various events and thoughts
Serena Angeline/ Stewart(FL)
I am just thinking unnecessarily...
I shook my head, as I made my way to washroom
Serena Angeline/ Stewart(FL)
Drew? Are you in?
I knocked as I call out his name
Serena Angeline/ Stewart(FL)
Drew?
I pushed open the door, and noticed it was unlocked
Still I gave a check in, before I head downstairs
My eyes teared up as my mind whispered, ~maybe he had abandoned me~
Maybe he realised that I ain't good enough
Good enough for him to stay
My tears started to find it's way out from my eyes all through my cheeks
I just ran down, just to see him, sitting on a sofa along with his parents
I ran and hugged him, and with heavy flow of tears
He gently pat my back and pulled me a little back
Andrew Stewart(1st ML)
What's wrong?
He cupped my cheeks as his thumb ran down the way, my tears did
Serena Angeline/ Stewart(FL)
Why did you left me up alone?
Andrew Stewart(1st ML)
I just came to have a talk with mom
Andrew Stewart(1st ML)
You were sleeping soundly and I didn't have the heart to disturb you, babe...
He squeezed me as he placed kisses on my hair
He didn't ask about my tears, because he knows... He knows everything about me
Comprehension is the best thing we have between us!
I never really have to explain him everything, He knows how I feel... He knows where my thought goes...
As he wiped my tears, My eyes went to mom and dad, who looks at us in awe...
My cheeks and ears turned red, as I took a step back
Rachael Stewart(1st ML Mom)
We don't mind watching you guys continue🌚
Nathaniel Stewart(1st ML Dad)
Zoe is asking for a younger one too
My face flushed as I turned to look at him
I tried to ran, but he was fast
He instantly pulled me to his chest and laughed hard
Andrew Stewart(1st ML)
Come on, stop teasing my wife 😌
Serena Angeline/ Stewart(FL)
Keep quiet
But everyone heard it, as they just stiffled up the laugh
Serena Angeline/ Stewart(FL)
I am going upstairs
Serena Angeline/ Stewart(FL)
Good night everyone
I told and took a ran upstairs
I steal a glance at him, who smiled at me, before closing the door
As I closed the door, I slid down as I cover my face
Serena Angeline/ Stewart(FL)
How beautiful can life be?
I touch my hair where he kissed, as I flushed more
Serena Angeline/ Stewart(FL)
Mom, After you,
He is my hope..!
Mine ✨
I jumped at the bed,as I cover myself with duvet
After sometime, I felt a strong arm pulling me
I didn't have to open my eyes to check who it is
I know the smell... The sensual musks, solely belongs to him and now... maybe to me
I bend myself and adjust to his arms as I fell in deep slumber
In the world of blues,
He painted me golden..!
~Serena
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