11.13.15

Jimin feels it, the slight uneasiness creeping through him. The trepidation taking over suddenly makes him lose his appetite and he ends up stirring the cup of ramen in his hands sluggishly. Jimin looks out the car window from where he sits on the passenger side, eyes focusing on the supermarket up front and the surrounding cars in the parking lot.

Taehyung and Jimin are supposed to be having a nice ramen car date right now but because of Jimin’s restless thoughts, he ends up feeling suffocated.

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“You okay, babe?” Taehyung asks from the driver’s seat with a soft smile on his face, chewing on his noodles thoroughly. “You kept complaining about how hungry you were on the way here.” His sentence ends in a cute little drawl that gives Jimin butterflies, but those butterflies are also accompanied by a multitude of flips, and it makes his stomach sick. Sick because it’s so easy to love Kim Taehyung who is so sweet and caring and loving but Jimin is barely twenty-one and right now, he realizes he’s not completely ready for commitment.

Jimin exhales shakily and leans back on his seat. “Something’s not right.”

“Damn. Did I get you the wrong ramen flavor again?”

Jimin silently snorts and shakes his head gloomily, turning to face the other. “No, not that.” He pauses. “…I’m talking about us.”

“Oh.” Taehyung blinks, clearly taken by surprise at the unexpected turn of Jimin’s words. Taehyung senses the foreboding atmosphere and stops eating; he fiddles with his chopsticks before gazing at Jimin, the intensity of his stare boring holes into his face.

A minute of awkward and tense silence passes by.

“Are you…breaking up with me?” Taehyung’s brows are furrowed, a confused and pained expression embedded on his handsome face that disturbs his usual happy self.

“I’m sorry.” Jimin hates that his voice cracks and rubs the onslaught of hot, fresh tears away. He wants to wipe off the sad face Taehyung is making, wants to kiss him senselessly, and tell him he still loves him.

But what’s done is done.

The cups of unfinished ramen are left forgotten on their lap, and Jimin mourns the loss of his year-long relationship.

11.21.15

Jimin still loves Taehyung.

He knows that, feels that, thinks about that as he’s wrapped up in a cocoon of blankets on a lazy Saturday morning. But he doesn’t want Taehyung right now. It would be unhealthy for Jimin and unfair towards Taehyung to put themselves in a relationship Jimin’s not comfortable with at the moment.

“Maybe this is what’s best for you right now,” Taehyung had eventually said in his cramped car last week. “Maybe in a year or two, when you’re ready again…” Taehyung never finished that sentence but Jimin holds onto his words more than he would like.

A tired groan escapes his lips as Jimin decides to get up from bed. Today is another new day and he’s got a load of shit to do. He trudges into his small bathroom, grabs his toothbrush, and slathers some toothpaste, quickly putting it in his mouth. As foam gathers messily around his teeth, Jimin decides to browse through his Facebook app and keep himself occupied. His news feed is full of crazy shenanigans (memes, cat videos, pranks gone wrong, etc.) but he stops short when he sees one particular updated status.

Kim Taehyung

               ♡ - Kim Taehyung is single.

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          Kim Seokjin :(((((

          Jung Hoseok omg what

The foam overflows and slides down Jimin’s chin but he doesn’t even care; he just stares longingly at his phone and at Taehyung’s updated relationship status. Jimin hasn’t even gotten around to change his yet.

He still loves Taehyung.

03.25.16

Jimin swore off social media for a while after that and while it proved an extremely difficult challenge, he managed to succeed. But it’s been four months now since their breakup and Jimin is curious to see what Taehyung is up to lately. He tells himself it will just be a quick little check and to not dwell too much.

Jimin munches on an apple as he opens Facebook on his phone and clicks on the search bar. He types in ‘Kim T’ and presses the first listed suggestion. Jimin notices from the tiny thumbnail that Taehyung’s profile picture has changed since he last saw it but can’t distinguish the image yet. He waits for the profile to load and slowly scrolls down.

Jimin clearly sees the profile picture now, and he feels the green-eyed monster awaken inside of him.

In the image, Taehyung is grinning softly, one arm hung loosely around another guy’s waist. Said guy is winking cutely with his tongue stuck out—like that one emoji—and his head rests snug on Taehyung’s shoulder. Jimin doesn’t recognize the other male.

The sweet and juicy apple suddenly tastes bitter in Jimin’s mouth, and he has a hard time swallowing it down.

Jimin studies the picture closely.

They look like they’re at some fair or amusement park as suggested by the colorful, blurry chaos around them. The dimmed lighting of the sky hints it’s close to the evening, nearing nighttime. Jimin then moves his eyes to inspect the unknown guy. Jimin can tell this guy is good-looking, even if his face closely resembles a bunny. He seems tall, maybe around Taehyung’s height but since his head is on Taehyung’s shoulder, he’s got a bit of a slouched position. He’s wearing a white shirt that says ‘Stand Aloné’ (what the **** why is the e accented that makes no sense) and his black skinny jeans practically cling onto his long legs. He’s got some nice kicks on too, a pair of white/black Jordans.

