Feelings which we can't control:)

Feelings... Yes the fuc'king feelings which we really can't control or don't have control over :)

And most specifically the feelings of Love... Love… It's something really deep which can't be really explained which can happen anywhere to anyone.

There are different types of love of course!

Love which is felt for a family, for a friend... But for a person… It's different.

The love which we feel where we desire to hug them, kiss them, hold them, always think about them, always want them to be only ours, would want them to share their problems with us, would want to be their comfort zone, to never let them go... It's really a special feeling which happens to a special person only….

But what happens if the person you love doesn't feel the same as you do? Heartbroken what else! But I am a selfish person who knows what ending I would be getting in the future still loving him like a stupid girl.

Ik in future I would have to break apart, and I am preparing myself for that only because I am just not able to leave him! I am warned by him many times but still I ignore that because leaving him myself would break me more... I would rather get pushed by him so hard that next time if I think about loving someone I would remember how I was pushed only because of that 'Love' feeling.

Now that I am writing this sh'its here and if any of my known people read this they are definitely going to come to me and ask 'What happened?' 'Am I doing ok?' so I am going to answer them here only...

I am fuc'king not fine and don't even want to be! I have been so happy these days that now I started to fear what Storm has been waiting for me ahead!

It's like happiness before sadness and I don't fuc'king want that if something has to happen then it should happen now and only now!

Why am I such a happy person? I doubt myself sometimes if it's really me or not because I literally forgot how to cry- I didn't even cry when my father and I got into an accident 'almost' like I should be crying na right? Because i was so small that time... Even now i hesitate a lot to share about my injuries to my parents because i don't want them to be worried about myself, or it's just that I want myself to be stronger by keeping my happy face even when i am in pain- Well…. That's something to be known that i literally hate when others get to i am in pain or they see me crying... That's my weakness... I just hate it so much…

.... I miss my first ever MT friend... He was literally like my brother... Telling me what to do, not to do, used to scold me a lot too.. At last he left MT...

/chuckles/ I am still wishing he would come back

It's enough ig... Of my bullsh'its.

See ya later- later? Nha nvm

Take care

Don't be selfish like me guys.

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