It's Just Me,Myself And I

CHAPTER 01:- IS IT A SIN TO BE A GIRL?

I was born on 5th July 2007,no one was happy because my mother wanted a boy, but one thing was that my father had stopped drinking. But I have been bullied a lot since childhood. my complexion is brown,from the beginning everyone called me ugly.

no one is my friend or best friend. no one is mine in this world I have not considered anyone as my friend, everyone just made me do it for their own sake. I like to write about myself since childhood.

I have been writting in a diary since the beginning.when I was young, I did not do any household work and now from class 9th I have started helping my mother and sister.

whenever I say down to study I used to hear that she always sits down to study while working.

Mom replied:- Don't study now anyway which MBBS will you pass in 1 hour?

and then I have to close my books and do household work so I started going upstairs, to my room but there was a lot of negative vibes are coming.

on 28th February 2021 my crush proposed me his name is Derick. I'm very happy because he is my first boyfriend I never thought that I would have a boyfriend.

and my crush will proposed me through my friend Taylor in the morning and I said yes to him in the evening.

obviously I had to say yes because he is my crush. by mistake we wore the same clothes on that day. now 28 Feb was my best day ever.

I loved him very much, he also said the same thing to me he had Said that he will marry me, always keep me as a girlfriend,will always love me.

but all that was fake,his love,all that promises, all that was fake.

on 7th June 2021 we broke up because my mother told him a lot,and then my mother said me that at least you made under caste boyfriend he is a low caste boy.

but I think I'm not believe in religions i liked him very much, i thought he didn't like me

he said something to me. you are not Capable of loving me. you are very ugly whatever in the end I loved him so muchh

what did I get in the end I had only loved and now what can I do? it seems that there is no love left in this world. has anyone found true love yet?

Now I'm scared of attachments because I believe every attachment that I have will finally break my heart or leave me.

Anyway it's my fault I feel in love and he played with me. I didn't understand.but why always me.

whether you love me or not but i always will

SO THIS SONG IS FOR YOU!!

you're the light

you're the night

you're the colour of my blood

you're the cure

you're the pain