The guy is not tagged in Taehyung’s photo and there are well over 200 likes for Jimin to even try and narrow this person down. The comments are mainly filled with heart-eyes emojis or “aww! cute pic” so that leaves Jimin with nothing as well. Even Taehyung’s caption for the photo only says “fun times :)”.

Jimin switches gears and goes to Taehyung’s ‘About’ section, but his relationship status still states Single. He can’t help but wonder though.

Who is this guy? When did they meet? Are they just friends? Are they dating? If so, for how long?

Jimin breathes deeply, wanting to find out more about this mystery man but his efforts are cut short when his roommate, Jongin, walks into the living room. Jimin immediately locks his phone.

“Err, you okay?” Jongin eyes Jimin suspiciously.

“Of course, why wouldn’t I be?”

Jongin scratches his head, giving him a subtle look of ‘okay, sure’ before dropping the subject. “I’m going to head to the grocery store real quick. We’re out of toilet paper and other necessary stuff for survival. Need anything?”

Jimin lies down on the couch, a small frown on his face. “Maybe some vodka. And ice cream.”

The research for this mystery guy can wait.

04.05.16

It’s not until well over a week later that Jimin finds out who the mystery guy is.

Jimin’s on his laptop this time.

Taehyung has uploaded a mini photo album entitled ‘Music Festival’ on Facebook. It’s mainly pictures of a bunch of bands and performances, food, and a grass field full of young adults. The last picture, however, catches Jimin’s attention.

It’s a selca of the ‘Stand Aloné’ guy (that’s what Jimin’s been mentally calling him all week) and Taehyung; the image basically screams cuteness. Jimin feels sick to the bone but he can’t look away just yet. He can tell ‘Stand Aloné’ guy is taking the photo – he is in the front, smiling happily with a v sign while Taehyung makes a derpy face in the back. They’re sitting close to each other on the grass, relaxed.

With such a high quality selca, Jimin is able to look at ‘Stand Aloné’ guy’s face up close. He has pretty Roundish-Almond eyes, a long, slender nose, and luscious looking lips; his tousled brown hair suits him well along with his fair complexion. Undoubtedly, this guy’s a looker.

Jimin glances down at the caption and comments, heart squeezing stupidly at what he reads.

Kim Taehyung

               guess who i came with :D

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          Jeon Jungkook ayy dat me

          Jeon Jungkook my favorite part was when you spilled beer all over your pants

          Kim Taehyung STOP you said you would never bring that up

          Jeon Jungkook I lied ;)

At least Jimin finally has a name to put with the face now.

Jeon Jungkook. Jeon Jungkook. Jeon Jungkook.

So, this was the guy possibly creeping his way into Taehyung’s heart while he might still be in love with Jimin. (Well, that’s what Jimin tells himself anyway).

He doesn’t hesitate to click on Jungkook’s name, directing Jimin to his profile. It looks fairly normal for a regular Facebook profile but Jimin notices this Jeon guy is not very active on it. His last post is from October of last year, and it’s about an anime clip. Jimin chooses to surf through his five viewable profile pictures to the public which consist mainly of selfies. He’s only got one cover photo – a picture of him and his friends mocking the college frat boy pose in front of a Starbucks. All in all, the profile reveals very little about Jeon Jungkook.

But Jimin refuses to give up. He wants to know more, even though the voice in the back of his mind screams this is nearing borderline obsession. Whatever. He continues to snoop around, mentally giving himself a high-five when he finds the guy’s Instagram username. Almost immediately, Jimin grabs his phone and opens the app, entering jeonjk97 into the search bar.

jeonjk97

52 posts | 538 followers | 469 following

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Busan boy who lives in Seoul

The fact Jeon Jungkook comes from Busan like Jimin really bothers him. He knows he shouldn’t care. A bunch of people are from Busan. Still, the fact makes him bite the inside of his cheeks in displeasure. He takes a big gulp of water as he scrolls through the pictures. Jeon Jungkook is a bit more active on Instagram albeit not by a whole lot; the dates between his posts range from a week to two months. Jimin does find out a lot about him through Instagram though.

Jeon Jungkook likes anime, fanboys over Iron Man, and has a talent for drawing. He studies at a different university located about an hour away from Jimin’s institution. He’s a bit of a gym rat. He also enjoys dancing and singing but according to one caption, ‘rehearsals are currently kicking my ass’.

Truly, Jeon Jungkook’s Instagram embodies the aesthetic feel. All his filters are on point; Jimin will give him credit. He seems like a nice guy who knows how to have fun in life. If he is dating Taehyung, Jimin can’t even deny they match well.

Jimin wants to hate him, but he doesn’t. After all, he has no real reason to.