First day of school

Date. Thursday 11 January..

Today was the first day of my school

... I was excited and nervous at the same time..nervous becz I heard from my bsf that my previous school bully's had transferred to my school..I'm mentally strong so if they say something now , I can talk back but there is still a little fear deep inside my heart that..what if ..that I will become a loner again..sitting quietly at the side of the class when everyone else is having fun..that even when someone comes to talk to me ..they will come just to make fun of me . Thinking that is really scary..I don't want go trough that again ..no never..NGL 2023 was such a blessing to my almost dead soul...as if now that I'm writing this with my saking hands ..cuz guess what I'm having the 2nd panic attack of the day probably for the 8th time this week...panic attacks/Anxiety attacks / social anxiety attacks ar know stranger to me since a fairly young age..And I have decided to write about my days hare ...

"To see remember ,and learn, what I can from myself .."

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Hare you have to write A LOT OF WORDS...even if I don't want to..so hare is some gibberish...( printed stuff)

by~ Taylor swift

Fever dream high in the quiet of the night

You know that I caught it

Bad, bad boy

Shiny toy with a price

You know that I bought it

Killing me slow, out the window

I'm always waiting for you to be waiting below

Devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes

What doesn't kill me makes me want you more

And it's new, the shape of your body

It's blue, the feeling I've got

And it's ooh, whoa, oh

It's a cruel summer

It's cool, that's what I tell 'em

No rules in breakable heaven

But ooh, whoa oh

It's a cruel summer

With you

Hang your head low

In the glow of the vending machine

I'm not dying

You say that we'll just screw it up in these trying times

We're not trying

So cut the headlights, summer's a knife

I'm always waiting for you just to cut to the bone

Devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes

And if I bleed, you'll be the last to know

Oh, it's new, the shape of your body

It's blue, the feeling I've got

And it's ooh, whoa, oh

It's a cruel summer

It's cool, that's what I tell 'em

No rules in breakable heaven

But ooh, whoa, oh

It's a cruel summer

With you

I'm drunk in the back of the car

And I cried like a baby coming home from the bar (oh)

Said, "I'm fine, " but it wasn't true

I don't wanna keep secrets just to keep you

And I snuck in through the garden gate

Every night that summer just to seal my fate (oh)

And I screamed for whatever it's worth

"I love you, " ain't that the worst thing you ever heard?

He looks up grinning like a devil

It's new, the shape of your body

It's blue, the feeling I've got

And it's ooh, whoa, oh

It's a cruel summer

It's cool, that's what I tell 'em

No rules, in breakable heaven

But ooh, whoa, oh

It's a cruel summer

With you

I'm drunk in the back of the car

And I cried like a baby coming home from the bar (oh)

Said, "I'm fine, " but it wasn't true

I don't wanna keep secrets just to keep you

And I snuck in through the garden gate

Every night that summer just to seal my fate (oh)

And I screamed for whatever it's worth

"I love you, " ain't that the worst thing you ever heard?

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