chapter 1

11.13.15

Jimin feels it, the slight uneasiness creeping through him. The trepidation taking over suddenly makes him lose his appetite and he ends up stirring the cup of ramen in his hands sluggishly. Jimin looks out the car window from where he sits on the passenger side, eyes focusing on the supermarket up front and the surrounding cars in the parking lot.

Taehyung and Jimin are supposed to be having a nice ramen car date right now but because of Jimin’s restless thoughts, he ends up feeling suffocated.

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“You okay, babe?” Taehyung asks from the driver’s seat with a soft smile on his face, chewing on his noodles thoroughly. “You kept complaining about how hungry you were on the way here.” His sentence ends in a cute little drawl that gives Jimin butterflies, but those butterflies are also accompanied by a multitude of flips, and it makes his stomach sick. Sick because it’s so easy to love Kim Taehyung who is so sweet and caring and loving but Jimin is barely twenty-one and right now, he realizes he’s not completely ready for commitment.

Jimin exhales shakily and leans back on his seat. “Something’s not right.”

“Damn. Did I get you the wrong ramen flavor again?”

Jimin silently snorts and shakes his head gloomily, turning to face the other. “No, not that.” He pauses. “…I’m talking about us.”

“Oh.” Taehyung blinks, clearly taken by surprise at the unexpected turn of Jimin’s words. Taehyung senses the foreboding atmosphere and stops eating; he fiddles with his chopsticks before gazing at Jimin, the intensity of his stare boring holes into his face.

A minute of awkward and tense silence passes by.

“Are you…breaking up with me?” Taehyung’s brows are furrowed, a confused and pained expression embedded on his handsome face that disturbs his usual happy self.

“I’m sorry.” Jimin hates that his voice cracks and rubs the onslaught of hot, fresh tears away. He wants to wipe off the sad face Taehyung is making, wants to kiss him senselessly, and tell him he still loves him.

But what’s done is done.

The cups of unfinished ramen are left forgotten on their lap, and Jimin mourns the loss of his year-long relationship.

11.21.15

Jimin still loves Taehyung.

He knows that, feels that, thinks about that as he’s wrapped up in a cocoon of blankets on a lazy Saturday morning. But he doesn’t want Taehyung right now. It would be unhealthy for Jimin and unfair towards Taehyung to put themselves in a relationship Jimin’s not comfortable with at the moment.

“Maybe this is what’s best for you right now,” Taehyung had eventually said in his cramped car last week. “Maybe in a year or two, when you’re ready again…” Taehyung never finished that sentence but Jimin holds onto his words more than he would like.

A tired groan escapes his lips as Jimin decides to get up from bed. Today is another new day and he’s got a load of shit to do. He trudges into his small bathroom, grabs his toothbrush, and slathers some toothpaste, quickly putting it in his mouth. As foam gathers messily around his teeth, Jimin decides to browse through his Facebook app and keep himself occupied. His news feed is full of crazy shenanigans (memes, cat videos, pranks gone wrong, etc.) but he stops short when he sees one particular updated status.

Kim Taehyung

               ♡ - Kim Taehyung is single.

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          Kim Seokjin :(((((

          Jung Hoseok omg what

The foam overflows and slides down Jimin’s chin but he doesn’t even care; he just stares longingly at his phone and at Taehyung’s updated relationship status. Jimin hasn’t even gotten around to change his yet.

He still loves Taehyung.

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