I was born on 5th July 2007,no one was happy because my mother wanted a boy, but one thing was that my father had stopped drinking. But I have been bullied a lot since childhood. my complexion is brown,from the beginning everyone called me ugly.

no one is my friend or best friend. no one is mine in this world I have not considered anyone as my friend, everyone just made me do it for their own sake. I like to write about myself since childhood.

I have been writting in a diary since the beginning.when I was young, I did not do any household work and now from class 9th I have started helping my mother and sister.

whenever I say down to study I used to hear that she always sits down to study while working.

Mom replied:- Don't study now anyway which MBBS will you pass in 1 hour?

and then I have to close my books and do household work so I started going upstairs, to my room but there was a lot of negative vibes are coming.

on 28th February 2021 my crush proposed me his name is Derick. I'm very happy because he is my first boyfriend I never thought that I would have a boyfriend.

and my crush will proposed me through my friend Taylor in the morning and I said yes to him in the evening.

obviously I had to say yes because he is my crush. by mistake we wore the same clothes on that day. now 28 Feb was my best day ever.

I loved him very much, he also said the same thing to me he had Said that he will marry me, always keep me as a girlfriend,will always love me.

but all that was fake,his love,all that promises, all that was fake.

on 7th June 2021 we broke up because my mother told him a lot,and then my mother said me that at least you made under caste boyfriend he is a low caste boy.

but I think I'm not believe in religions i liked him very much, i thought he didn't like me

he said something to me. you are not Capable of loving me. you are very ugly whatever in the end I loved him so muchh

what did I get in the end I had only loved and now what can I do? it seems that there is no love left in this world. has anyone found true love yet?

Now I'm scared of attachments because I believe every attachment that I have will finally break my heart or leave me.

Anyway it's my fault I feel in love and he played with me. I didn't understand.but why always me.

whether you love me or not but i always will

SO THIS SONG IS FOR YOU!!

you're the light

you're the night

you're the colour of my blood

you're the cure

you're the pain

you're the only thing I wanna touch

never knew that it could mean

so much

so much

you're the fear I don't care cause I've never been so high

follow me through the dark

let me take you past the satellites

you can see the world you brought to life to life

so,love me like you do

la-la love me like you do

Touch me like you do

ta-ta touch me like you do?

fading in fading out

on the edge of paradise

every inch of your skin is a holy grail I've got to find

only you can set my heart

on fire

on fire

I'll let you set the peace cause I'm not thinking straight

my head's spinning around can't see clear no more

what are you waiting for?

love me like you do

La-la love me like you do

Touch me like you do

ta-ta touch me like you do?